Part 227
Sarah sat on Howie’s lap as he fed her the ice cream and they watched the movie AJ had bought her. AJ was sitting across from them watching the two. They were so perfect together, from the way they finished each other’s sentences to the way they moved together making love. He wasn’t too worried about them and this whole Canada deal. Now that Howie knew, AJ knew they’d talk.
"Guys, I’m gonna go work on a song…an idea just came to me."
Howie looked at him curiously. "Really?"
AJ grinned, "Yeah…inspiration! Back in a few."
As Howie scraped the last little bit of ice cream, he said, "I’m not gonna see Claudia while I’m in Toronto. I’m gonna make arrangements for her to meet us in Ottawa."
Sarah took the spoon in her mouth watching Howie’s eyes. When she’d finished the mouthful of ice cream, she asked, "Why?"
Howie reached up to wipe the ice cream from the corner of her mouth. "Because I’m VERY much in love with my wife and I want you to meet her…so SHE can see that too. And the first chance we get, I want to take you to Toronto and show you everything about it."
Sarah tucked her head and said softly, "D, I feel like I’ve disappointed you."
Cupping her face in his hand, Howie made her look him in the eye. "Because you were jealous?"
Sarah nodded her head guiltily.
Smiling softly, "Never in this lifetime could you EVER disappointment
me, Angel. I have a confession to make."
"Really?"
"I’ve always been jealous of Russell."
"Why?" asked Sarah incredulously.
"There was a time in your relationship with him that was good and he got a very special part of you," said Howie as a tear escaped.
Sarah wiped it away. "D…"
"There have been nights, after we’ve made love, where I’ve watched you sleeping. You’re so innocent. To see you sleeping, no one would EVER know what you’ve been through. I can imagine you at…"
"Sixteen," whispered Sarah.
"Sixteen?" choked out Howie and Sarah nodded affirmation. "God…it turns my stomach to think of him touching you the way I touch you, holding you the way I hold you…even if he did ‘love’ you. He’ll always have a part of you that I can’t have."
Sarah leaned her head so that their foreheads were touching. "But, Howie…you have a part of me that he could never reach. I NEVER truly loved him and we never made love…it was always just sex…and I never truly wanted it."
Howie looked into her eyes, "But, I thought…?"
"Oh, he was tender and tried to make it special for me. I even said ‘yes’ because somewhere deep down inside, I was afraid of what he would do to me if I said ‘no’. But you’ve heard Dusty, Ali, and Nessa…I’d been dreaming about you for as long as I can remember," she said as she ran her hands through his hair. "Howie, even when Russell was good to me, I knew he wasn’t THE ONE for me. All he EVER wanted was his own self-gratification…not like you. You’d rather see me deliriously happy than take your next breath. You’ve shown me TRUE love, a LASTING love."
Howie caressed her stomach and laughed softly, "Look at us. Our friends admire us because we have such an honest relationship and yet neither one of us could admit being jealous of the other’s fist love."
"I don’t think it’s a matter of us not being honest about it…just that we were never really faced with the issue until now and if my hormones hadn’t gone into overload this afternoon, we wouldn’t have had this conversation…which by the way, we’ve had before."
Howie took Sarah and moved so that they were now lying next to each other. Slipping his hand under her shirt, he moved it up to her breasts taking her nipple between his forefinger and his thumb twirling it. At the same time, he kissed her, running his tongue along her lower lip then took it between his teeth sucking it sensually.
Sarah whimpered softly as she ran her hand across his arm. She’d wanted him ever since that kiss in the store and now she could have him. She moved her hand down to the hem of his shirt tugging frantically at it.
Howie took her hand in his lacing his fingers with hers. "Slow down, Angel," he whispered. "Sarah, Claudia and Russell were our first loves…but…"
"But we have TRUE love," finished Sarah with a kiss. "Claudia was jealous of the fans and Russell treated me cruelly to bring us together. I think it’s safe to say that we know where we stand with each other."
"Or lie with each other," teased Howie as he ran his tongue along the rim of her ear.
His warm breath on her skin sent a shiver through her body and goose bumps popped up. She gazed into his eyes and felt herself falling. She sang softly, "I can’t imagine…life without your love…"
"Cuz even forever don’t seem like long enough," finished Howie. "And that’s what we have, Angel…FOREVER."
"Howie, make love to me."
"What about AJ?" whispered Howie moving his hand from her breasts
across her stomach, down to the curls between her legs. Unerringly, he found her
magic spot and rolled it between his fingers.
"Screw him!" gasped Sarah closing her eyes to focus on the feel of electricity that he was sending throughout her body.
Howie laughed softly, "No thanks! I’d rather have you."
He unfastened his jeans and with Sarah’s help, pushed them and his boxers off. Deftly, he slid Sarah’s clothes off as well before settling his weight on top of her.
She could feel his pulsating head nestled just on the edge of her waiting core and she tried to move to meet him. She whispered, "I want you."
Howie pushed into her slowly, filling her completely and when he was in her, he said, "We fit together perfectly, Sarah."
AJ stopped at the door as he saw the couple together on his couch. He smiled to himself knowing that everything was perfect for them and he eased back into the studio. Turning on the soft music that filled the bus, he sat down to finish the song he’d been working on for Howie and Sarah.