Now i know that my life has changed because of her
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She has broken my heart, i mean, seriously, i cant even try to smile in school today, i dont know why, but i was really crying inside, couldnt get anything into my head, was thinking of her the whole day, n feel crap about it, almost every1 in my class asked me who was i so quiet, i said im just tried from yesterday, but they knew taht something was troubling me. I saw her walking up the stairs after recess, i sudently teared, i tried to controled, but i couldnt, i jsut covered my face with a tshirt i always carry along, i was so damn heart broken, she doesnt even want to look at me, i hope she's happy now, i dont know if i ever can at least smile in school, i mean, i just think she dont care about me now, since she wanted to be this way, i made alot of sacrifice too, but, she's different, she had lotsa loved one, it's really hard to explain how much i love her, n now, i dont think she feels the same way too, sch ended at 2.20pm after 4 long free periods in the study area, then did the science test , i couldnt be bothered, had a headache, my heart aches, i jsut kept on thinking of her, i dont know if ill pass the test, but i really ltried to study, but jsut couldnt, well , i hope she's happy, i mean, with her life, she get's back her life, n i got mine back, but this time, with a scatered and broken heart. I dont know wut else to say, but im meeting my good friend Kat in a park for valentines at 6, ill update it when i come back. And i hope i can at least smile for Kat, it's just strange, when im with Plod , angela and the rest, i had a lil fun, i dojnt know why, i guess i jsut feel i need to cuz Angela is feels way worst than i am, i dont quite know, but somehow , i jsut feel life is worth a living when im hanging n gaying around with them,,well,, better go bathe n leave, will update it later at night!