just a drop in the bucket
Mood:  sad
so it has been almost 3 weeks now .... am i am not liking it here what so ever... i need a vehicle of somesort... so what have i been up to... let see... NOTHING much really... seen theory of a dead man last monday... and last night sat night we went out to the trap and gill... wow.. sounded like fun.... NOT.... so i drank a bunch .. then we got a cab down.. great im out in the city... starting to like it.. then trac and jeff wanted to leave... booooo.... so i desided to stay and hitch a ride with toby... great... get to hang out longer... then she goes for a smoke... 2 am comes... wheres toby.... lovely... talked to her BF... and she left... NICEEEEE..... then i asked if i could hitch a rid with him.... ok... then all 6 of us head to the car... A FUCKEN ECHO... nice... so i turned around and started to head into the night of the city.... i felt just as small as a drop in a bucket.... wasent really scared... just sorta told my self... FUCK IT ALL... i walked and walked tried to find a cab... nothing... what a fucken city.. no gd cabs around.. then i found a cop.. asked him.. so he pointed me in the direction... and asked him for a location of ahotel.. i was going to cause at 330 i was starting to freeze my ass off.... lovely... so i started to walk.. to where i had no fucken clue.... just keeping my head up and being aware of what is around me.. then i see someone... fucken rob.. one of the guys on the crew that i met at the dinner.. and his bro was there ken... so i talked to them.. and awsome enough ken let me crash on his couch then rob gave me adrive up close to where i am staying... gota love newfies.... there are actually people around that will help... bout the only gd thing that went good for me... then i came back home(er place to stay)... as my home is in PEI i know that now... and walked in.. no one even fucken asked where i was what happened.. i could have been fucken killed for fuck sakes... alone in the gd city... NICE... so i am gettin pretty fucken discuraged of this whole adventure.. i need a car or something... i gota be able to just get out... soon..... or i am heading home filing bankruptcy and live like a poor man......i am finding it hard finding things to do... all i do is think.. not fucken good for me.... i think bout everything and everyone lately.... i know what i want.... but i know i cant have that........ i dont think ill ever have that really... :S... sad but true.... so its 430 and i am about ready to just go to bed... funny for me eh... i never sleep in the afternoon :(.... but what do u do when u have no life what so ever.... try and no go crazy i guess.... well i am going for now... to do what i dont know..... but for anyone who reads this.. imiss everyone... and wish iwas back on ole PEI ... even though it is boring at least i do have a few good friends back there and some family that gives a fuck.... so how am i doing.. not good.. just so people know... next 2 weeks is going to be the hardest for me in my life unless something changes drastically....
well gota run
cheers
Ry