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i get irritated easily, and i'm neurotic. i can't let anything go. people affect me deeply.
i like doing housework. i love cleaning and cooking, even though i'm not very good at it. i love to shop, but only when i have something to buy. i am not a browser. i have two tackleboxes stuffed full of make-up and am quite vain, but i disapprove of shallow people. some of my closest friends are shallow, and it bothers me a lot. when something bothers me, i tend to go on for days about it.
i was born in los angeles and lived there until i was about 8. i miss it, but i wouldn't want to live there again. i had a fine childhood; nothing too traumatic happened, nothing went terribly wrong. one of my favourite memories was the time my best friend trey's father picked us up from kindergarten and took us to get doughnuts and play video games.
one my my favourite things about myself is that i understand and accept my flaws. i'm very realistic about who i am. some people think that's a sign of low self-esteem, to think something is wrong with myself, but i think it's a sign of healthy self-esteem. i don't think i'm terrible, but i don't think i'm great, either. i tend to be able to look at myself and others objectively.
i am often distant toward people i care about, but i don't mean to be. i am purposely distant toward people i don't like, but they never seem to notice. i'm tactful. i have good manners and good hygiene. it bothers me when other people don't.
my father thinks i'm fat. my mother thinks i'm pretty. i get along fairly well with my sisters, and i don't like most of my relatives. my family is like the simpsons, except that we're not yellow, and we don't wear the same things every day.
i love television. love it. i have a long list of favourite shows, among them judge judy, jeopardy!, are you being served?, six feet under, frasier, dawson's creek, the simpsons, malcolm in the middle, and queer as folk. i also love reading. i love chekhov. i love the catcher in the rye and a passage to india and the great gatsby and a separate peace. i love the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy. when i want to relax, i read books that are well below my intelligence level, but are somehow comforting. those sweet valley twins have gotten me through some hard times.
i have few regrets and don't embarrass easily. i'm quiet but not shy. i get defensive when people tell me what i'm like, because most often they don't know me. i am never offended. i believe in a lot of things, but i only have emotional attachments to a few beliefs, and those are not strong enough to make me care if you don't agree with me. you can ask me anything you want, and i'll give you an answer.
my favourite actors are jack nicholson, anthony hopkins, and morgan freeman. my favourite actresses are thora birch, kirsten dunst, and susan sarandon. my favourite male voices are james earl jones, vincent price, howard keel, and bing crosby. my favourite female voices are ella fitzgerald, winona ryder, christina aguilera, and dolly parton. my favourite movies include natural born killers, citizen kane, the shining, pulp fiction, beetlejuice, and the lost boys. some of my favourite directors are quentin tarantino, david lynch, stanley kubrick, and tim burton. my favourite bands/artists include the cure, david bowie, the sisters of mercy, depeche mode, placebo, queen, and blondie. i have kenny rogers' "the gambler" on record, and i dance to it when i'm bored.
i have large breasts, pale skin, blue eyes, and glossy hair that i like. i have thick arms, broad shoulders, strange feet, and an odd profile that i don't like. i wear shoes that make me taller, but i'm not short to begin with. i'm just average.
i find it hard to get motivated to do things that i feel are a waste of time. sometimes i skip them and lie about it; i'm a great liar. sometimes i feel like people don't really know who i am. i think i'm difficult to get to know, hard to figure out, and generally unapproachable. i'm not sure how i feel about that.
i am more awkward in real life than i appear online, if you can believe that.
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