August 14, 2000
well its been a while. I've kinda been away. things suck right now. like a lot. i dont know y but they just decided that right now was a good time to suck profusely. you know..i go to europe for two weeks, and that was wonderful. i loved it there away from the problems here in the US. but then before i left, my friend goes into the hospital cuz she tried to kill herself with paxil and a bottle of wine. then i go away...worrying about that. then i come back...and my boyfriend tries the same thing...i'm in the most unhealthy relationship in the world and i need to get out. now. i dont know how either cuz everytime that i think i am going to be able to ...he does something like this. i dont know anything anymore. i just dont know...
Jenn
