hello
Mood:  don't ask
so yea.. waht do i do.. i sittin her drinkin alone as usual... bored fucken crazy.... one thing that has been on my mind for some time now is keelyn and amber :(.... what the fuck is up with that...been almost a year... now i start thinkin of them :(... prob cause it was about a year ago today that things started to feel awsome... i loved them both..and x mas meant something to me :).. then.. now this year... what a fucken waste of a holiday... i just wish it wopuld go by realy dam fast..... maybe ill move in the new year... let see where shal i go... NZ... Halifax.... scotland.. who the fuck know... well prob no where.. :S.. i suck... no friends really.... family are the only ones that i talk to.... well... cousins... whom i love with all my heart... they stand beside me reguardless... as i do to them.... aw welll... fuck i ramble on about nothin when i drink.
fuck it all... so what do i do.. go out or stay the fuck hom.... go out maybe... maybe meet someone.... NOT FUCKEN LIKELY.... it will be another 2 years i find anyone i even think i might want to date quote... typical... ryan status... miserable for couple years then something crazy happens... meet someone... maybe i mightg meet the one... cant see it but who the fuck knws really :S... fuck it all..... well i am siging off for now... i am drunkand rambled enough chow..... merry x mas to all who it means alot to .. and to all who dont ... try ot make it threw the best u can.. cause i know i am sure as fuck just trying to make it :(..... cheers all
Ryan