Awake

Sick Of Life Paralyzed. Nothing's getting through to me. Hypnotized from all my surroundings. I wanna be something I could never be. I wanna say things that I could never say. Yeah, I'm gonna do it again! Sick of my life. I'm tired of everything in my life. Dragged down. Rubbing my face in the ground. No time for the undecided. I wanna know why I've always felt alone. And I wanna love. Why am I untouchable? Yeah, I'm gonna do it again! Sick of my life. I'm tired of everything in my life. I never wanted to be sick of my life. I'm tired of everything in my life. Awake Wait another minute. Can't you see what this pain has fucking done to me? I'm alive and still kickin'. What you see I can't see... and maybe you'll think before you speak. I'm alive for you. I'm awake because of you. I'm alive I told you. I'm awake swallowing you. Take another second. Turn your back on me... and make believe that you're always happy. It's safe to say you're never alive. A big part of you has died. And by the way... I hope you're satisfied. Tearing it back unveiling me. Taking a step back so I can breathe. Hear the silence about to break. Fear resistance when I'm awake. Greed Two faced! I feel you crawling under my skin. Sickened by your face. By the way... To think that your so fucking kind? ...You ain't! Hard to find how I feel... Especially when your smothering me. Hard to find how I feel... Please someone help me! I knew when an angel whispered into my ear... "You gotta get him away." Hey little bitch! Be glad you finally walked away... Or you may have not lived another day. Hard to find how I feel... Especially when your smothering me. Hard to find how I feel... Please someone help me. Hard to find how I feel... Controlling me every step of the way. Hard to find how I feel... You greedy little baby!! Bad Magick Does it feel so bad when you're taking a drag and when you're looking at the world with dying eyes? When you stare at it dead and you're giving it head ...and all those things you say you love never come alive. If it feels so bad... Bad magick playing off of me. Oh no, I don't wanna be your friend. Bad magick laying into me. Oh no... I don't wanna hear it again. When you get so high that you're wanting to die ...but everything around you is turning green. When you're getting so low ...and I know you've been feeling like a dried out leaf in a summer breeze. I don't like it! Getting back Back on track Get off of my back Goin' Down I see the world it's going 'round Seems to me it's upside down Lookin' for something to say I feel a little different anyway "yeah" Does it make much sense to you? Doing all those things you do Making sure that I'm all right Yeah I'm fine! Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, goin' down! I see the world it's goin' round Seems to me it's upside down Looking for something to say Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, goin' down! I've been feeling I'm going down. Mistakes No, I don't feel a thing. Life's going by me. And still I say, Oh God! I'm making the same mistakes. Low? I'm on empty. Try to erase all the bad times. Free? I don't seem to be. My soul remains tied to your life. Every breath you breathe deep... I feel you circulating through me. I'll never forgive myself again. I'm so sick and tired of making the same mistakes. Trippin' Living a different way. You can't expect me to be the same. Separating our lives and wondering why. Face down I walk away. Every time I think I do the right thing... You turn your back on me. Trippin' into a world that never seems too far away. Too much time... Too many wasted days. How can you be this way? Now I'm alone and cold today. I'm walking dead man's drive. Reaching out for my life. I've been known to fuck up everything. In this skin there's a broken man. Trippin' into a world that never seems too far away. Too much time... Too many wasted days. Just another vision in my world! Forgive Me There's nothing to me now. An empty shell unfolded. How, when we learn to pray inside our demons are laughing. How long will this go on? Are we a bit much stronger? Do you think you can save me from living this way? I don't know how to love. I just know how to live. All I feel is hate. Will you forgive me? For all those things I've done, they keep on creeping by me. And though we've changed our ways... Still all our demons are laughing. How long will this go on? Aren't we a bit much stronger? I'd like to think you've came into my life to stay. I don't know how to love. I just know how to live. All I feel is hate. Will you forgive me? I don't know how to breathe with you too far away. Don't know how to love. Will you forgive me? No, I can't live this way! I don't know how to love. I just know how to live. All I feel is pain. Will you forgive me? I don't know how to breathe with you too far away. I don't know how to love. Past lives I've lived. Uncontrolled but sacred. You've finally seen all that's left of me. So hard to see. So hard to breathe. Will you forgive me? Spiral Sometimes we only live for the here and now. Sometimes we're lonely. Sometimes we feel we need a place to be grounded... or fly away again. I will fly away again. I feel rain pouring down. I wait to rot away. Live again. Here forever. The spiral never ends. Why are we feeling something's familiar around us? Are we just dreaming? Always we search for the answers but nothing is found. We fly away again. I will fly away again.