Why Should I Stay?
Man, I wish... I wish it would all just go away. I wish that I could just leave.
I could, too. The only reason I’m staying is for LaPann.
LaPann asked me to stay for her. To not do anything until I can talk to her.
I told her okay.
What did I do?
Why did I say yes?
Why should I wait?
For LaPann.
The only reason; for her, my friend, my best of friends.
The only person that has never betrayed me.
The only one that wants to help.
My only true friend.
LaPann.
The only person that can ever be a part of me.
LaPann.
Forever,
LaPann.
Always,
Her.
Until the day comes, when she, too, must betray me.
The day when even her reputation with my mind and spirit is soiled.
Ruined.
Destroyed.
Forever.
Confidence and trust broken.
Is it to be?
Must it be?
Never.
Never in my mind shall such torment be allowed to persist.
I must free my being, myself.
This is Hell.
What else could it be?
A destruction of the self, from inside to out.
It starts deep within a person.
Slowly tingling and moving its way to one’s extremities.
Testing mind, testing will, testing soul.
And destroying all.
Why should I stay?
With the hope that LaPann can help.
It’s my only reason.
I hate all else.
They mean *nothing*.
They *are* nothing.
Cliche a line, and say “Goodbye cruel world.”
How true it might be.
Too sad.
Help!
Too mad.
Forever.
LaPann!
My hope, my light.
The only one that I can talk to.
The only one to know my pain.
The *only* one.
LaPann.
To you,
Eternally,
LaPann.
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