laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking and thinkin, while waiting fer the time to pass. i love her, i once had her, and i lost her, i miss her so much, i dont think she feels the same way too, ill nvr be the same old me again, i just want her, i love her, nothing could ever describe how much i love her.
i just thought, maybe i just miss being said 'i love u', but then i think again, and i just want her to say that, not no 1 else, cause i could nvr love any1 as much as i love her, and i could nvr be with any1 besides her, cuz, i thought of that, and how could i be such an ass being unfaithful to a girl when my heart is always with her. no one can replace her, not even a model or some girl that every one goes after, i want her heart, i miss her, she dont know how much i love her, ive told her, but she didnt take my words seriously.
i cannot find anything else to do, besides thinkin of her ever second, even i know that we'll nvr be back together.
see what i mean? i cant even be by myself now, ill start thinkin of her deeply and feel crap about it, that's why i have this blog, it's just for me to spit out everything that i feel towards her.
now that she's gone, and living a perfect life, and me living this kinda of life, being a boy and tearing every second inside, i can only hope for death, for every moment in my life now, is just nothin but crap, in school , at home, with friends, without her.
i cant take this nomore, been having headache everyday now, im off, i just hope that a car would hit me or somethihn.