one good thing = one bad thing
Mood:  lucky
so today i got some shit done that i have been putting off for some time.. have the oil tank in place... plumbed in... most of it... just gota switch the old with the new.. and its good to go.... so yea did that today.. had to do something since i stayed home.. fell asleep at like 930 last night.. fucked up for me i say.. but that is what happens when ya go out on a Thurs night eh.... but anyhow.. got up at like 630... fuckk..... did my shit... then decided to work on my baby... if anyone doesn't know.... my baby is my 89 Dakota convertible.. been in the shop for over a year now.. doing body work... engine swap.. some new parts yada yada.... so yea tinkered with that.. got really pissed off.... so having the timing out 180 degs... make a fucken shit load of difference.... 3 cranks and it started boy oh boy was i ever a happy man.... been ages since i herd it purrrr.... but that was short lived.. needed to run into town and get antifreeze .. cant run a motor with no coolant... so got that... blam.. thought I'm on my way to actually getting something acomplished.... but no wait... i could smell gas... i fucken paniced.... fuel leak... oh shit... shut it down.. investigate... dam fuel line leakin... and was spraying on the exhaust... didn't catch a fire.. but fucken close... gota go out and make sure the fuel is all soaked up... dammit... could have lost everything.. truck.. tools.. shop... christ.. i should have known to push it out before starting it .... gawd..... oh well... i think and well hope that disaster is past now.... uggg..... why do i always have so many close calls lately... I'm not liking this at all.... but anyhow... was out Thurs.. had fun.. partied at Amy's.. and a shit load showed up... then last night to fucken tired to do shit.. oh wel.... so now tonight... either go down to c town.. but no idea where to stay :S.. hang out with tash... but i wanna drink.. so that idea might be off... and well shan invited me down er up to alberton for the night to hang out with her bro and sis inlaw.. and a bunch of them are heading out... what to do what to do.... I'm sorta thinking west.. it was fun last time... so we will see..... anyhow.. gota go make sure things aren't afire.... bye for now.....
Ry

hi ho hi ho its off to work i go
Mood:  hug me
its off to Alberta i go.. soon that is... decisions decisions... what have i been up to people wonder... nothing much.. i go to work.. come home... eat sleep... shit in there somewhere.. that is about it... and maybe on the weekends if something comes up i go for it.... but here is where i gota say sorry.. to anyone and everyone i meet met will meet so on so forth and yada yada... I'm sorrying for being how i am... i lost alot of my self the past 2 years and i am trying to get it back... i used to enjoy being out with friends.. used to enjoy being my self... being around anyone i know.. now i know i lost alot... for what reason i do not know exactly... but i have to try and fix this soon.. I'm not happy with my self.. with being around people and that sorta crazy shit... I'm not available to have my heart open up.. what so ever.. unfortunately... its sad really :S.. oh well... that is what happens when ya been threw what i have.... wander around like a fucken zombie.... but i am going to attempt to make a step and a change... the count down begins.. I'm taking off to Alberta... soon... to see how it goes.. main reason is to pay off bills... but one never knows.. maybe ill find my self out there and stay... if so i will miss everyone but ill be back to visit... if i do come back maybe ill be different.. maybe not.. one only hopes... but i do wish i could take every last new friend i met lately with me... so i can enjoy it with some new friends... but that isn't going to happen... all i can do is hope and pray something good comes outa this... lots of new things going to happen.. new job.. new province.. new to flying.. new to living off island.. new people... new everything... hopefully all this stuff with bring a new me... with all that said... i gota go relax for a bit now...
cheers
god bless
good nite
and talk soon
Ry

me and my dam vodka and dancing hahahah what a night was a blast
Mood:  happy
ok here i go again.. rambling on about what i been doing.. but that is what this shit if for right :P... haha... so well what did i do..... this week... didn't work much... bad weather and in between jobs.. lovely eh... oh well... so what day was it now.. humm... Wednesday wasn't it... i headed up west to help Peggy move her crap into her new apt... so i gota get my sticker on my truck... just because i own a truck does it mean i will help u move hahaha.. sure i will for friends :D.... then after that i headed over to Shans.... hung out.. and decided to just stay there the night... was nice and relaxing... and her mudder made me supper... well everyone haha... but tasty i say :).... it was fun .... then i headed home on Thurs cause worked on fri... ok... so Jody and shan came down... picked me up and we headed to c town for a drive... Jody and her things going on.. ill be there for her.. tell her what i can about "shit" and all.... u know what i mean.... but she is a great girl :)... no one can convince me other wise... so they came back here and tried to convince me to head west for another session of hard core drinking but i just couldn't do it... worked on sat since i missed work during the week... but it was good to just relax and sleep... BUT... sat night was planed sorta... went to work... got home around 2 relaxed a bit.. lazed around then got ready to head to c town... fun fun :D... got to Krista's place... wow what a nice friggen house... wicked even.. met her folks... lovely people :).. and nice truck dad lol.... gota love a dodge 3500 dually with a hemi diesel lol... so yea around 7 i got to start drinking go figure eh me drink early p[ffffft.... then we off to Amy's ;)... cutie she is dammit lol.... gota love tall smart ladies that have good jobs and own houses eh hehehe.. me bad... so heather was there her roomie.. she is great also.. cute to boot lol... and Stephen or Steven i dunno... he was from nfld... what a riot... we were all dressed... oh yea Krista was there he he since she carted my ass around.. and sue... but she had to leave... don't mind the pun ill explain.... we were all dressed up i was just a stupid old man with tits on his face... but i thought it was funny so did Steven... girls i wasn't much sure if they were impressed but oh well.. gota know me to love me eh LOL... and Krista attempted to dress as a witch but didn't do it... dammit... and Amy was a cow girl or something... cute ... but failed to wear her hat....oh well... but gees she fell down the stairs.. dunno how... but shit.. thats gota hurt.. she still came and danced with us for like 3 hours solid.. at the VU.. what a riot it was... oh yea.. Steven was dressed as Capt Crunch.. yea yea the cereal guy to funny .. what an animal... even brought some cereal to eat lol... and heather was what u call a naughty nun... and wow.. she was hot... lol.. me bad again.... and sue... well... she did get dressed up as a tree.... leaves all over her... but like i said she had to leave hahahaha... I'm just to tired and giddy now.. got work in the am... sucks but... so yea that was my fun night.. drank alot of VODKA again..gawd i know why i don't drink that shit all the time... i was.. how u say... fucked up... as Amy put it i think.... 2/3 of a quart... and well.. bout 8-10 drinks at the vu.. i was messed up... even got sick.. shit.. again yea.. lovely 2 weekends in a row... what is wrong with me... so Krista got me back to the rents place.. good job K.... gota hand it to ya.... he he....so all in all the night was awesome.. i gota try and get some pics posted of my recent adventures if i can only sit down and get at it.... soon i promise....
but until then
peace out
god bless
good nite
and
cheers
Ry

just sittin here surfing and watchin some tv
just sittin here hangin out alone... day off from work cause its raining out... aw well nice to relax ... but i should be doing something soon i will... so here i was sittin here flickin threw the channels and watched some Much Music.. and the new Default song came on... man what an awsome song... what is with all these artists writing songs that mean so much about people lives... do they just write them or is it self experience or what... but the lyrics are awsome.. now i gota download the new tunes.. they rock... so here is the lyrics if anyone is interested in it. :)... well imust go eat now.. find something to do...
cheers and good luck :)
Ry






"Count On Me"

I know that life ain't always good to you.
I've seen exactly what it’s put you through
Thrown you around and turned you upside down and so you
You got to thinking there was no way out
You started sinking and it pulled you down
It may be tough you've to get back up
Because you know that life ain't over yet
I'm here for you so don't forget
You can count on me
Cause’ I will carry you till you
Carry on

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me
To hold you till the healing is done
And every time you fall apart
Well you can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me
To hold you till that feeling is gone

I wonder why nobody's waiting on you
I'd like to be the one to pull you through your darkest times
I'd love to be the light that finds you
I see a silver lining on your cloud
I'll pick you up whenever you fall down
Just take my hand and I will help you stand

Because you know that life ain't over yet
I'm here for you so don't forget
You can count on me
Cause’ I will carry you till you carry on
Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me to hold you till the healing is done
And every time you fall apart you can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is
Gone so you can live today
Seems so long to yesterday
Keep on counting on me to carry you till you carry on
Carry on

You know that life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
You can count on me cause I will carry you till you carry on

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me to hold you till that healing is done
And every time you fall apart
You can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone
Remember life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone
Remember life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone

2 friggen weeks...
so what have i been up to... lets see.... interesting few weeks i had.... where do i start.... well one weekend krista came down with trisha and friends... we went out partying.. oh yea shit i already mentioned that... but anywho.. had shots left from that weekend... so she came down on a sat... we had the rest of em.. went out and danced a bunch.. it was fun.. she met the crazy cuz's and sylvia and a bunch.. was pretty fun.... then what happened... well i been startin to worry bout this winter... i gota make a move... thinkin bout headin west... but do i or not that is the question... been workin on my self for the past 2 weeks desiding if i should go or not.. hard to just up and take off.. when u never done it before... so that is something that is rackin on my brain along with other shit... anywho... ok so 2 weekends ago headed up west to hang out with a few new friends... shan and jody and char and who the hell else... derek... humm cant remember let me think.. but it was cool spend couple nights up there just hangin out.. watchin tv... chattin and shit... fun fun.. the came down and visited one night... hit a movie... god i love gettin out on a sunday night... thanks guys.... so this past weekend was interesting... fri i desided to risk it all and head up to FRANKS hahaha.. with the gang... shan jody char... well that is who i started out drinkin with.. then i got fucken smashed... we hit franks haha... just call me your retarded cuz ... eh jod.... hehe.. and who else did i meet... some chick named fish.. or is it tish... and another name something or other i can fucken remembe.r.. all i remember is chattin to the RCMP and puking... but they didnt get me hehe.... i didnt break the window i was just trying not to fall down haha.... oh well... fun to be had... so i have no idea what time i got into bed.. or how i got there.. just gota say thanks shan for takin care of me :D.... some people would rather just left me on the deck to die.. haha... but i did feel ike i was dying in the morning... puking again... dammit i cant remember the last time i puked in the morning.. well er afternoon... when i was supoed to be workin at the cottage... that went all to fuck.. no cell service in kildarecape i take it... 8 fucken msgs... and 5 from dad.. to funny every hour till 6... oh well... they new i was west for a drinking exchursion... but all in all it was fun... then sat... sat... hummm sat... should have went to c town.. oh well... got to go down sunday... cause i didnt do shit sat night was still hurting from fri haha... long time a comming that was... oh well... so i headed to the Habitat Dedication for the Waite family with Krista... was a good turnout considering the darn weather... but good anyhow... then what did we do... hit a movie... 2 for the money... good dam movie... great story... then we went and visited Amy :D:D.... finally meet her face to face.. even nicer in person than on line... it was cool... now i have the inside scoop on the nov 11 party ;)... right krista... i herd it.. im going now :D.... casually stop in hahaha.... wel dats whats up with me... still desiding on west or not :S... cant make up my fucken mind... dammit... could make up to 4400 a month take home... that should be enough reason.. but jeese.. hard to just up and leave when i finally meeting some great people i want to call my friends :)... but i guess they will always be there for me even if i do go.. which is nice to know... :).. one only knows what the future wil hold maybe my future is out there... makin 50 grand a year... gota love it.. well will see.. but if i do go... this will be updated with all my recient adventures :)... keep checkin back to find about what i am up to
cheers
god bless
good nite
Ry

happy gobble gobble
well just a few things.. hi... how ya doing... im ok... living....learning.... loving... and forgetting... just another AWSOME song i got.. for anyone outthere.. get the new Nickelback... its awsome

funny how some songs hit ya in the pit of your stomache with what is going on in your life...
music is my life.. its keeps me sane...
love u all

If Everyone Cared
Lyrics - All The Right Reasons :.


From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you’d be mine
But here we are, we’re here tonight

Singing Amen, I’m alive
Singing Amen, I’m alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died
And I’m singing

Amen I, I’m alive
Amen I, I’m alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We’ll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen I’m alive
Singing Amen I’m alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

We’d see the day, we’d see the day
When nobody died
We’d see the day, we’d see the day
When nobody died
We’d see the day when nobody died

HEY U WITH THE HAIR
OK WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH U.... gawd does anyone have a fucken sense in their head... maybe i should have stalked her and gave her and her friends something to talk about.. er no maybe i should her family... but no i walked away.. gave her space... gave her life back apparently she want me in it.... but for fuck sakes keep your mouth shut or keep your and your friends comments to your self... idont appreciate it at all.... talk behind my back all u wish... jeese... and u called me immature in the past... like wtf... been what 6 months and your still poking fun at me... give it up... seen me twice since and what... does it mean something.. maybe its a defensive issue u have to be a bitch or have friends do that to cover up how u really feel about me.. jeese... if u have something ya want to discuss just do it... have delt with alot of shit i am sure i can deal with more ... but anyways on that note... last night was fun.... good women to men ratio at the club prob around 15-1 ... and i loved it haha.. danced with 14 women... only new 3 but thats alright.. had fun anyways... lots drank... me and polished off prob 19 of those shooters.. yummy... still have some left... so what am i going to do .. lets see.... hummm dunno.. oh well... i must run for now.. find something to do...and on that note... oh yea i said i was dont saying anything bout her.. but i just had to... it still fucken hurts to even see her ... yea yea that is the truith... but what can u do.. plug on and live away.... just had to rant a bit... had an issue... but i guess that is normal for someone to makes their own drama.... cause i sure dont.. i live my life how i like to live it and i am enjoying it the best that i can... miss u much...
god bless
good day good evening and good nite
cheers
Ry

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Mood:  energetic
well well well its friday again.. what am i doing.. its 752 exactly lets see how long it takes me to post this... so hahah.. started drinkin early tonight say around 530 .. wahoooo.... hehe... and well i have some company commin over.. well i hope so.. they are enroute... so we will see... hopefully it happens... holly fuck... my cam washing machine almost went out the door... shook the wholefucken house.. hahaha.. oh well hahah... yea so they are suposed to come over.. drink... and guess who hehehe... 3 ladies from c town.. and meeting another one.. lets see ... 4 -1 women to me :D... am i happy sure.. i love hangin out with ladies hehe.... so i made some jello shooters... they just better come over to help me drink em... er i mean slirp em .. haha... 27 shooters... and they are 1 1/2 shots each... might be interesting.. so that equals how many... 27 divided by 2 equals what... 13.5 plus 27 equals lets say 40 shots hahahaha.... interesting.... well that is the shot but not all alcohol.. half that again = 20 shots... but its gunna be fun... i made extreme green apple with vodka... and welll some strawberry with my dangerous 49% alcohol banana stuff ... that is gunna kill someone tonight HAHAHA...holy shit look at the numbers in here... hahahah..... im in a good mood.. already have 3/4 of a pint into me... and still all those fucken shooters... gawd... just hope the fuck there is a good band out tonight... heheh.... so i must go for now... 758... not bad for what 6 mins.. hahaha... ..
cheers
god bless and well have a happy night :D

cheers
Ry.. your friendly neighbourhood... drunk hahahha
OUT!!

Far Away
well what is with some songs lately.. they seam to tell a story... a story about alot of people lives... just want to share a brand new song.. just herd it this evening... and want to share it with certain people

Nickelbacks new one
Far Away



This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

One my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go

ok i am back
so here i sit.. all fucken emotional about past bull shit :S... here is a song that is touchin me greatly at the moment :S.. linkin parks pushing me away.. read the lryics fucked up... makes a fucken guy wanna bawl... FUCK listen to me dammit... oh well read em.. think of em.. makes me think of every dam past relatinship...
cheers

"Pushing Me Away"

I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Pushes me away




does it make sence
ry