Grabe, has it been almost a month since I posted? Anyway, I'm sleepy and I'm at work. Just wanted to let the readers know I'm still alive that's why I'm posting now. I'll post later if I'm not too tired.
Wednesday, 26 January 2005
Grabe, has it been almost a month since I posted? Anyway, I'm sleepy and I'm at work. Just wanted to let the readers know I'm still alive that's why I'm posting now. I'll post later if I'm not too tired.
Wednesday, 19 January 2005
DEATH OF A PARENT...
A close friend of many's mother passed away this morning...
It's news you don't expect or ever want to hear. But we know death is inevitable. And even then, nothing can prepare you for such.
I usually try to put myself in the survivor's shoes, I would be lying if I knew how it feels to go through that. Except when I dream (nightmare, rather).
I try to spend time with my parents before it's too late. Not to assume I will outlive them. Who knows, I might get hit by a bus tomorrow. Do you ever imagine how you'll die? I have. So many possibilities.
Anyway, my parents. They work at night, so when they come home, I'm usually on my way out to work. And when I have weekdays off, they're either asleep or out.
It doesn't matter how hard I deny, $$$'s everything. Because it is, we need it that's why we don't get to go out and have fun as a family. There's always the excuse 'Oh, stay home and order na lang tayo, mas mura'. Or 'Oh, stay home na lang tayo, baka gipit sa oras may work pa mamaya'. How many times have I heard that before? It's really fine with me whether we go out, or if we just stay home, as long as we're all together. But that only lasts for 2 hours. Maybe I should be grateful for those hours. Perhaps I should just stop whining. Do you think I'm whining?
On weekends, my Dad, he goes out, doing God knows what. My Mom, in her spare time, goes out and does her duty to the Filipino community. My sister & I, we go out with friends.
Some people don't understand why I'd rather stay home than go out on weekends. Or why I find it hard to spend time with my boyfriend's family. Now you know why. Find a common ground for me, because I can't find the part where I can compromise.
A close friend of many's mother passed away this morning...
It's news you don't expect or ever want to hear. But we know death is inevitable. And even then, nothing can prepare you for such.
I usually try to put myself in the survivor's shoes, I would be lying if I knew how it feels to go through that. Except when I dream (nightmare, rather).
I try to spend time with my parents before it's too late. Not to assume I will outlive them. Who knows, I might get hit by a bus tomorrow. Do you ever imagine how you'll die? I have. So many possibilities.
Anyway, my parents. They work at night, so when they come home, I'm usually on my way out to work. And when I have weekdays off, they're either asleep or out.
It doesn't matter how hard I deny, $$$'s everything. Because it is, we need it that's why we don't get to go out and have fun as a family. There's always the excuse 'Oh, stay home and order na lang tayo, mas mura'. Or 'Oh, stay home na lang tayo, baka gipit sa oras may work pa mamaya'. How many times have I heard that before? It's really fine with me whether we go out, or if we just stay home, as long as we're all together. But that only lasts for 2 hours. Maybe I should be grateful for those hours. Perhaps I should just stop whining. Do you think I'm whining?
On weekends, my Dad, he goes out, doing God knows what. My Mom, in her spare time, goes out and does her duty to the Filipino community. My sister & I, we go out with friends.
Some people don't understand why I'd rather stay home than go out on weekends. Or why I find it hard to spend time with my boyfriend's family. Now you know why. Find a common ground for me, because I can't find the part where I can compromise.
Tuesday, 18 January 2005
6 T0PiCS in 1
SELF ESTEEM
I remember when I used to chat on AA and profile hits boosted my ego. It still does, here on FilCa, but not as much. Is it ok for girls to build their self-esteem thru how boys pay attention to them? In a way, I guess it's ok. Not entirely. Here comes the cliche, esteem should come from within. That's why it's called 'self' esteem. No body should ever feel inferior just because the opposite sex don't pay as much attention to them, especially when the world's just full of shallow people who are interested in physical appearances. I've been on both sides.
TRUST
Remember when your parents used to not trust you? (I do) It's the most annoying feeling in the world. I believe my parents and I are now in better terms. But I'm still untrusted by someone else. It's the most annoying feeling in the world. People who can't trust me after a year can fuck off.
LIVING LIKE YOU'RE SINGLE
What's wrong with it? When a person's in a relationship, why do people expect him/her to see that person, almost always, with his/her partner? I mean, they're not married.
CELL PHONES
Can you live without it? Of course we all know the answer, yes! Lately I've been leaving my cellphone at home, and I must say, it's quite liberating, like going commando. I mean, I really don't need one. I live in a city where payphones are ubiquitous.
GETTING HITCHED EARLY
Would I be correct if I said marrying early has the advantage of getting things your way at a young age; eg: getting your dream house etc., having your kids go to college early, therefore you get to live your life earlier than most people...provided of course you work for it.
ONE PLUS ONE EQUALS?
If two people in a relationship came from a generally fucked up family, will their relationship be as meaningful compared to a) two people who came from a generally 'ok' family b) one of the persons come from a really fucked up family and the other one comes from a well rounded family (at least there's a balance)? Or will they just strive to work things out eventually ending up with a fucked up relationship? Or will it be - + - = +?
I put these thoughts in my journal because they are MY thoughts. I don't want to start threads regarding these topics.
SELF ESTEEM
I remember when I used to chat on AA and profile hits boosted my ego. It still does, here on FilCa, but not as much. Is it ok for girls to build their self-esteem thru how boys pay attention to them? In a way, I guess it's ok. Not entirely. Here comes the cliche, esteem should come from within. That's why it's called 'self' esteem. No body should ever feel inferior just because the opposite sex don't pay as much attention to them, especially when the world's just full of shallow people who are interested in physical appearances. I've been on both sides.
TRUST
Remember when your parents used to not trust you? (I do) It's the most annoying feeling in the world. I believe my parents and I are now in better terms. But I'm still untrusted by someone else. It's the most annoying feeling in the world. People who can't trust me after a year can fuck off.
LIVING LIKE YOU'RE SINGLE
What's wrong with it? When a person's in a relationship, why do people expect him/her to see that person, almost always, with his/her partner? I mean, they're not married.
CELL PHONES
Can you live without it? Of course we all know the answer, yes! Lately I've been leaving my cellphone at home, and I must say, it's quite liberating, like going commando. I mean, I really don't need one. I live in a city where payphones are ubiquitous.
GETTING HITCHED EARLY
Would I be correct if I said marrying early has the advantage of getting things your way at a young age; eg: getting your dream house etc., having your kids go to college early, therefore you get to live your life earlier than most people...provided of course you work for it.
ONE PLUS ONE EQUALS?
If two people in a relationship came from a generally fucked up family, will their relationship be as meaningful compared to a) two people who came from a generally 'ok' family b) one of the persons come from a really fucked up family and the other one comes from a well rounded family (at least there's a balance)? Or will they just strive to work things out eventually ending up with a fucked up relationship? Or will it be - + - = +?
I put these thoughts in my journal because they are MY thoughts. I don't want to start threads regarding these topics.
Saturday, 15 January 2005
Without A Paddle?
I've been waiting to watch this movie...finally, last night on DVD.
SEEETH GREEEEN! I wub yu. Hahah ew. Well he's funny, from Austin Powers, to Family Guy, to this.
I vote for this movie as the funniest for 2004. ^_^
Meet The Fockers ranking 2nd. Heheh.
That or I didn't see much movies in 2004.
I've been waiting to watch this movie...finally, last night on DVD.
SEEETH GREEEEN! I wub yu. Hahah ew. Well he's funny, from Austin Powers, to Family Guy, to this.
I vote for this movie as the funniest for 2004. ^_^
Meet The Fockers ranking 2nd. Heheh.
That or I didn't see much movies in 2004.
Sunday, 9 January 2005
Forlorn?
I miss being alone.
I think every person needs time to her/himself, if not all the time, then once in a while.
Time to unwind...
I like being alone. Or perhaps I'm just a loner at heart.
I miss being alone.
I think every person needs time to her/himself, if not all the time, then once in a while.
Time to unwind...
I like being alone. Or perhaps I'm just a loner at heart.