Now Playing: islam,her,vespers,,the team,,but nvr about myself, at least not anymore
teacher just had to call when i was crying like a gay,,she asked me to come back to school tmr,,i dont know if i will,,i guess i will,,,,just finnish conditionin,,the pain and the strain just reminds me of the old time,,,when i was 100% commited to the team,,i wasnt good at any flips then,,but i was really looking forward to every trainin,,but now,,vespers,,,vespers is what im trainin for,,,i want them to win,,,and im willing to commit myself even though ill have to do all those gay shit,,my stomach's aching,,i havent eat my lunch yet,,only ate 1piece of bread for breakfast,,,but,,,my cousin told me that,,,always eat when ur hungry,,not eat when u feel like eating,,he got that from being religious,,,being a muslim,,i dont know
why,,i jsut feel good being an islam,,it's like,,we fast,,we last more than 12hours without food and water eacher day,,that's amazing for me,then we pray,,and scientist said that the position we move while praying ,,actually stretches our body in a way,,it's like,,all has been figured out even before science exist,,,,,i dont know why,,but my religion really means to me alot,,even though im not religious,,im just feel lucky to be a muslim,,,
that's my religion,,but as usual,,i want her,,i miss her,,all i can do now is just hope that she'll love me the way she used to,,i cant do anything about it,,,i hope things will be back to normal again,,things would be normal for me,,,happy and cheery for others in the day,,,and full of sorrow in the night,,,i guess this is life for me,,,im off to eat my lunch,,my stomach's making funny noises,,,will be back at night or something