ok what the fuck is going on... can i meet one fucken girl that might even be remotely interested in me that dosent have kids or what... holy shit im sick and tired of it... is there any good single with out kids... women out there... anywhere.... im just plain tired of it... hard to find em... everytime i find one something fucked up happens... not interested... bla bla... to busy bla bla... then a month later they are with some other fella... like wtf is up with that...guess ill just have to carry on like always... play the game.. how fucken stupid it is... and i hate it... dammit.... and to anyone who reads this.. "I am ready to settle down"... just need to find someone to do it with.. and we gota get along... yes iam having fun.. and playin the field but who doesnt till they meet the one that takes their breath away... if it ever happens and lasts.... so less than 3 months till the fat bastard arrives.. oh yay... going to be another sad fucken x mas for me .... maybe ill leave for sure this year.. head south for a couple weeks if i can get there... who knows... rather be with strangers than home alone really hell rather just be away from the house.. even if its 15 mins away... cant handle another x mas here... and going west isnt that much better :S.. unfortunately...yes i am a bit down lately... things on my mind... and i am gettin tired of being alone... really sucks... dont even have many friends really any more... guess its time to hit the black top alone for awhile again... and no its not me feeling sorry for my self... its just me ranting on about my shit... so what will this weekend hold for me.. prob nothing much... dammit i need a vehicle to get away... need a good halifax drunk really really soon... dammit.. i miss j man... we need a good tear together... soon maybe just soon.. shuttle it if i have to..
so gota run
ry