lavender-> bishan-> bishan stadium->home.....WTF!!VOIDDECK DAREDEVILS!!!
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it was a good day,,i think, wass too tired to update it last night , so here's what happened yesterday

couldnt sleep, thinking of her, till it was 8+in the mornin, met ashton, hatta, clement, azrii at the mrt station and went to angela's place to print out somethin(freaking poem) after watchin hatta playing with the hamster, we left to J8 to eat, angela and clement ate, and all along, she was in my mind, no matter how hard i try to get her off.
then we went to lavander, azrii did some sick stuff there, backflip on a pipe, if he falls down, down to the monsoon drain, but he didnt, so im glad that he's alive, a new freerunner came and fell down, got his ankle swollen pretty bad, hatta anela and i took a taxi to bishan to send him home, to his ant's place(mom's overseas) then the rest of the freerunners had to go to bishan hotspot to pk, there were about 20 freerunners i think, during that time, i tried so damn hard not to think of her, but i just had to think of her, angela saw and ask y am i still upset, i just had to say, nothing or something like that, at bout 6+almost every1 left, except for faggy, clement, shafiq, hatta, azrii, angela ashton, and myself, after eatin dinner at mac, angela piggy-back me out the mall, then we walke dall the way to bishan stadium making funny and stupid noises, i joined in jsut to distract myseelf from thinkin of her, we all slacked at and layed on the road opp bishan stadium, like homeless bunch of gays, azrii hatta practiced walking on 10 poles, and they did it,,felt happy for them, then the rest were swingin their hands till they lose control, it was fun and funny, i didnt join in cuz i wa slooking at azrii walking on it
the best part i really enjoyed was when we all were just laying down on the road staring at the sky, it was fun, they were talking and talking, angela was being a reetard singin along with her songs, i tried my very best to act normal, but every time i stared at the moon, i imaigined that she was beside me, but nah, that'll never happen, it was jsut nice, althogh ive got lotsa work o do, i just felt carefree at that moment, besides thinking of her, it's like, i started thinking of my school work when i got home, it was about 12mid when i reached home, thnks to ashtno, we took taxi, THNKS HATTA!!FOR PIGGY BACK ME ALL THE WAY TO THE MAIN ROAD!!it was fun, i dont know why, i just enjoy being piggy back alot, owwel,
i really treasure all that moment with they all, we all helped one another in a way, they all certainly helped me distract myself from what ever going on in my mind, i wont forget this day, i mean, it's just like those carefree days in malaysia, all we do is slack after school, play around, and did well in school, that's impossible in singapore, u have to not slack to do well,
i didnt go to school today despite a stupid math test, was too tired and couldnt even lift my armsat ease, i was tired last night, but couldnt stop thikni of her, didnt get enought sleep,
owwell, my life's screwed up anyway, im really startin to give up with my life, it's like, not that im always out and coming back home late everyday, but in school, im totally different, im like a dead fish, walking around aimlessly, cannot get anything into my head, i mean, i tried, i tred so damn hard to revise and all, but i dont know, it's hard, i just want her so badly, but i know ill nvr have her, even though she's treating me like a good friend, but how can she pretend that nothing had ever happen, life just sucks, it's like, i was in hell before her, then came to heavan for 5 months then went back to a deaper hell after that, that's how im feleling now, im gonna get somemore rest now, body feeling weak, life suck, i envy the rest who has a stable background, just wish that i was born like that.