WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH MY HEAD
Mood:  irritated
what the fuck is up... last time this feeling came over me there was something up with her... WTF is this shit.. is this a sign for something god and i mean the one above... what is up..... last summer something came over me and it was around the time she had something happen... dammit i wish i could remember... but the discussion came up when we TALKED about everything in moncton... jeese... why am i wide awake.. fuck.. i so could just drive away right fucken now :(...what is it dammit.... grrrrrrrr 1 am and i am WIDE awake.... think think think.... what do i need.. what do i have to do to get her off my mind.... what is it.... i need something to occupy my mind.... fuck why can i just find something anything to get me away from all this shit.... i need stress about something else.... man on man am i ever fucked up right now............ jeese i hope the hell no one reads this shit.... just need to get some shit down... might just delete it all later....i dont even enjoy doing anything that i used to enjoy :S...... only thing that will make me happy or even did is to get off this dam island :S... is that a sign.. for me to leave.... if i only have 22grand in debt i prob would take the fuck off :S awwwww would this dam nightmare just stop :S...every dam time i close my eyes i see it.... red.....no in anger but in beauty.... i sit here looking at shit i own and i dont value anything i have nor see ..... i lost all interest in shit :S...how can u just sit there for hours looking at a person and know what they are thinking and feeling... and say... pffffft.... wrong one... i tell my self yea yea... her loss..... gdit.... how though... this is just one of those dam feelings that make ya think... wtf is wrong... she ok... am i ok... is someone hurt... is someone great... what is it....ok ........... must try and relax.... gota get some sleep... :S.... er well try...