friday,august 18,2000 4:26pm(EDT)

The Bridge before the final Chorus
of BSB's hit "As Long As You Love Me"
keeps spinning in my head.
"I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin' from
I don't care,as long as you love me,baby."

Not quite unconditional love,but close.
I can get there sometimes at home and
in cyberspace.
But will i ever get there
with my birth family?

I don't know.
"I don't want to cry no more."
"No pain,no gain?"

Who knows? Who *really* knows?
Sometimes Time helps.
Sometimes it hurts.

Guess that's enuf diary for now.

Sending flocks of angels . . .

Take care,

Big Bear