6:45 am December 25
well its that time of year again.... wishing i was back home really but nope i am just sitting here alone in this apt... but going to head over to jeff and traceys soon hopefully they will be done of their stuff...i really dont enjoy this time of year.... i did 2 years ago.... waiting for a certain little one to get up... it was so dam nice to have that.... one thing i wish i did have right now.... been thinking about all those past things like crazy lately.. no idea why but ihave :(.... i miss them both like mad.... wish there was something i could do.... yea yea everyone that is going to read this is going to say get over her it time to move on bla bla bla.. yea yea i tell my self that... its hard to when u meet someone and can be your total self and they totally understand u ... very strange feeling but the best feeling non the less... well enough about that.. if that certaing 2 people happen to come across this.. i do wish ya a merry x mas and the 2 that we had together will always be in my heart..... and to anyone else that i know ...it is hard for me to think positive when i am far from home and want to be there but merry x mas to all u that i love also.. u all know who u are.... well i should go lay down again for a bit then head over to the cuz's and finish this day off there and try and make it threw the rest of this time of year....
god bless
cheers
and Merry Xmas from the big city
Ry