Mood:  down

It`s sad. Depressing. But I`m not complaining. It`s been always like this. My parents have always compared me and 1 of my younger sisters. And I have lost the race in 99% of the cases. I remember only once to be said to her to take example from me. And that was when my room happened to be super clean and hers had been really messy for a little while.

But more than comparing which one of us has cleaner room it bites me more when they are commenting about my physical appereance. This sister of mine is an athletic person, while my sporting is usually limited to walking/rushing to the nearest busstop and walking back. I lost 6 kilos on this summer and my parents were joyfull about that. But they barely had said the praises when they started to slap me again with their words about not to gain back `em and that I`m still fat. Truth is that I`m not as fat as people could understand if only hearing the words of my parents. The school nurses and doctors also have tested me and I get high scores from all other muscle groups except the abs. And I`ve always been abe to lift and carry heavy things, while my classmate girls have complained the things to be too heavy for them. My sister is strong too, but I can still spank her if she`s whining for that (= annoying me too much), unless her trials to beat me gets me too weak from laughing. Then I may have some difficulties to fight back. But I truly hate it when my underweighted sister is being lifted on the throne and all what I do or even my looks is being compared to her. I guess it`s a fact that parents still tend to prefer soft, feminine girls to boneheaded, strong girls. Especially if the bone-head daughter has so much alikeness with her mother that people sometimes mix them. (Like when some time ago my mom`s co-worker though it was my mom on the phone when i was speaking in fact.)

My weight and my big butt is a problem to my parents and I don`t always understand it. As long as I`m not sickly over-weighted I think it`s O.k. to be a bit chubby. Being over thin ain`t healthy either. And I`m planning to start some excersising and stretcing. And I like to dance if not forced to sit still while doing my stuff at home. Of course my parents ain`t seeing that. They live some kilometres away from me.
Well, at least I get some excersise when mowing the lawns for old people (I`m working in a service which is designed especially for old people and those who are not able to do their domestic duties without great difficulties. Many have ordered me to mow their lawns during this summer and that`s what you can call benefit of the work when you can "excersise" while doing your job and making the life at home easier for an old person or a heavily pregnant mother who has 3 wild children already.

My parents can shut up. As long as I`m feeling fine in the way I am and Vinnie II still finds me attractive, I can ignore the evil words of the environment. I have the support of the person I love the most.

Good night everybody! (Here it`s 3.30 AM now.)

Mood: Tired

I just thought to write a bit on this blog of mine... Not been doing that for a little while.

I just noticed that Angelfire has changed the blog builder. New features added. I could for example show my mood simply by choosing the right alternative from the list that opens in the editor. But at least now there`s no such mood as being tired, so I stick to express that mood at least in the traditional way. Writing it to the base text as a separate paragraph. Besdes, I aways write these in HTML form, so it`s not that big deal to me. And in my opinion the MSN smileys (Download MSN Messenger!) are much more nicer-looking than the Angelfire Blog Smileys.

So, what has been going on in my life?

Well, at least I`ve gotten my net connection back and it runs smoothly. But despite of that I haven`t been able to be on-line very much. And every time I was on-line on last week, Vinnie II never was.
At least I got finished a pic that I started to draw on the summer 2002. (As you may see, finishing my pic can take a long time.) Well, I`m currently 98% finished 1 pic which I originally drew in year 2000.
I`m a mood drawer. That means I can`t draw/colour/e.t.c... any picture at any time, systematically. I can and have been developing that skill but if I truly feel to be at the top of the happiness, I can`t work with pic which describes hatred, anger, frustration, sadness, and so on... and vice versa of course.

Today I also heard a question from somebody that he/she (Ain`t gonna reveal who!) had heard that I was giving up from the Biker Mice from Mars -fandom. I was surprised, because I have tried to update the Technodrome - Home of the de Megazones and Megazone Fighters lately, though I haven`t been appearing on The Discussion Board of The Unofficial Biker Mice From Mars lately. Whoever has been wondering if the news about my "retirement" are true, here comes my answer: Nope. I`m still kicking and breathing. And how I ever could leave the BM-fandom completely because I got my true Biker Mouse via the fandom.

News about the bunnies

While I was out of net connections I had had to book a visit to the vet for Johan, so that he would become unable to have cubs with his sister Pipsa. My mom took the boy to the vet on 1 day then and when she returned from there, her first comment was the he had become she. I was giving weird faces to her, not getting her point and then she said that the the bunny ain`t he. But even the vet had had to give anesthetic to "Johan" so that he would have been able to be 100% sure about the gender. And after a carefut examination he had confirmed that despite of the pretty masculine appereance of this bunny, it was a female anyway. So, I had to give a new name for her and she then got the name "Raisa Puputti" basing to the stripe around her neck ("stripe" = "raita" in Finnish. And of course this newly named bunny, Raisa, avoided the operation. 2 girls can`t make cubs on their own.

Mood: Tired

My internet connection went suddenly dead on last week. I can`t get an IP-address from the DHCP-server anymore. And of course, I`m being too buzy to get on-line anywhere else were an internet connection is.

New Bunnies!

Mood: Happy

Yay! I`ve got 2 new bunnies!

Me and Vinnie II were looking for new bunnies from the pet stores in a neighbor town, but it was surprising to notice how expensive they nowadays are. In 1 store they were selling mixed race lion-hair bunnies for 45?(/$), 1 store didn`t have bunnies publicly avaible but the owner would have had 1 bunny with hanging ears for sale. Price would have been 60?(/$). The third store was selling ordinary bunnies for the price of 30?(/$), tiny races for 45?(/$) and special races for 51?(/$), and I was thinking "Holy loony mouse! Massive inflation at the bunny-prices!" Y`see, 8 years ago we paid from our first bunny only 3,20?(/$) and when we took Pupuliina`s 4 siblings to 1 petstore in a different town than the one from where her mother was bought from, the price of the bunnies which were for sale was ca. 8,20?(/$) per bunny.

I was totally shocked by the high prices at the pet stores, especially when used to that fact that at countryside people give often their rabbits away for free. I was also totally upset about the lousy service at 1 pet store and I was already somewhat ready to say "Ok, no bunnies for me anymore." Fortunately my dad`s contacts came into the picture and he called to me and gave me a number of somebody who didn`t live that much distant from my place, to have some bunnies to give. I called to that person and first he was a bit of willing to give just 1 rabbit but then after discussing with his children, he agreed to give 2.

So, that meant me and Vinnie II drove to that place and found a vivid, very much human-loving mother bunny with 4 cubs of hers. 2 of the children were from her earlier set and the smallest 2 were approximately 2 months old already. We took 2 black cubs, 1 from the new bunch and the another 1 from the previous bunch. The older bunny has a nice little "collar" from the white fur and her nose is also white. She also has white "kneesocks" on her front paws and a little bit of white also on her backfeet. The younger one is almost completely black, except the white "anklesocks" on the front paws. We tried to choose 2 females, but when I re-checked at my place I notices that we had accidentally gotten a boy and a girl instead of 2 girls. Well... That means a visit to the vet. After all we don`t want them to start to make babies. Eww! They`re sibling after all!

Well... You`re probably curious to know the names of these two jumpers, so here they come:

The older female: Raisa Puputti

The younger female: Pipsa Puputti

Bunny pictures © Vincent "Vinnie" van Wham II, 2nd of Aug 2004

The Death of Pupuliina Jussiina

Mood: Sad

Who would have believed from the picture of my bunny Pupuliina which was published here on this blog a couple of days ago that she would die about 3 weeks after taking the picture. I at least wouldn`t have believed that if somebody would have claimed that to me.

But the Lord decided to call her to the Heaven where her mother Pupu Tupuna(Most often called as Tupuna or Tupsu.), father and probably most of her siblings - if not even all of them are already.

Late on last evening I was going to sauna which is in a separate building near of the main building and I had to go to an oldfashioned outside toilet because Vinnie II had already booked the toilet in the mainbuilding. After the necessary visit to the "Hotel Relief" I has a strange feeling I should check out how my bunny was doing. And there she was, in the darkest corner of the cage, shaking at times pretty much and her eyes were full of pain. Vinnie II said she looked like the bunny which they had to put in sleep when he was somewhat younger. Pupuliina`s stomach seemed to be overfull and in a panic I called to my parents, crying that my bunny is really sick now. Mom told Pupuliina`s stomach had most likely gone upset from flowers which my neighbor liked to bring for her and which she could eat, but not too much because the plant which I`m now talking about, is quite heavy stuff for a bunny`s stomach.
So, me and Vinnie II removed all the older hay off the cage and the cabin, threw away all food from there and put new, dry hay instead and hard, dry, white bread into her cage for her. And of course we did change her water too and washed all the dining pots with boiling water. (I even burned my hands with that +100C water!)

**Sighs** Now that feels a bit worthless but at the same time I feel that at least we tried to do our best in that situation. I wouldn`t have been able to get a vet at 11.30PM here anymore. They would have told me to bring the bunny to the pet doctor in the morning then.

On this morning I was sleeping a bit later and I got up at 8.45AM to prepare myself to go to work by 10.00AM and I rushed in my nightshirt (Which looks like oversized T-shirt.) to check out if Pupuliina was still alive and perhaps getting better.
But first thing I notice is that the bread is untouched and that I can`t see her. Then I lifted the roof of her cabin away from its place and found her lying on her left side, frozen still, eyes half closed, paws streched straight - just like Tupuna was right after she had passed away, letting out a little squeack. Vinnie II was next to her to prove her dying-moment but now there was nobody to be next to Pupuliina when she let out her last breath and her heart did its last beat. All I know about when she has died is basing to the odour of death. She didn`t smell then when I found her but already on this evening, around 9.00PM when dad was finally closing the box which became her coffin, she was smelling clearly. My mother had taken her off from the cabin of the bunny cage on this morning around at 9.30 and even she said the bunny didn`t smell, so she must have died early in the morning. But at least that much early that she was dead already when the old man from my neighbor had again brought those flowers for her. Y`see, Pupuliina always came out of the cabin or anywhere where she was, to the feeding place when this man brought those flowers. She never skipped her fave food if her fave people brought it. (And she was a big fan of that old man.)

**Sighs again.** I always take very heavily the deaths of those who/which I have liked/loved the most. Dad fortunately did the burying of her, so I was saved from the worst part. Though when they told me to drive back to my own place with Vinnie II and let them bury Pupuliina next to her mother, behind my and Micronian`s play house where we used to play when we were little kids, I couldn`t just drive but had to run to dad who was just in the middle of diging the grave for Pupuliina`s coffin.
There they lie now, side by side, mother Tupuna and daughter Pupuliina. They both lived quite long lives, Tupuna 6 years and 10 months and Pupuliina 7 years and 3 months. Both of them were inspirating me to create my character Thureson, Rocky`s son who has specialized in the area of shape-shifting. Fave form of him was a brown-furred bunny.

Now I have no bunny anymore. And I couldn`t even move my fishes into this house, so I had to leave `em to my parents`place when I moved in here.
Oh well... At least Pupuliina has no pain anymore. She`s freed from `em all.

Have a good journey to the Heaven of The Animals, Pupuliina!

Mood: Tired

Ok, I`m ready to be taken to the mental hospital. I guess it must be the lack of sleep, or then the precence of Vinnie II makes me feel so happy that even the most discusting duties becomes nice. **Sarcastically:** Who would have expected that on 1 day I find myself LIKING to wash the toilet seats!
True! I was today doing some cleaning job in 2 different places and there I had to was the toilet seats. (Eww!) But funniest part was that I didn`t find it as gross as it has felt before. I guess I must be really tired. At least now I am and Vinnie II is messing around with my table computer, so I either have to use my laptop or then go to sleep. Guess which I chose? Yes, the laptop session - though now I think I have to go to sleep.
Hopefully it would be raining on tomorrow. I wound`t have to go to mow the lawn for anybody and could spend a day with my family and beloved ones. Been working even 12 hours long days during the last 4 weeks while co-workers are having their holidays. And since last week here`s been quite hot in my opinion. +16 to +18 Celcius degrees it woud be the best working conditions. If it`s not raining of course. Fortunately my currently primary job is weather sensitive.!

Good night everybody!

Yeah, I should have learned to do that. Vinnie II had recommended me to read a Throttle & Carbine -fanfic named Learning to Let Go (Rated: G) and my insticts were immediately saying that despite of liking T/Car -pairing in the fanfics, I shouldn`t read this.

And they were right.

I got so sad when reading it.
Though the story itself was well written. I haven`t really seen that much fics where Carbine would be the main character and especially not being described as a total b###h.

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Legendaric Bunny

My bunny Pupuliina Jussiina (or just plain Pupuliina) at the age of 7 years and 3 months.

Picture © Vincent "Vinnie" van Wham II, 2004

Mood: Excited

Yay!
After planning to do this for 2,5 years I finally got a chance to do a proper-looking blog! Vinnie II, who is visiting me currently, is playing some "kill-a-bogy" -game with his laptop while I`m writing this. I should already go to sleep because I must get up early tomorrow (or today actually) but I`m too excited about this. :P
I got a fiberglass connection 1 week ago to roll and since then I`ve tried to catch up the messages more also at the Discussion Board of Unofficial Biker Mice from Mars Fan Club and go through my e-mail boxes too.(And there`s a lot of `em!) Mostly I just get spam which I hate a lot, so therefore I beg and ask you not to become a spammer too. Reasonable e-mails are always ok, but the commercial junk can skip me. I don`t need any >beep< enlargements, Viagra, or spy anybody anywhere -trash.

Also virus-makers better not to bother to e-mail me. I hate it when my or my family member`s computer gets choked after I have removed some virus/viruses from my/their computer(s).

For the rest of you I wish you would stay and enjoy on my pages. :)

Ride free citizens!

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