I really don't like Whiteman AFB and most likely never will. Hopefully I can get to switch to the guard and buy a house in PA so I can go back to school in my home state.

I know my situations really not that bad and I've been in worse situations before (just not for this long). But I can't wait to leave. It's just hard to keep your head up when you see yourself heading nowhere and there's nothing you can do about it.

In times like this it would be nice to have the ablility to project my more knowledgable "higher" self to give me the advice I need.

I don't mean to be so negative and I'm usually not but this place really brings me down. Otherwise I would be happy here. Fuck this place. I need to get out and move on. I need to go back to school to learn something more worthwhile than fixing jets.

I wish I could aqcuire tons of knowledge at once so I wouldn't have to spend so much time in school. I could just go out and find a career that I love to do which benefits others.

I'm pretty big on helping people. A few years ago I started working for the home depot. It was then that I realized how much I really liked to help people. Helping people really makes me happy and gives me a sense of pride in myself(something I'll never have here). I think making a posotive difference in a persons life is extremeley important and meaningful. Something you do to help someone may seem so small, but it's different for the person you're helping. In some cases helping someone may change the way that person thinks or make them think about something they normally wouldn't. That person might take those thoughts and put them to action. No matter how small that action is...it can make a huge difference in someones life.

Did you ever have someone give you a bunch of advice that they never expected you to listen to, but kept going on about it so that hopefully you wouldn't make the same mistake that they did? Usually they think you will let it in one ear and out the other. I'm not like that. I will listen to everything that is told to me and put meaning to it. Maybe that seems too crazy, but it's helped me out a lot. I've always learned from the mistakes of others because that's what I was told to do as a young boy. I've always done the best I could to do what I believe is right and do it to the best of my ability.

Fuck it. I'm done for now.

Oh No......Look out......there's a threat to microsoft
Mood:  irritated
Topic: Computers & Software
We need a replacement for Bill Gates and his company. They are the real Illuminati. And now their upset because Linux is becoming a growing threat to their throne. Fuck Microsoft. If I had more time to learn about software programing, I would make my own operating system and use firefox for my browser(which is by the way much better than IE and it's free). To find out how good firefox is just go to cnn and search for firefox to read about it.

But yeah....Fuck Microsoft. As if they don't dominate enough computers, hand have enough money already they have to threaten to sue because their greedy fuckers who are trying to take over the world.
FUCK MICROSOFT.

Nine Inch Nails (Trent Reznor) Biography
Mood:  not sure
Topic: Music
The following is the biography of Nine Inch Nails who , by the way, have a new album coming out called "with teeth". I believe it's coming out in May 05. This biography, to get back on track, is content I got from MTV at this link --> NIN Biography


Nine Inch Nails was the most popular industrial group ever and was largely responsible for bringing the music to a mass audience. It isn't really accurate to call NIN a group; the only official member is singer/producer/multi-instrumentalist Trent Reznor, who always remained solely responsible for NIN's musical direction (he was, however, supported in concert by a regular backing band). Unlike the vast majority of industrial artists, Reznor wrote melodic, traditionally structured songs where lyrics were a focal point. His pop instincts not only made the harsh electronic beats of industrial music easier to digest, but also put a human face on a style that usually tried to sound as mechanical as possible. While Ministry crossed over to heavy metal audiences, NIN built up a large alternative rock fan base right around the time of Nirvana's mainstream breakthrough. As a result, Reznor became a genuine star and his notoriously dark, brooding persona and provocateur instincts made him a Jim Morrison-esque sex symbol for the '90s. A long period of inactivity and writer's block followed, which gave virtually every alternative metal band of the late '90s a chance to rip off elements of NIN's sound. By the time Reznor's five-year hiatus finally ended, he was still a popular figure but his commercial momentum had slowed somewhat.

Michael Trent Reznor was born May 17, 1965, in the small town of Mercer, PA; he went by his middle name to avoid confusion with his father Michael. At age five, Reznor's parents divorced and he wound up being raised mostly by his maternal grandparents; even so, Reznor stated repeatedly that his childhood was mostly happy. He began playing the piano at age five, studying classical music, and later learned tenor sax and tuba in the school band; he also acted in musicals and became an avid Kiss fan. Reznor spent a year studying music and computers at Allegheny College, but dropped out after a year to pursue music full-time; he soon packed up and moved to Cleveland with high school friend Chris Vrenna. Around the same time, he was discovering new wave and assorted underground music; he was most fascinated with early industrial, since it offered an edgy, aggressive way to use electronic instruments. At age 19, he successfully auditioned to join an AOR band called the Innocent, which released one album, Livin' in the Streets (Reznor's picture does appear on the jacket). He quit the Innocent after just three months and subsequently gigged with local bands; he also worked in a keyboard store and as a janitor in the local Right Track recording studio. Eventually, he became a studio engineer, teaching himself various computer applications and working on his own material during off hours. In 1987, Reznor appeared in the Michael J. Fox/Joan Jett film Light of Day, where he played keyboards with a trio dubbed the Problems during a bar scene.

As Nine Inch Nails, Reznor began recording his own Ministry and Skinny Puppy-influenced compositions in 1988, playing all the instruments himself. At first, he simply hoped to release a 12" single on a small European label, but when he sent demo tapes to around ten American labels, nearly every one offered him a deal. He wound up signing with TVT, which released NIN's debut album, Pretty Hate Machine, in 1989 (after having rejected an initial effort called Industrial Nation). Reznor quickly assembled a backing band and toured with Skinny Puppy for a short time, but soon tired of playing for strictly industrial artists. With a tighter outfit featuring Chris Vrenna on drums and Richard Patrick on guitar (plus several revolving-door keyboardists), he consciously chose to open for alt-rock acts (including, early on, the Jesus & Mary Chain and Peter Murphy), partly for the challenge of winning over fans who might not have liked industrial music. The strategy helped expand Nine Inch Nails' fan base substantially; the single "Down in It" got some airplay in dance clubs, reaching Billboard's dance and modern rock charts, and MTV later picked up on the video for the more rock-oriented "Head Like a Hole." In 1991, after settling on keyboardist James Woolley, Nine Inch Nails became part of the inaugural Lollapalooza tour, which expanded their fan base by leaps and bounds. Pretty Hate Machine's momentum kept building slowly and although it never climbed higher than number 75, it spent over two years on the album charts and eventually sold over a million copies -- one of the first indie-label rock albums to do so.

TVT had a massive hit on their hands and to ensure that Reznor would produce another one, they attempted to take control of the follow-up's creative direction. Enraged by the outside meddling, Reznor tried to secure a release from his contract, leading to a vicious court battle. His only recording outlets were side projects; in 1990, he co-wrote and sang on "Suck," a track on Pigface's debut album, Gub, and also sang on the Al Jourgensen-led 1000 Homo DJs cover of Black Sabbath's "Supernaut." (TVT ordered Reznor's vocals removed from the track, but Jourgensen actually just altered them slightly and said he'd re-recorded it.) Eventually, he was able to sign with Interscope, which helped him set up his own label, the Cleveland-based Nothing imprint. Reznor had been recording new material on the sly and in 1992, Nothing released the EP Broken, as well as a concurrent remix disc titled Fixed. Broken featured more (and heavier) guitars than Pretty Hate Machine, partly in response to NIN's live sound and partly as a sonic evocation of Reznor's boiling frustration in the wake of the legal wars; it also featured two bonus cuts, a version of "Suck" and the Adam Ant cover "(You're So) Physical," a nod to Reznor's new wave roots. Despite many reviews characterizing the EP as a harrowing, difficult listen, Broken -- supported by NIN's now-considerable fan base -- debuted in the Top Ten and the first single/video, "Wish," won a Grammy for Best Heavy Metal Performance. Reznor enhanced his reputation as a provocateur with a widely banned clip for "Happiness in Slavery," which depicted S&M performance artist Bob Flanagan being torn apart by a machine; there was also a long-form clip for Broken that was never released commercially due to its graphic content (a torture victim is dismembered while viewing NIN videos).

Reznor moved to Los Angeles to craft the second full-length NIN album, assembling a studio in the house where actress Sharon Tate was murdered by Charles Manson's associates. The Downward Spiral was a highly ambitious work, a concept album indebted to progressive rock that featured the most detailed, layered studiocraft of any NIN album yet. Hugely anticipated, the album debuted at number two and became one of the bleakest multi-platinum albums ever. Richard Patrick had departed the touring band to form Filter and Reznor revamped the group with drummer Vrenna, keyboardist Woolley, guitarist Robin Finck, and bassist Danny Lohner. NIN caused a sensation at that summer's 25th-anniversary Woodstock concert, performing a ferocious set after horsing around and covering themselves in mud just before hitting the stage. Meanwhile, MTV had put an edited version of the video for "Closer" in heavy rotation and NIN scored one of the year's unlikeliest hits: a song whose chorus began "I want to f*ck you like an animal," which helped make Reznor one of alternative rock's biggest sex symbols. The subdued ballad "Hurt" gained some further airplay, even though it lacked the titillating shock value of "Closer." Later in the year, Reznor assembled the soundtrack of Oliver Stone's controversial Natural Born Killers, editing the songs together to create an innovative collage; he also guested on "Past the Mission," a track on Tori Amos' second album Under the Pink. In 1995, with new keyboardist Charlie Clouser, Nine Inch Nails hit the road with David Bowie, whose late-'70s albums (along with Pink Floyd) had been a major influence on The Downward Spiral. He also contributed a cover of Joy Division's "Dead Souls" to the soundtrack of The Crow and issued the remix album Further Down the Spiral, which nearly reached the Top 20 (a testament to his popularity).

Using money from The Downward Spiral, Reznor built a state-of-the-art studio in New Orleans in a building that had once been a funeral home. While pondering his next move in the wake of his sudden stardom, he produced Nothing signee Marilyn Manson's second album, Antichrist Superstar, which did indeed make him a superstar. In 1997, longtime friend Vrenna had a falling out with Reznor and eventually was replaced by Jerome Dillon; Reznor's maternal grandmother also passed away that year and his friendship with Manson soon deteriorated. Even so, he produced another movie soundtrack for David Lynch's Lost Highway, and contributed the new single "The Perfect Drug," which flitted unpredictably between several different rhythm tracks. Though "The Perfect Drug" kept him in the public eye for a time, Reznor was still unsure what kind of statement would be an appropriate follow-up to The Downward Spiral; that uncertainty resulted in a severe case of writer's block. In the meantime, NIN was proving vastly influential on a new crop of bands; major labels signed up industrial metal outfits like Filter and Stabbing Westward, and an assortment of alternative metal bands started grafting industrial production flourishes onto their music; Guns N' Roses lead singer Axl Rose even fired the rest of his band and holed up in a studio to pursue a more NIN-influenced direction.

Nine Inch Nails finally returned in 1999 with the double-CD opus The Fragile. It debuted at number one, with massive first-week sales, but slipped down the charts rather quickly afterwards, perhaps because the musical climate had changed a great deal over the past five years. The remix album Things Falling Apart followed a year later, as did an extensive world tour. An album of live performances culled from the tour, And All That Could Have Been, was released in early 2002. ~ Steve Huey, All Music Guide
NIN Biography

Oh Yeah.....Did I say I hate Whiteman AFB?
Mood:  not sure
I just thought I would share this delightful pic with you.

And here's a little FYI to go with it- Camel Spiders can run up to 25mph, jump about two to three feet in the air, grow to the size of a dinner plate and they can scream. Also you can't just squash them like a normal spider, you have to make sure your on pavement. If you step on them in the sand they will just burrow under. And they're really aggressive to complete the look. One of the guys on base here had one attack him while he was in Iraq. He batted it three times with an M-16 before it decided to leave him alone. Maybe playing in the street wasn't such a bad idea after all;-)

Fuckit
OK, so whiteman is the home of the B-2 and everyone thinks that for that reason it would be awesome to be at whiteman. I have two words for those people......bull shit!!!
Whiteman Air Force base sucks the biggest asshole I've ever seen. Fuck whiteman.

I used to be all gung ho about the air force all right up until I got to Whiteman Air Force Base. Now I could care less about the air force and the people in it. I'm only out for my own personal goals now. The hell with my job and these fucking CDC's and fuck my training. I hate this.

I want to be a fighter pilot not a knome that plays with wires even though that's what I know best. I don't want to do my job for the rest of my career. Especially working with the people I work with who are closed minded assholes who constantly think about only themselves and have the lamest of jokes which they use over and over again to the point where I would like to rip their esophaguses out of them to make them shut the fuck up.

And I'm going to end this with a big fuck this, fuck the air force, fuck this base and fuck this career.....I don't want it.

some quotes, I don't remember who from
"don't condemn people for their ignorance, use it against them"

"a conclusion is simply where someone got tired of thinking"

The result of a survey I took
Grady, your most positive energy is flowing from your Sixth Chakra This chakra is located in the center of your forehead and is often called the third eye. The sixth chakra represents your ability to see and really know truth. In your case, this chakra appears to be clear and unblocked so that positive energy can flow from it freely. Radiating positive energy from your sixth chakra indicates that you've cultivated higher wisdom concerning the important life lessons associated with this energy center. You're apt to be accepting of the people and events in your life rather than pass judgment on them. You're also likely to have developed a higher level of intuition than most people have.

Most people are livestock
Every time I come up with an idea that is different from what people would normally do or think of they act like I've been doing drugs or something.

I think it's pretty ignorant not to be open to new ideas and new ways of doing things. After all, it was the open minded people who made it possible for you to read this and for me to type it. The inventive ones are the people who gave us the ability to have light during the night hours and microwave our food when we don't have time to cook a meal. And they are still moving forward with their open minds making things that many people call them crazy for but will someday use in their own homes and take for granted the convenience of it and never know who originally made it or thought it up.

The point is that most people are like livestock going about their daily lives they way they.ve been trained never thinking about the things they don't do or don't think they will have anything to do with or how to make what they do do different.

Don't be livestock. Keep an open mind and think about how to make things different and better.