More soul-searching? So nothing is what it seems now. Everything I believed before, everyone I believed in before, they're all so different now. Is it me? No, I'm not playing victim nor am I playing the bad guy. I'm asking, was I that oblivious? Was I too much tuned into myself? And who do I ask to find the answer. It's not like I'm going to like the answer when I find it. In fact, I already know what it is. And being the stubborn creature that I am, I know I won't even consider changing. Maybe continuing on like this isn't so bad. I really don't have to know everything. Some things are better esoteric. Perhaps, the problem relies on how I react to new found information as oppose to having know-it-all-ism. I should just welcome new knowledge, yeah? Instead of plaguing myself why I didn't know certain things beforehand. Hmmm, but, yes but, I don't like being left in the dark. Still, it's a two-way street. Ok, compromise, I'll try to be more aware, less trusting bwahahah no, more aware and I can't really blame myself if people don't want to open up to me. Really, if they think it's none of my business, they're probably right. I don't like sticking my nose in somebody else's business. Going back to the compromise, I'll try not to feel betrayed when I find new information. There.
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About my dream two nights ago, the end of the world? It wasn't anything like they describe Armageddon...basta. It started out(well as far as I remember) with my walking outside. The street was pretty busy. We (the people outside) all started to head inside the closest building, somehow knowing we would be safer inside. Something was happening. Apparently the building had huge glass windows with blinds and curtains. I remember going around the crowd telling them to stay away from the windows because the wind blows hard and might break them. Ew slivers!
In order for everything to go back to normal, we had to go against a monster. Like a demolition derby! We were separated into groups of 3-4 and we had to fight a monster. A robotic monster. And we get judged, like from American IdolWell! What matters is we didn't die. Dreams don't have to make sense.
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Have you ever tried eating noodles for lunch, 3 days in a row? I'm about to throw up.
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I love getting profile hits. But it's another thing when the same member visits everyday without leaving messages. What is it? What do you want? Is it something in my journal? I know I put some helpful information about Philippines in one of my entries. That better be it. Ayayayaaaaaa Delilahhhh!!!
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Song of the Moment:::Just My Imagination by The Temptations
OMG!!! They're going to be in Rama this month!!! OOOOHHH!!! I love that era!!! I love music starting from the 50s, 60s, 70s, 80s, 90s..lahaaaaaat!!! I have to see KC & The Sunshine Band this month as well.