has something ever happened to you that just made you feel like a the luckiest person in the world?
Its 24 hours since possibly the best night of my life… I still cant grasp the fact that he said yes, and he didn’t just say ‘I suppose so’… he said he wanted to. I was in tears and really upset, he knew I was upset and I wanted to say bye when I was going early. He actually asked me why I had to go and I just replied that I had too, basically because I was so sad. When I did say bye, he gave me a big hug and we just stood there I had my arm around him and he was rubbing my back – I don’t know whether in sympathy or what but that was one of the best pin-pointed seconds of my life. I felt so special and so lucky. I can remember the warmth of his hand on my back and his body against mine when we hugged, it was just something I longed to feel and, I felt it. It was so perfect. He has a beautiful heart. I don’t use the word love unless I truly mean it, everyone who knows me well knows that I refuse to use it unless it is true and I am certain of it. But I love him… I love Craig. Although I cant go to the formal with him, I cant have one thing I wished for… what he did for me that night is 100 times better. The sweet things he told Jackie about me, I cant even begin to describe how that made me feel. And when I found out, I cried in happiness. I am almost crying in happiness now because nobody has ever even cared about how I feel that much, nobody. Not even my best friends or my parents. I don’t know exactly what he said but if he honestly truly said everything I can recall Jack telling me he said, I don’t know what I’m meant to do. I, I cant even speak. I never thought anybody, especially someone I like so much would ever care about me, would see me, would even notice me. To think that of the 2 people I like, I care about, one of them actually knows I am here, one of them wanted to go to something special with me, one of them said the most beautiful things about me that I would only DREAM of anyone saying… it is more than a dream come true. It is so perfect and I don’t know who or what to thank, but whatever did that and made that happen, I am so grateful because for once I feel needed. His girlfriend is so lucky, she doesn’t realise how lucky she is. I just hope that she appreciates him and she loves him and she never hurts him because he really is one of the most beautiful people I have ever known. I hope that somewhere, somehow he is thinking of me and remembering Saturday night and all of its happenings because I am thinking about him all the time. Now, I feel special and I feel that somebody cares, and to know that that somebody is someone that I feel so much love towards, is purely magical, so Thankyou. Whoever, whatever, wherever… thank you so much.
