Faith in Chaos

Chapter 35

Her eyes fluttered open, she looked at her surroundings and smiled. "It was all a dream," she sighed.
"What was?" Nick asked sitting down next to her.
"The fight," Candice stood up smiling.
"No, it wasn't, James is inside," Nick said softly.
"Why am I outside," she asked taking the damp washcloth Nick held in his hands.
"When you fainted I carried you to the sofa, but you woke up for a moment and said you wanted to be near the water," Nick smiled at her. She ran her hand through her hair and frowned. "You fell back asleep after that, and that was two hours ago."
"Why didn't you take me to the hospital?"
"James called your doctor and he said that as long as you were breathing it was fine," Nick said, he gave away the fact that he had no clue what was going on.
"Oh," Candice frowned. "So he did ask me to marry him," Candice said aloud not really talking to anyone. She watched him through the window, after all of their fights and if you over looked their bad moments, they were the perfect couple. Candice sighed loudly.
"So, I guess you're not moving down with me," Nick sighed sadly.
"Well," Candice started. Do I really want to spend the rest of my life with James or do I want to go back to my dream world in Florida? "Well," she repeated as James walked out of the house and onto the patio. "I want you both to hear this."
"What," James asked confused.
"She's picking where she wants to move," Nick said nonchalant. She looked at both of them and took a deep breath. Tears filled her eyes has she stared at them standing side by side, she took off running into her house.
"I'll take this," James said pushing Nick away. Nick didn't fight him; he wasn't used to having her around that much and didn't know how to deal with pregnancy breakdowns.

"Candi talk to me girl," James whispered sitting next to her on the sofa. She looked up at him as tears flowed down her cheeks.
"I miss Pat so much," she cried.
"Oh Candi," James hugged her. "I didn't know you were still hurting."
"Jamie I love him SO much. I feel so stupid, I hate running to you or Nick all the time."
"It's fine, I don't mind," James whispered rocking her in his arms.
"Why do you sleep with all those other girls," Candice asked looking up at him with puppy dog eyes. She reminded him of a fragile little girl.
"I love you, but I know you'll never love me the way I do you." James said sadly, "We'll never work out."
"Oh Jamie don't say I don't love you, I love you as my best friend," her eyes pleaded with his heart.
He shook his head, "you know it's true Candice. Please don't think we'll ever work out."
"Why did you ask me to marry you?"
"I dunno, I thought maybe if we were married it would work, but it was a half-ass idea. I know we'd never make it."
"James," Candice stood up. "Let's go talk to Nick."

Nick stood up as they walked outside, hand in hand.
"I've made my decision," Candice said dropping James's hand and took a deep breath. "I'm moving down to Florida," Candice said quickly, not even sure they all came out of her mouth. Nick smiled at the thought of having one of his close friends near by instead of states away was gonna be awesome.
"This is so great," Nick whispered hugging her.
"Yeah great," James muttered.
"Oh Jamie! You know I love you, and I know you'll find a great girl and get married and everything will be great for you!" Candice pulled her friend into a hug.
"I'll miss you," James whispered kissing her cheek and walking out of her life forever..

"You're gotta pack, we'll find you a house and just have your stuff shipped, this is so great," Nick threw some of her clothes into open suitcases; Candice chuckled.
"Nick you're acting like a 10 year old," Candice teased walking out of her room.
"I know and oh I love you NSYNC," Nick screamed. She walked back into her room holding her side; she couldn't stop laughing.
"Haha--you love .. NSYNC," she muttered falling onto her bed.
"It's not funny anymore," Nick said in a flat tone.
"Haha..yes it is!"
"No," Nick smiled still talking in a flat tone.
"Nick's gonna laugh!" Candice declared.
"Nope," Nick grinned as he started to walk away.
"Haha..Mr. Booty is back!" Candice fell off of her bed laughing. Nick turned around to chuckle at her. "Get it Booty--back..Haha!"
"Ohmigod," Nick held his head. "It's gonna be a long trip."

An hour later
"Since when do you have a Durango," Nick asked opening the back of her new midnight blue Durango. "Since I bought it three months ago, my new influence. You like?"
"Yea, it's tight, but mine's tighter. Loaded to a tee and worn in Nick style," he grinned climbing into the back seat.
"Haha! Mine's loaded as well, loser, and it will never be worn in Nick style," Candice laughed putting in her Eminem CD.
"Whatever you're a bigger loser," Nick said pulling out his gameboy. "What-what is this?"
"It's Eminem," Candice muttered nonchalant.
"I know that stupid," Nick turned the music down. "Why are you listenin' to it?"
"Duh, cuz I like it!" Nick glared at her. "Ok what the fuck do you want to listen to Nick?"
"Sorry geeze," Nick crawled into the back seat and laid down. "Just pick a station."
"Fine!" Nick mumbled something at her and the rode the rest of the way in silence, half because Nick had fallen asleep and half because she didn't want to talk to him anyway. She hated it when he acted like a baby. "Dumbass," she whispered looking back at Nick, who was sleeping soundly.

Two hours later
"You want me to drive," Nick asked sitting up.
"I'm fine, go back to bed."
"I'm so tired," Nick yawned.
"It's been a long two days."
"Straight," Nick yawned again curling up in the back seat and falling into a light sleep.

"I don't know what he does to make you cry," Candice sang softly. Nick slowly opened his eyes and smiled. He started to sing with her. "But I'll be there to make you smile." She had to look back when she heard his voice but she never stopped singing.

"I don't have a fancy car
To get to you I'd walk a thousand miles
I don't care if he buys you nice things
Do his gifts come from the heart, I don't know...
But if you were my girl...
I'd make it so we'd never be apart

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give

When you talk, does it seem like he's not
even listening to a word you say
That's ok babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away...
Does he leave when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time
Baby please, I'm on my knees
Praying for the day that you'll be mine

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give

To you... Hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more inside
All the money in the world could never add up to the love
I have inside...
I love you

And I will give it to you
All I can give, all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give

But my love is all I have to give
without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give to you."
When the finished the song, Nick climbed up into the passenger seat, "you're voice is getting lots better." Nick yawned looking at the clock.
"thanks, I've been working on it lots!"
"It shows," Nick smiled over at her. "Want me to drive?"
"Oh yes," Candice yawned. "I think my ass is bout ready to fall off."
"Wow, I can't believe it's three in the morning. Why didn't you wake me?"
"You just looked so peaceful," she pulled over to the nearest rest area.
"Where are we anyway?"
"Um..check the map," Candice mumbled curling p in the passenger seat and quickly falling asleep.

He pulled over to the rest area and stretched.
"Hey," she smiled yawning.
"Good nap?"
"Yeah. Wow, where are we?"
"Tennessee still, almost Georgia though," Candice smiled.
"I think I can drive now, you can sleep," she stepped out of the car and glanced around. "It's hot," she said climbing into the driver's seat.
"Yeah," Nick agreed yawning.
"Oh I love this song!"
"Who is it?"
"NSYNC," Candice grinned turning it up.
"Aren't you Miss-Anti NSYNC?"
"Yeah, but I love this song," Candice smiled as she began to sing. "Every word I say is true, This I promise you, oh I Promise you!"
"Shut up! How am I supposed to sleep while you listen to that shit," Nick demanded.
"Oh Nick go to bed, you know you like this song!"
"No! I don't." Candice rolled her eyes. Nick soon fell asleep. With all the silence, which Candice loved, she began to think about everything. She had been doing this a lot lately and it scared her, it scared her a lot. Just the thought of losing her baby was enough to keep her inside for the next 5 months. When her mother said something about her headache's it wasn't a surprise, she had figured something was wrong for the past year, but she was too afraid to admit any of it. The fear of not having a good job was also scaring her. She knew she wouldn't be able to live off her parents forever, nor did she want that. She wanted to have her own job; a career. Acting was totally out of the picture now, who wants a fat actress anyway. She saw the Florida State line and smiled. Now the fun begins, she thought grinning.

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