Anorexia is a disorder that affects the mind, causing the confused and disordered person to hear and believe things that are said within the victim's mind. Some patients of anorexia often complain of the continuous argument that occurs between themselves and their head. "I know it's probably just in my head," one patient says. "but to me it feels like I am drowning. My head feels like a war zone and it just won't stop. Day after day I seem to be losing control over my life and it terrifies me. Even when friends come over, I just lay on the couch like a zombie, not talking or joining in what they are doing, just listening to the voices in my head."
Victims of anorexia are effected differently by the voices that they so often hear. Some sufferers hear only faint whispers while others hear drumming and screaming throughout their mind. The controlling commands often get so intense that I myself sometimes felt as though I was being drowned, taken into the rolling waves of an angry sea and not being able to breathe. Another young woman once wrote, "It doesn't matter how fast you run to escape it, you'll never run fast enough... It has no features, no feelings. It is flat and lifeless yet it hates you and seeks your ruin more efficiently than anything else could. When you die, it's gone too. It just dissolves into thin air. It's only reason for existence is to wreck you." The "it" that this victim refers to is the loud and overbearing voices inside of her mind. In order to completely recover from anorexia you must separate your right state of mind from the disordered way of thinking that has consumed your life. With every negative thought that goes into your head, you must come up with a more positive one.
