this is me,,im too ashamed of showing myself,,well,,,today is real hard for me,,,knowing that ive destroyed her life,,,its like,,,my life was crap untill i met her,,n her life is crap after she met me,,,everything is not right n it's hard for me now,,,ive screwed her life up,,,,she's like everything to me,,she showed me wut's love,,she cared for me,,she's always there whenever i needed her,,but,,,that's all behind her parents back,,now,,because of me,,,her life is screwed up,,she's lost her family's trust,,,her friends are talking aobut her,,,she's the most caring n loving person i know,,it's like,,,she's seeing me behind her parents back,,,n she's always living a miserable life at home because of me,,every1 at home is ignoring her,,,,n life is screwed up for her because of me,,,i jsut hate myself,,i really love her,,n now,,she said that she wanna be jsut friends to get back her normal life,,,that means,,ill get back my normal life,,which is totally screwed up,,,im a nobody with freerunnin skills,,,,i dont care bout all the skills i have,,i jsut want her,,,i jsut miss her so damn much,,,,,i cried so damn much last night,,,3am,,,then a police men cameup n asked me if im alright,,then i just ran away real fast,,,passed by her house,,looked up her kitchen window,,but hse's not there,,,im startin to think that ill nvr get over it,,,but many said that i will in a few months time,,i really hope i do,,,cuz i still love her,,n i miss everthing about her,,,,i really love her,,but i cant do nothin but jsut to see her feel happy,,i really hope that she will be happy,,,but i do hope that she will get back with me,,cuz i really love her