OH GODDD!!it's 11 in the morning n i couldnt stop dreamin n thinking of her, im starting to think that writing this stupid blog wotn help, men, i dreamt that she wants to go cyclin with me, then i said ok, then she said, i thought u wont want to go, men, how i wish that's reality, i woke up crying, i dont know why, i just miss her damn too much, n later on, friends call me to go to the beach n to flip around, but i dont think ill be going cuzi dont want to spoil the mood, life is sucha bitch, i hope she's happy, n im starting to think that she's lost interest in me already, i dont think ill ever be happy in my life no more, a friend of mine, angela, told me that she was this depressed too, or maybe even more, now i know that love hurts , especially when ur young, it's like, she's my only motivation, n i dont think i can face her without tearing nomore, cause, she said she want us to be just friends. that's fine, but, i mean, how could she pretend that nothing had happened, how oculd she pretend taht we nvr did anything before, i cant, ill just feel crap, i hope i can get through tmr, in sch , have a sciece test n i dont know shit about it, but, i cant study, it just wont get in my head, it's just too depressing for me, i hope that nothing would go wrong for me tmr, i hope the kids in sch wotn bug me, cuz, im not in the mood to joke ard, my life's completely change after she said, let's just be friends, y heart was broken n it'll nvr be fixed, im scarred, for life, i just hope i'm strong enough to pretend that im happy