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thurs.,feb.11,1999 1:16pm(ET) El Barrio,New England,USA
Finally,back to you,dear diary.And the relative peace of writing.Mania insania.Geez,I'm been more depressed than not
for the last twenty-two years,often sleeping sixteen hours a
day.Now,since the Blue Moon,I average four hours,over the course of a day.Will this herald in twenty years of mania,both me and my wife wonder? I had another half hour walk yesterday,trekking to the post office and Dunkin' Donuts.The woman at the p.o. was grumpy. But the man getting
me my donuts seemed very kind and have a soft spot for crazies. El Barrio is having an upswing.Pay phones have
popped up all over the place.Folks have newer vehicles which
are better maintained.We have an ATM.The grocery store has
been spiffed up. I do not feel a sense of impending danger that I often felt.
The cybercommunity is vast,I feel its pulse and its potential
to create a better world.Like many things in life,the door
leads to the lady or the tiger and we never know until we
have the courage to open that door.Knock again,real soon.
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fri.feb.12,1999 2:11am(ET)same place
I feeling kinda weirded out,I guess I need to eat something
more substantial.Wifey wasn't up to making din-din.And I didn't really slow down enuf to eat much. What have I gotten
myself into getting involved in the lives of tons of strangers,making new friends and hail-fellow-well-met types.
It's getting kinda intense.My hermit side is saying,throw it
all away,but maybe that's just the migraine talking,which are
always much,much worse when I forget to eat,when my brain does
not send the message to EAT! Joining web rings,signing guestbooks,doing all the geeky stuff to make the pages connect to each other,don't explode,my dear,eat something
anything,just eat.I guess should stop typing, logout of Angelfire,exit NetZero,log off the 'puter,select shutdown
from the Start menu,turn over the mouse,and hit the enter key
to stand by,turn off the monitor,and proceed to the kitchen
and,you guessed it,EAT! Bye,bye,kiddos.
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fri.,feb.12,1999 3:40am(ET) still here
Try to squeeze an entry in before 4am wetsie/pillie.Yes, I
ate something.I did some kitty chores.And,yes,I'm flying again.The migraine is less intense. Hope and verisimilitudes
have come back for dessert.Trying to cut back on the
chocolate,getting the correct dosage is a guessing game/
balancing act.Anyhoo,this will be a hit and run.Ta ta,for now.
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fri.,feb.12,1999 9:29am(ET)same old,same old
I applied to join the Winds of Change Support Mailing List,
which is for BP's and their SO's,at 8:50am(URL below).I figure I have a reasonable chance of getting in.If I do,I
hope I can handle the flood of email,they say 3600 messages
a month(!)Will give me something else to focus on.
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sat.,feb.13,1999 3:17am -0500(ET)still here
Happy two week birthday,web site!The time has flown by.
Guestbook note:Momma45 has a broken link to her site.I have
linked to it below.She has a very interesting site from a
Christian perspective.Check it out.
That's all for now.
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