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if you read thw whole blog through, ull see my life's nothing but ful of shit, now that there's nomore team, there's nomore her, speaking of her, i even made her mom cry, she told me taht her bro told her about not gettin in to relationship at all, ever since she turned 13, that's why she feel crap being in this relation,,,my life's nothing but trouble,,,,,,,icant take emotional pain anymore, i cant take life anymore,nothing can distract me, nothing can make me stop thinkin of my life anymore, but, pain, cut myself, and all of those stupid shit is the only thing that can make me stop thinkin of all those shit, my head hurts, and i puked jsut now, she hates me, i love her, i dont want her to trouble her live anymore, i hate my self, i hate the way i am now, i hate all the things that i ever did to every1, i cant take life nomore, she asked me to go to school when school reopens next weak, i try, but the only thing i wish damn hard now is for god to end my life or just give me guts to end my lifemyself , ,,,, i hate my life, i hate everything about me, i hate life I HATE MY LIFE,,why was i even borned in this world, i dontknow, i love her, i love kat, i love the team, they're the only 1s that i care most about, especially her, but instead of making then happy, i made her life miserable, i made kat life harder, i disapoint my team, and every1 in my life, every1 hates me, i dont blame them, even i hate myself, maybe ending mylife is a good thing afterall, maybe i should parkour, and fall on my hate at my own will, and just end my life, so that every1 else will be sad for a while, and carry on their life soon later, i dont know, i jsut wish something really good happens to me now, ending my life is the best thing, FUCK YOU SHERMAIN!!AND FUCK THE REST OF MY FAMILY!!!FUCKING DRINK, DO YALL ACTUALLY THINK THAT PUTTIN SOMEKIND OF HOLY WATER IN MY DRINK WILL ACTUALLY MAKE ME FEEL BETTER?!!!FUCK YALL!!!IT JUST SCREWED ME UP EVEN MORE, THNKS ALOT!! U FUCKING DICKHEADS!!,
im jsut fed up with my life, i dont want to make others hell anymore, im gonna try not to kill myself, i just cant take this pain anymore,my life's a bitch,
i am a bitch, and i dont love my screwed life, i hate myself, i wish myself good luck in everything i do, in screwing others up, life's fucked up.
i dont deserve to live,,,, the only thing that'll make me conferm that ill kill myself is when im expelled from school, i hate myself,,,im gonna try to
rest my head, WTF!! I PUKED!! WHY THE HELL WOULD I PUKE?!!I GUESS I ATE TOO MUCH COOKIES, IM A FAGmy head feels like something squeezing it, i want to be left alone, switched off myphone, i dont think comin on msn again is a good idea,,
i wish for rain, i need rain, i want to be in the reain, so taht no1 knows that im crying, im scarrred and scared, im scared that my determination would end my life. no1 cares anymore,,and my head hurts.