Chp 1
"Damn you, Elena! Put that station back on!" yelled Eustacia, or Staci as her friends called her, at her best friend as they rode in her car on their way to the mall.
"There's nothing on! I don't like Don Philip! He's for teenyboppers!" she argued.
"Umm no, I happen to like Don Philip and I'm not a teenybopper!"
"Gawd, Staci, yes you are! You listen to Britney Spears and 'N Sync and all of them!"
Staci looked at Elena incredulously.
"You should talk, Eelie! You LOVE the Backstreet Boys!"
"So do you!"
"Yeah, but you're like in love with them! I just want to freak Kevin," she added smirking.
"I'm not in love with them, Staci. They're my friends."
She rolled her eyes.
"Yeah sure! Don't tell me you've never imagined AJ handcuffed to your bed with a can of whipped cream by his side and you straddled on his lap, whip in hand."
"Shut up, you skank! Keep YOUR fantasies to yourself!"
They both laughed.
"Can I change the station, Eelie, please?"
"Yeah, knock yourself out."
She put back the previous radio station. A familiar melody filled the car.
"If you knew what I knew
You wouldn't have said what you said
If you knew what I knew
We'd be together instead
Of you breaking my heart
Over things that aren't true
My lady
My lady, yes, my lady
If you knew what I knew"
"Is this their new single?" asked Elena immediately recognizing their voices.
"Duh! Don't you have the new album yet?"
"No."
"Are you kidding?! YOU of all people don't own Time Again?! Girl, I thought they'd send you a copy like a year in advance!"
"No. I haven't talked to them in God knows how long. We're pretty busy people, you know. So is it any better than Millennium?"
"I love Millennium, but this CD is like SOOOOO good! The best one yet! The guys wrote most of the songs on this album. Ten out of the fifteen actually."
"Wow! Looks like poor Max Martin is out of a job!" she laughed.
"I know! I didn't expect it either, but my God, Elena, the songs these guys wrotetoo amazing for words! You HAVE to hear it! My favorites happen to include Down An Unknown Road by my Kevvy, Where Do We Go From Here by Brian, and Dangerous Obsession by the freaky one himself."
"Cool. But you know, I'm really liking the one that's playing right now. What's it called?"
"It's If You Knew What I Knew co-written by AJ. Man, that boy's got talent!"
" *lol* When did you become such a fanatic?!"
"Since YOU got me hooked! Oh oh oh wait! Listen to this songthe wordsthey're so beautiful!"
Elena rolled her eyes and listened to Brian's haunting crooning.
"Time passes by
The only tears I cry
Are filled with disillusions and fears I have inside
Like a lost soul
I feel like I'm all alone
(All alone)
If only I could feel your pain
Within you're heart of stone"
Staci was swaying to the music with her eyes closed. Elena gave her a strange look.
"What are you doing?"
"Sshhhh! Here comes my favorite part! Gawd, I love his voice!"
"Whose?"
"Just listen!"
"I wish I may
I wish I might
Be that certain someone
You wish for every night"
Elena felt a lump in her throat and she held back tears. 'God, I'm such an idiot! It's been four years already! Get over it, Elena, snap out of it! He's gone!' she scolded herself. But she couldn't help it. Even though she had moved on with her life, she still felt a certain emptiness in her heart. She knew she wasn't going to feel the same way about anyone the way she felt when she was with him. She felt like that every time someone mentioned his name or every time she heard his voice, which often came on the radio. But that was done and over with. Still
She sung his words in her head 'I wish I may, I wish I might be that certain someone you wish for every night.'
"You are," she stated quietly.
"Elena? Are you ok? What's wrong?" Staci asked concerned. She saw the tears drop from her eyes. Elena looked at her, wiped them away, and laughed weakly.
"Nothing. The words just got to me, that's all. You're right. It's beautiful."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, I'm sure. Don't worry about it. I'm fine." It was a lie. She was not fine at all. Staci didn't know about her past with the BSB. She knew they were friends, but she didn't exactly know how close they actually were. Especially that certain one She didn't find a need to tell her. But she wouldeventually. Maybe.
"Ok. Hey, you know what? They're coming here!"
"Who? What?"
"The Backstreet Boys, dork! They're gonna be performing here in Orlando! In the arena near the shopping mall! We HAVE to get tickets!"
"I don't think so."
"What?! Why?!"
"Because I don't feel like seeing them. You can go if you want."
"No way! You have to come!"
"Why do I have to come?"
"Because you know them! You can probably get us backstage and I get to meet Kevin! Grrrrr, what I wouldn't do for a piece of THAT!"
"Staci, please."
"Aww, Eelie, please? Puhleeeeaaaase? It'll be so much fun! We can act like fourteen-year-olds and scream our heads off! Come on! I know you wanna!"
Elena thought for a moment.
"Well, it would be nice to see them again. And I haven't been to a concert in a while"
"Yes! Come on!"
"Oh ok fine!"
"WHOOHOO!!! I'm going to a BSB concert! I'm going to a BSB concert!" she sang at the top of her lungs.
"Shut up! People are staring at us from the sidewalk! Chill out!"
"Ok, sorry!"
"Thank you! You are so hyper sometimes!"
"Can you blame me?! I'm about to see the five hottest guys on the planet!"
"Four," Elena corrected sadly.
"What? Oh. Oh yeah." Staci looked at her lap. "But he's still part of the group. Maybe not physically, but"
"I know."
She really did miss the guys, but seeing them again would surely bring back some memories. Some good, some bad. Very bad. But what can she do? She'll never be able to forget it. She can't keep running away. They were her friends. She became especially close to AJ. She even considered him her best friend. Besides Staci, of course. But it's going to be awkward. Possibly painful. It's been so long. Over three years now. She wondered if AJ would remember her. After all, they shared so much. They shared each other's secrets, jokes and laughter, sadness and tears pain grief AJ certainly couldn't have forgotten her could he?
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