Are you sure that you care I am the one with no answers you say you care you say we are destined but i dont see why you say this you sit there with no emotions for me and never speak to me so for now i will ignore you although I think that we are destined but life is not about destiny its about what we make of it i guess my life is short and boring for i am not making anything out of it just standing there watching it go by you see me but you ignore me as if to forget the day we met thats fine you are no more apart of the way i am or the way i will be you said you were different you would think after all the times i heard that i would realize its all lies no one will care for me no one will love me for i am never to be loved i dont belong with any one for i am not to be touched or loved cant you see the pain i am in what this torture i have to live in i am sorry that you can not love me i wish that you have the best life can give you but it will not be with me you dont understand what its like to be me and long to be loved touched and cared for i give and give and yet i get nothing in return all i ask for is time and patients but you are not willing to wait for me to give you the chance to love me.. i stand with my face in my hands wondering why you have just given up but then i realize theres was never anything to give up on you never felt anything for me it was just a mere emotion that you shared and i wanted to believe sitting there with empty thoughts as i walk away from the thought of being happy with you.....
the pain
i see the pain in your eyes when i stare into your soul wanting it to go away giving us more time for our love to grow Angel of Darkness shadows over you sucking your soul into his hands looking at me with sadness and grief looking up i realize the tears in his eyes while he takes you from me. knowing your love for me will never die you came to me out of no where and gave me the love that i needed and i gave you the heart you wanted loving you with the last breath i take with out you here i am no one just a lifeless soul no meaning as to why i cant cry i feel you in my heart but i can not touch you in my eyes you are here
are we in love or is it a mere image of undisturbing life how can i show you that i am in love but keep my heart from being hurt feelings aside are those that we hide from the most pleasure that we have given a life time of no attention shying away from the emotions that bring us together i hide the pain inside not letting it go pushing away the image that u leave behind and giving up on life as we knew it i can not tell u how much i am in love for i never knew what love was how was i to know that u meant more to me then i was willing to give i hope you dont turn away when i show u my soul for its all i have to give its been used abandoned and abused torn and shattered from so much pain i dont know if i can give you something that no longer beats from with in but i can try and i am willing but will you be there when i show you these images that are real i wonder if you will forgive me when you know about the things i have done will it be as easy for you to understand me as it is for me to understand you willingness fades as the distant light comes close and i realize that its nothing more than a glimpse of the love that i once had and lost because my emotions were never real...
the journey
i realise that i must walk a journey alone and for that i know is my destiny complications are ending and lives are beginning i know that i am destined to be alone for it is written in the heavens and the stars above i open my heart and i become weak reframing from the anger and hate you taught me my world knows nothing else nor does it matter when i think of happiness i think of life that no longer exist because in reality there can be no happiness memories start to fade as the years go by and still i am walking alone many people come and go and stay for months at a time but still i walk alone the day i met you i felt like you were my destiny my life my love but i know deep down that i am destined to walk alone empty as the shadows on the wall as faceless as all the people around i will always be alone my heart is opening up to you because i love you but why cant i show you the love i have to give for i know that i walk alone in this world of empty shallow people i am among them for i have been destined to be alone... i hold in my hand what seems to be a map to my happiness but i can not open it for its sealed with fate as to my unhappiness i show you my smile and tell you i am fine and that my world is wonderful and how perfect life is when on the inside i am hurting for love that i will never have and i say i will always walk alone you tell me you understand what i go thru and the pain i feel but can you tell me what its like to be loved by another what is it like to be in love and everything is yours and yours is everything does this exist in the reality of life or is it just something that no one can explain happiness is nothing more than a tradgedy thats waiting to happen in the wrong place wrong time i never meant to love you for i am never meant to be loved 2/20/03
beyond destiny lyes me
you stumbled in looking around as if lost shivering from the night air breathing deep as you stand by the fire place warming up by the glow of the light words are never spoken and you move towards me holding out for my hand I feel you breath deeply as if to say you love me looking into your eyes I see your soul reaching out for someone to love vying for my affection in time I will be yours please do not give up on the love I have inside its buried so far down no one can see what it is I have to give only that I walk alone moments like these are the ones I need to open up and show you my heart but I am weak from all the pain I have had in my life placing my love on the table you hold me close and I worry no more I have accepted you can you accept me? Your destiny lyes beyond the love that I have to give maybe in time you will be mine as I am yours All of the world knows that I have nothing to offer you for you to be loved Giving all that I have, pain is an endless supply from a heart that's torn and weak from the rain Needing you to love me wanting you to love me Waiting for the night you say I love you I sleep endlessly watching the dawn with you in my arms Caressing your face the warm touch awakens the soul from with in and we begin to make love Giving into the desires I have for you I show you my world as we embrace the future it holds. Your destiny lyes beyond the night of love we had together
waiting in the distance i see your image as you approach me my heart beats faster and stronger with the idea of you touching me reaching out i grab your hand and pull you near me smiling as you hug me and kiss my cheek you know just how to touch me when i am down racing your hands thru my hair aweeeee the love you give me is just unimaginable what did i do to deserve this love you give me your so amazing never once letting me down just giving me the love that i need to complete my life i wonder what it will be like when you are gone i sit just starring at you as if you are my love for ever dying to give you the love you seek but holding back for fear that if i give you too much at one time you will leave me sooner i wrap my arms around you and kiss you so passionately that i loose my breath dissappearing into the night i start a new journey...
Walking along the shore i see your reflection in the water you are not with me but you are on my mind your thoughts are flowing in my mind like the tide rolling in emptiness fades as the water hits my feet i feel the warmth you bring me and return it with a gentle smile embracing the memories we had you are a hard person to forget wiping the tears from my cheek i look too the sun for the light of day is upon me as i walk along the empty shore line alone i invision the day you hold me in your arms again and remember the way you held me hoping against all that when i awaken from this dream you will be next to me lying in the night i see nothing but loneliness and emptiness for you have left me for another.....
standing there as the waters hit the shore you reach for me and pull me near kissing my cheek and hugging me tight watching the sun rise as we close the night.. remembering how we met i lay my head on your chest thoughts sinking in as we made love the night before embracing that in which we found each other pulling the blanket up high covering me and you as we lye next to each other.. words are never spoken only emotions are felt.. the sun has risen and the tide comes in you grab my hand and pull me closer i awaken to the sound of emptiness and realize it was all a dream... 12-10-02
i want to hold u in my arms and tell you that i love you for the night has fallen and you are by my side i breathe your life into me as we become one our souls reaching out longing to be loved by one another distancing our lives from the time we spend together all i know is i love you.. images appear before me unsettling my mind what is it that i long for do i desire more than you want to give i wish you were here to tell me that it will be ok but you arent you have left me for the Angel of Darkness has no mercy the only one i loved and you are gone.. my heart grows weak never knowing that our love was meant to be the Angel of Darkness now has your soul the one thing he can never take away is the love i will always have for you... 12-09-02
once again i played the fool of love falling into you with out caution with out doubting you cared. its ok with me i no longer needed to be loved or touched. why does it even bother me you dont care that i fell for you and that i want to be with you. pain is the only emotion that i know and feel. when i looked into your eyes i could see the love you have. beyond your soul is the most beautifulest world a person could show. but then it closed turning black. pushing me away no emotions just walk away was i expecting too much did i want more than you wanted to give? probably again thats all i know. so why do i write these words for i know it will happen again all too soon.. falling in love is the easiest thing to do when you are alone. dying for someone to love me the way i have loved many only to see that it will never be true. for fate has been written and my destiny lies alone in the arms of emptiness. gathering my thoughts as i sit here in wonder what i did to deserve no love from another. i never know what i am here for the world is non existant to me. its life with out love.... Sara 12-02-02
Pearing thru the window she see people she knows laughing and smiling, she smiles as she seeks the door to let her in, her hands feel along every wall there is, she begins to tremble all she can find is the window, her mind replays every thought and move she made, was there a seceret way in thinking back maybe there was all she knows is that she is cold and lonely, banging on the glass with hope that someone will hear herand open the door to let her in, but at last nothing and there was no glimmer of hope, she turns to face the world lonely and helpless, her heart torn between the past and future lifeless and no where to turn, she looks back once again at the window looking inside only to see none of the people existed, she had been deceived by everyone, nothing was real only the pain she felt only the sadness that fell from her eyes as she began to weep, holding her face in her hands, vying for love only to realize she will never have what others have found true love. 10-18-02 Sara
Torn in a world of confusion and unhappiness. theres you, touching my soul and my heart, changing my life..
Alone
THIS IS A STRANGE PLACE I KNOW THE SHADOWS ON THE WALL THE SOUNDS OF THE EMPTINESS alone from birth to death why one never knows i hate this no one heres me i am alone i scream from with in and nothing comes out feelings that hurt watching you i feel sad lonely miserable why is life this way? never knowing what happens and then you leave and life is sad.
love is lost in the air of pain and torture why do you love me why do you touch me so happily make believe is a dream of reality watching you from a distance i shake my head in belief that you are here for me holding me touching me loving me needing me loving the way you kiss me hold me and love me lying next to you as the night sets our love grows deeper no words said you kiss me and touch my soul longing to feel your touch i sit alone and cry you are not here those are only dreams that will soon be reality imagining you here with me is the greatest love i have known watching the sunrise across the sky i wonder do you think about me as i think about you? only time will tell what we feel and how deep love can run Sep 28,2002 Sara
dissappear
you disappear into the shadows of the night looking at you as you walk away bringing the light into the day stumbling away from the sun i close my eyes.. wishing you were here but i know when night falls you will be closing my thoughts of loneliness with out you i just wanna disappear when you are not here i see ur face and realize what happiness is memories of the pain i had fades as u wrap me in your arms and kiss me my mind drifts off with u near me waking up to see that you are a vision that will not come true letting my heart beat just once more as i reach for the blinds seeing the sun rise you wrap your arms around me and kiss my cheek and remind me that love is real Sep 26,2002 Sara
please do not cry
Please do not cry I am not there, I did not die I am the fullest moon shimmering the ocean I am the most softest falls of snow I am the tears that you taste when you cry When you think of me as gone Please, for me, do not grieve I am not there I did not leave My soul is yours, always here To guide you as you try You forever have my shadow For death, still, I will not lie So Eternity my love You have me deep to hold You will never feel a doubt For you knew me as too bold Please do not cry Although I am not here Look around, I did not die
by my friend **** :) i love you my friend
deep in your eyes
Wrapping your arms around me I see forever in your eyes Falling into the future of me and you If I could give you more than the love I have I would give you an eternity of happiness I think that I am in love but I do not know what love feels like Does love feel like the heavens are shining down on you Does it make you eternally happy Does it make you want to wake up everyday smiling knowing that there is someone that loves you waiting to talk to you Does it make you feel that this will never end When I look into your eyes I see an eternity of love Falling deeper in love with you more than I can ever understand My heart is beating faster and faster with love all around I would give you the world in the palm of your hand if you let me I want to give you the world and see forever with your happiness This love is something new and different I hope that it is real I never want to let you leave my life I hope that this is not a dream For I don't think that my heart can take the pain of it Realizing that I will not wake up feeling lonely and empty for I have found love in my heart
mirror images
mirror images on the wall setting in the hall for all to see the pain of love tragically you move from side to side seeing its all the same if in time i could say that i would be yours would you wait would you show me the love you have to give would you care for a wounded heart giving it the love it needs bringing it back to life would you be there for me in the time that i needed you i give you my heart to hold on too please take care of it for it has been wounded many times the pain you see is worth more than words can answer the beauty of its life has ceased to live in something so cold and hallow i show you this for you to understand the world i know and live empty as it seems i feel the pulse of life beating faintly when you are near breathing deeply as you approach my heart beats faster you stand there staring at me wrapping your love around me my heart races not knowing this feeling that you give me or why you give it to me i open my hand and show you my heart. placing it upon your shelf of love that you give me storing my heart next to yours protecting it from all other pain words can not tell you what you mean to me tears of joy run down my face as i look at you with love and happiness wiping them away with your hand so gently kissing my cheek and hugging me tightly loving me for who i am
i wanna give you everything
i would give you the world to look at you for just a moment in time i imagine we will look back at this life and smile knowing you were there to complete me taking my hand and showing me love in the way i have never known breaking thru the heavens giving me love life and pleasure.. releasing the anger from within letting my heart be loved and touched by you i embrace you into my world letting you see inside my life
just you
i would give you the world to look at you for just a moment in time i imagine we will look back at this life and smile knowing you were there to complete me taking my hand and showing me love in the way i have never known breaking thru the heavens giving me love life and pleasure.. releasing the anger from within letting my heart be loved and touched by you i embrace you into my world letting you see inside my life remembering times not so long ago where love ripped my heart out and showed me no trust i never thought i would be over comed by love always sacraficing my heart to the hate of others my pain for their pleasure. you grabbed my hand and stood by me wiping away tears pain and heartache trusting you as if to have always known you never wanting to see the day fade to night never letting you leave myside kissing your lips tasting your love for the first time seeing the happiness in my eyes you kiss me one more time running your hands thru my hair giving me the simple pleasure of life by just loving me
best friend
feb 6, 2002
breathless
feb 4, 2002
time love
feb 4, 2002
waiting
feb 4, 2002
never ending
feb 3, 2002
Existance
Rage
Many confessions I have. Fears of the night. Waiting for you to return. Loosing all hope as to see you again. What was said; what will be said. Why were you the one to leave. No convictions about me. Feelings as distant as the winds. Vying to take your place are many. My heart hurts for the one I knew. Friends before lovers, lovers before friends. Are you listening to me? My heart is hurt and you are the only one to alter it. Or does that matter to you? Even as your friend. Not understanding why you chose her. Fearing the day she leaves you. Will you return?
Making Love
lights are glowing.. the candles burn within touching your skin i feel you inside me. wanting, needing and touching. unaware we are here. my life is yours for you to have. i touch you pulling you into me deeper. looking at you for you i am me. no hiding the love i feel for you. sharing the power of love. gently touching your face. making love to you as never before. i feel you next to me holding me touching me and loving me. i share my soul with you. baring all for you to see i wrap my arms around you and love you with no regrets. innocents no longer my heart beats silent.
Love
There is something that I love about you You are there when I need to talk You are there when I dont I love you for everything that you are The love of my life I think I found you Wish this would have been sooner Never knew that some one could make me this happy You have brought dreams to my life that I never knew existed My world has changed with you I never wanna let you go Holding your hand I can see forever Never knowing pain You took it all from me and told me not to Worry you would be there forever.
My Best Friend
There comes a day when one event can change a life time that day has come for a very close friend of mine although i could never tell her how happy i am for her the dedication she has shown these past few years i am so happy for her and thru all the tears that we have cried together this will be one that i will remember the rest of my life i am so glad to have her in my life i am so happy that her dreams are coming true
Wolf
distant winds you seem calm shadows against walls never known pictures of the spirits dance above our dreams you howl into the night with the wind not to over shadow the sound your music is your words as if written for all to hear no one to hear the soft gentle sound you make i know how you feel when i scream and no one hears me lonely as the night is the day is forever long memories of things that used to be no longer there going thru the motions only emptiness remains the same
Life
i dream of the day i hold you in my arms when i wake to see your smile the sound of your voice i cant wait for you the moment we touch so much to share my life begins with you hearts desire lifes twist of fate destiny lies between you and me love only seems to be there to comfort my fears i ask for nothing and receive everything your heart your love your friendship
Future
Where does the future lye? how about lonely and cold empty and useless but thru it all i am right beside you show me how to find the center plan any dreams you have trust in no one, play all you doubt fear will sucide over all conquer unrest shall be denied most should fear the outburst not knowing anything life, joy, peace only to be left behind from a distance a glow close up only a glimmer of what used to be never mind the sound you hear silence fell once again, painless no fault is given give unto me lord my last breath it shall be taken in your light endanger being left broken
Soul
you move across the floor next to me your eyes are wide open for your soul to see i turn and look at you deep into your eyes you are beautiful i never knew happiness till now you are great just the way you are i cant wait for the day that we are together your love is like an endless waterfall forever is forever
Sitting In Silence
I sit here with no one around Silience coming from within Showing no one the agony that I feel Holding on to you the memory the dream Hope fading fast that it will be forever you And me I sit in one place and dream of the world I long to have Here I am take me away from the silence Show me how I am to be who I am to be Watching over me the shadows are warm Touching me from within your soul I long to be yours The day we met so sweet so gentle Touching me I never knew the silence any more
Nothing Inside But Emptiness
you dont know me and yet you understand me i never know what is happening with my world i find my self yurning to find you the only one that understands me i am lonely and empty your image is real and almost knowing my feelings feel threatened not sure what to say or how to say it will you help me? i am lost and i want to go home i am scared and weak and lonely my hands open up and take my head as i cry i never know what to feel or how to feel but i am empty inside and its never ending what do i see? what do i feel? nothing only emptiness inside.
Giving
I hold your face in the palm of my hands Your eyes are bright and shinning I love the way you are Your smile your laugh You touch me so deep How can your soul be so beautiful In a world so dark You move inside me showing me the love you Have the love you can give I never knew what was happening you changed My life Tell me what I did to deserve you So kind so gentle so giving and yet you love Me although I have nothing to give you in Return
The Legend My Friend
'there she lies, God's interpretation of perfection. Her eyelids enjoy their rest upon their perfect mangers. Her lashes sit guiltily, ashamed of smothering her emeralds from the outside world. Her breath shocks the air with its subtle chill before dispersing into oblivion'
from the urban legend.. may ya be safe babes