hi ho hi ho its off to work i go
Mood:  hug me
its off to Alberta i go.. soon that is... decisions decisions... what have i been up to people wonder... nothing much.. i go to work.. come home... eat sleep... shit in there somewhere.. that is about it... and maybe on the weekends if something comes up i go for it.... but here is where i gota say sorry.. to anyone and everyone i meet met will meet so on so forth and yada yada... I'm sorrying for being how i am... i lost alot of my self the past 2 years and i am trying to get it back... i used to enjoy being out with friends.. used to enjoy being my self... being around anyone i know.. now i know i lost alot... for what reason i do not know exactly... but i have to try and fix this soon.. I'm not happy with my self.. with being around people and that sorta crazy shit... I'm not available to have my heart open up.. what so ever.. unfortunately... its sad really :S.. oh well... that is what happens when ya been threw what i have.... wander around like a fucken zombie.... but i am going to attempt to make a step and a change... the count down begins.. I'm taking off to Alberta... soon... to see how it goes.. main reason is to pay off bills... but one never knows.. maybe ill find my self out there and stay... if so i will miss everyone but ill be back to visit... if i do come back maybe ill be different.. maybe not.. one only hopes... but i do wish i could take every last new friend i met lately with me... so i can enjoy it with some new friends... but that isn't going to happen... all i can do is hope and pray something good comes outa this... lots of new things going to happen.. new job.. new province.. new to flying.. new to living off island.. new people... new everything... hopefully all this stuff with bring a new me... with all that said... i gota go relax for a bit now...
cheers
god bless
good nite
and talk soon
Ry