PICK YOUR BATTLES!
Mood:  chatty
PICK YOUR BATTLES! I think that’s what I’m gonna do starting this year. I read on babyzone.com regarding “rules to love by: the marriage challenge” that one of the key to a happy marriage is to decide which issues are worth pursuing and which are better off ignored.I just realized that I’ve been so nitpicky especially towards my husband that I always end up being annoyed by him. He’s not perfect and I must accept him for what he his. Sure he has shortcomings but who does not have? This will be a big challenge to me since I’m oh so sensitive(always craving for attention) but I know that I can do it! I want to be committed to my marriage and I know that my hubby also values our marriage. This will be a great start for us after coming from a misunderstanding before the year ended. I really hope everything will work out fine for the two of us.

Kwento-kwentoa?|
Mood:  lazy
Didn’t have the time to update my blog so I’ll just summarize everything that happened last month and early this month. dianne successfully had her baby shower last nov.11 which was attended by our closest friends. While my kuya arrived a week later last nov.20. we had some problems with him which I cannot give details, all I can say is he no longer stays in our house. Well whatever makes him happy… I also have the key to our house(at last!) we had our final inspection last dec.4 and I went to the head office to settle some papers before they hand me the keys. We also had our company Christmas party last dec.8 and it was ok, I must admit that I was kinda getting tired of attending our Christmas party coz it’s always the same… we had guests singing, eating same kinds of foods(which sucks by the way) had some raffle, well it’s different this year coz I actually one at last! Well it’s just a minor prize…500pesos! Then at the end of the party there was a band and some dancing. By this time I wanted to go home that I didn’t bothered even going in front of the stage to dance(unlike the previous years). We also had our group’s Christmas party in tagaytay last dec.16. it was more fun and I did enjoyed it unlike our company party. i brought benok along and I think he also enjoyed going. We had games and there’s plenty of food! I was dead tired when we got home coz of all the activities that we did at tagaytay. Anyways I also saw my friends from tenement, sisters gandha and dhes! They’re here for their Christmas vacation and I’m just glad to see them again. Lastly me and my husband just had a major problem that I thought we would eventually separate. I really thought it’s the end for us because of this. I cannot elaborate on this coz we were able to fix it just yesterday. I really want to trust him again but I think it would take time to be able to that. I want him to earn my trust the hard way so I’m kinda cold at him now but I just love him that I’m willing to give our marriage another chance. But I want to make it clear that it’s not another girl or third party that almost ruin our marriage.

It’s only 4 days before Christmas and I’m really hoping 2007 will be a better year not only for me but for my whole family. There’s really a lot to look forward to next year, a baby for Dianne, our house, my husband coming home. I’m looking forward to next year I just hope we’ll have a really good year next year…

Remembering TATAY
Mood:  special
Today is tatay’s birthday. He would have been 64 yrs old today. My tatay died 4 yrs ago because of cancer of the liver. I have so many fond(and not so fond) memories of my father. When we were little he would always let us watch movies with him. Superman, Voltes V and Indiana Jones series were some that I can remember. Sometimes he would pick me up from school and we will dine out near my school. But it was different when he is under the influence of alcohol. My father loves to drink and he loves to be with his friends. I’m scared of him when he’s drunk actually all of us are scared of him. but you know my father is such a quiet person. And he too is an intelligent one. When he was diagnosed 4 yrs ago of cancer my views of him totally changed. I become more concern of his health and I must admit that I became scared of losing him. I still can remember his last breath and up to now I still find it hard to recall what happened that time. It’s just so hard to lose a loved one particularly your father. Tatay and I are not close but when we lost him I actually wished that if only I showed him how much I care during his last days then it might be easier for me to accept his fate. I just realized then the saying that “you wouldn’t know how much important the person is to you until you lose him/her” and that is very true! Just like now, it’s his birthday today. I wish that wherever he may be, he will somehow know that he was never forgotten by us… HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATAY, WE LOVE YOU!!!!

Alone again, natur'lly...
Mood:  blue
My husband just left last Monday(oct.30). hindi nko sumama maghatid sa kanya coz it was raining and I don’t want him to see me sad. I know he’s sad too but we can’t just do anything about it. He has to work abroad coz if he’s gonna stay here nothing prosperous will ever happen to us. And besides we’re now paying for the monthly amortization of the house that we bought. And we have piles of debt that we must pay. Lucky for us coz I’m still working, some of those I’m the one in charge. Anyway he called me the other day to tell me that they’re already in Istanbul, Turkey and that the weather there was not good. They were also staying at Marble Hotel which is good coz he has extra time to take a rest after a grueling flight from Manila-Singapore-Turkey. There was a 6 hour difference from us so maybe he’s still sleeping till now. Anyway yesterday was All Soul’s Day and I was here, working which is nothing unfamiliar since I’ve been working during holidays. There was a heavy downpour yesterday which I think was pretty bad for those who went to the cemetery. Well that’s it for now, I’ll post soon for some updates…

Long lost friends
Mood:  hug me
I just found 2 friends I haven’t met or have news about their whereabouts just this week. First is Jerwin who was my colleague at a gym I used to frequent to. He was my friend’s ex-boyfriend. The last time I saw him was I think about 10 or 11 yrs ago! I saw him at my work coz he’s doing some business there. And I was surprised that he gained extra pounds! Well he’s already married with kids and we talked about the past when we were still going to the gym. Another one that I finally have some contact at last was my bestfriend from college – Lori! My sister accidentally found her at friendster and she emailed me that Lori has been looking for me for years to no avail! I searched for her at friendster and I saw her profile! She’s still living at Las Vegas and she’s already married but no kid yet just like me. She said that she and her husband is planning on visiting Philippines maybe 1 or 2 yrs from now. We chatted the other day and I’m just very happy that we had contact again. Anyway we will chat again that’s for sure and I hope that I’m gonna see her again in person soon! Anyway Ron will leave on Monday…I’m so sad but I’m not making it obvious coz I don’t want him to feel sad too though I know that he feels the same way. Tomorrow I’m gonna help him pack his things and maybe catch a movie for the last time before he leaves. Then Sunday we’re gonna attend mass together and he will attend christening of his friend’s son. I’ll let you know what happens tomorrow till Monday but for now I’m gonna signoff… till next!

Not feeling good
Mood:  down
I have a terrible cold today. I’ve been sneezing since I started working and I can’t concentrate on my work because of this. I will definitely take medication after I eat my lunch. If I still don’t feel ok then I wont render overtime today which is my original plan. Anyway Ron and are planning on going at Pro-Friends main office at Shaw Blvd. on Saturday to get the clearance for inspection of our house. We’ve been paying our monthly amortization but we still haven’t inspected the house. I want this to get done since Ron is still here coz I don’t think I can inspect the house by myself. Meanwhile we are planning on giving Dianne a baby shower party sometime in November. I’ve been printing some tips on how to give a baby shower, I’ll probably post some updates regarding this once. Sana matuloy ito!

Sari-saring kwento...
Mood:  bright
I just saw my ate and her family’s pics in New York and I must say they had fun on their tour! Marielle was of course on her usual self…makulit! Grabe ang bilis lumaki ng batang to, I really missed her I hope next year makauwi sila… Tita inday and her boys(Boyet and Vincent) came for a visit and I was surprised for my cousins kc ang lalaki na nila. I remembered them when they were little coz I was the once who cared for them (esp. Boyet) for a time when I had my summer vacation at their house in Las Pinas… It was Bea’s birthday yesterday she just turned 14! Wow how time flies! I greeted her through text and she replied saying thank you. This girl is dear to me and so are her other siblings. What a beautiful and very kind girl I hope she stays the same…and lastly I went to my OB coz I already had the result of my hysterogram and she said that the result was good coz I have spillage, Thank God! Well she said that our only option for now is AI but I don’t think we can afford it now and besides Ron is already leaving so AI is useless. We might go for it next year when he returns but I don’t really know for sure…

OOUUUCCCHHHH!!!!
Mood:  lazy
I just had my hystergoram last Friday and all I can say is that grabeee it was so painful! I never experienced such physical pain in my whole life than now. I really cant describe it except that sobrang sakit na I don’t want to undergo such procedure again…EVER! Actually my supposed schedule was Sept. 27 which was last Wednesday but Dra. Galang(the OB who will perform the procedure on me) was not available so it was re-sched on Thursday(Sept.28) only to be re-sched once again on Friday due to insufficient power on Pillar Hospital because of typhoon Milenyo! Grabe tong bagyong to! Ang daming na-perwisyo! We have no electricity, no water & no phone line!!! GGRRRR….nakakainis! it’s ok not to have electricity(although it was so hot!)I can bear it but not having water is another thing! Buti na lang Ron made igib at a our neightbor thus saving enough water for all of us. Anyway last Saturday was Dianne Miranda’s wedding to a nice man named Dave Middlebrook it was held at Caleruega Church in Tagaytay and reception was at Ville Sommet at Alfonso Cavite. It was a nice wedding and Dianne was so beautiful, I guess all brides look good on their wedding day actually all look radiant…including me he he he… well after the wedding we got home at around 7pm only to find out that there was still no electricity! But afterwards at around 9:30pm power was resumed by Meralco. Kawawa naman ung other subdivisions like Sheltertown and Barcelona kc up until till now wala pa rin sila water and electricity! OK gotta go, ciao!

My Website
Mood:  sharp
i finally updated my site! wow it's been a year since i last update it! dami ko ng gustong baguhin dun parang gusto ko syang i-totally renovate kc marami na ring lumang mga pics dun and i want to delete na rin some old pics coz i want to free up some space coz malapit nko sa 20mb which is the maximum space given by angelfire. sana i'll have an extra time to do that coz medyo busy pko dahil si hubby andito pa. cguro pag nakaalis na sya. hay naku dami ko gusto gawin, gusto ko uli mag-scrap book...gusto ko matuto mag-bake...gusto ko pumunta ng tagaytay with Ron... kelan ko kaya magagawa lahat un?

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Mood:  sad
i'm sad coz i just got my period. i cried and cried but my husband is so supportive of me, he assured me that everything 's gonna be ok and that he wont change his feelings towards me. medyo gumaan loob ko pero para kasing we're running out of time kaya i feel so hopeless. pero i'm not questioning God of his plans for us kc everything happens for a reason and kung ano plano nya for us i trust in Him. ganun na lang siguro ayoko ng i-pressure sarili ko kc nade-depress lang ako. kaya every minute i spend with my husband i always treasure it and i'm so grateful to God for giving him to me kc kung wala sya i dont know kung san ako ngaun...