Mood: Flu-filled

Oops indeed. Just 1 week ago - on the Tuesday of last week I burned my nerves with my "unability" to fix my car (Yep, it was again at the school`s garage.) I went outside to blow out some steam, but since some of my classmates and teacher with some of the customer cars were buzzing in and out, I couldn`t have peace enough to calm down myself completely. Being still in too pissed of feelings towards myself, I decided to take the car off the lift and drive it out of the garage. The teacher of course couldn`t understand my behaviour and to be honest, I wasn`t thinking clearly then - I was just acting on the emotion and the low feelings about my skills. Later on that day I was supposed to unscrew 1 screw from my teacher`s car since I was then without a carlift. (There was a new car on that lift where my car was before I had droven it out.) I can barely believe it myself, let alone my teacher, that I had difficulties to unscrew that screw but then I almost snapped the very same screw broken when tightening it back on its place. My teacher was furious to me and I can believe that, because he was afraid that the piece that went broken would have been rather expensive piece, but fortunately it was only the screw I had destroyed and he could replace it with same kind of screw. Oops indeed...

Then on yesterday I did it again! I have no energy or patience to be careful enough with my car. It`s not that I wouldn`t have patience in general, but when it comes to my own car, I`m easily saying "Isn`t it (good) enough already?" and then my teacher says Yadda, yadda, yadda... How you think you can do this for your life if you don`t have patience enough to do it with your own car? (Replace the "yadda-yadda" -thing with approriate and related teacher-like barking ) That`s the point! I have patience to be snooping details with other cars, but with mine I`m easily satisfied. It works? Fine, let it be then! It doesn`t have to be perfect, reasonable is just alright.
Unfortunately my teacher doen`t think the same way with me. He kicks and pushes me to do better work with my car and then I loose temper with it when things ain`t going easy & smooth. Same thing again. I destroyed very important nut from my car`s right side rear wheel!

So, today I`ve been chasing the right kind of nut through the biggest neighbour town. Even in the brand`s own salesplace they told me to go to a well equiepped screw & nut -store because my car is so much old already. Fortunately I found it after quite much seaching and I can`t wait to get back to school tomorrow to be able to attach it on its place so that we could move on to replacing the new front brak wheels and pads.