Remembering TATAY
Mood:  special
Today is tatay’s birthday. He would have been 64 yrs old today. My tatay died 4 yrs ago because of cancer of the liver. I have so many fond(and not so fond) memories of my father. When we were little he would always let us watch movies with him. Superman, Voltes V and Indiana Jones series were some that I can remember. Sometimes he would pick me up from school and we will dine out near my school. But it was different when he is under the influence of alcohol. My father loves to drink and he loves to be with his friends. I’m scared of him when he’s drunk actually all of us are scared of him. but you know my father is such a quiet person. And he too is an intelligent one. When he was diagnosed 4 yrs ago of cancer my views of him totally changed. I become more concern of his health and I must admit that I became scared of losing him. I still can remember his last breath and up to now I still find it hard to recall what happened that time. It’s just so hard to lose a loved one particularly your father. Tatay and I are not close but when we lost him I actually wished that if only I showed him how much I care during his last days then it might be easier for me to accept his fate. I just realized then the saying that “you wouldn’t know how much important the person is to you until you lose him/her” and that is very true! Just like now, it’s his birthday today. I wish that wherever he may be, he will somehow know that he was never forgotten by us… HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATAY, WE LOVE YOU!!!!