Okay, this is how the story goes.

Since Year 8 i've wanted to be with females, but i didn't have the guts to tell anyone about feelings for women. So i went out with guys and did all the "normal" hetro things whilst inside i was screaming for a woman's touch.

This went on until i met a guy named *Luke* We were really serious and he was the first one i told about wanting to be with a chick. He was a bit suprised at first but then auotmatically sorry because we always argued about gay people and so on. He's a bit homophobic but still an extremely nice guy.

So anyways *Luke* and i talked about it and one of my close friend *Anne* told me that she had always wanted to be with a female and so she was the first chick i was ever with.

*Luke* knew about her and i, yet *Luke* and i were still together. What was i to do? Everything i had ever dreamt about was coming true and i was still with him. That wasn't fair on him nor me, so we broke up.

After *Luke* and i had broken up i decided to tell my family that i was bi-sexual. The first in my family to know was my sister and her bestfriend. They were both pretty cool about it and thought it was GREAT! So as my confidence grew i decided to tell the rest of my family. My bro's had mixed reactions but they don't mind anymore. They think it's funny that if they go out with me i'll be pointing out all the cute grrls *lol*

But anyway, the hardest part was still to come and that was telling my mum. I honestly didn't think mum would care that much so when me, my sis and mum were in the car i told her. At first she didn't believe me and asked me "What made me think that?" "How do i know this?" and i just said Mum "How do you think?" and from then on she's been generally pretty cool. She didn't mind me having girlfriend's stay over or anything. She's still a bit iffy about me being gay and doesn't really agree with it but it's my life and my choice.
I guess i got a break there as a lot of people have a much harder time than i did.

Next was my friends. I wanted the WHOLE WORLD to know that i was bi-sexual. It was hard to predict my friend's reactions but they all took it pretty well except for when we did talk about sex or something like that i'd always get the "covered" remarks hinting at the fact that i was really weird and shouldn't be joining in on this conversation. Sometimes i still feel like that but i try and ignore it.

So through-out Year 12  i was guys and grrls but then i started thinking "Hey! i really don't find that guys turn me on anymore" and that's when i became a lesbian. I feel comfortable with that title and i feel more at home only being with females.

I've got the snide remarks behind my back, the rumors flying around the school and the blunt "you poof" comments. But ya think i'm a girl right so why am i being called a "poof" well i wouldn't have a clue, people that make those comments are dead beats anyway.

I'm now turning 21 in November and i'm having GREAT fun with being who i am. One piece of advice to those who are thinking about "coming out" be strong and if you're friend's leave you because of your sexuality they're not worth you're time of day. You can do better.

Peace Everyone

Jess

*Names have been changed*