Well, I got a job. Yes! Me! Mikey MiGo/Mike Goodpaster has a job. I'm working at AMERICALL, which is for those who care, a telemarketing firm. For the past week, I've been in "training" at Americall. This has been a long journey and has been extremely bumpy. Like in late May, a unnamed friend applied and got hired. He worked for like 3 or 4 days and quit. For what the pay was, I don't see how he could of quit. Anyways, I took the lead and went on to attempt to get hired. I went with MEW's own, Cameron Vance to work there. We went to both interviews and got hired. Along with us two working there, MEW columnist and dedicate-tee Rik Khaos was to start before us with his training. Needless to say, the wool was pulled over our eyes and we were to all start like on July 8th. So July 8th, at 5 PM we were to go in. Cameron couldn't take the job for his own reasons, so it left the two of us, Myself and Rik. We head out there at like 4:15...we get stuck in some of the worst traffic ever. We don't arrive to work till like 5:10 or somewhere around there. But things were OK! We started our training. It was easy and boderline fun. Things were looking up! The next day we go in like a half hour earily and wait...we are informed that there was "too many people in the class" and since "we were late" we had to be removed and would be allowed to join the "next class". It was almost hard for them to let us down. Ellie, the supervisor/hiring lady, was almost in tears as she told us this. It was insane. In my18 years on this planet(not like I've spent any time on any other ones) I've been rejected many times. Hell, I'm used to it. But Ellie made me feel like we were rejecting her and what not. God Bless her. This was "AMERICALL HATES US ALL: Exhibit #1" by the way. I was lost and jobless for the time being, but Rik was in trouble and needed a job. He looked and looked and without any positive results he was left in the blue. I was again, harassed by my parents to get a job. THEN...Ellie calls me and informs him that the WEDNESSDAY we were to start on..WAS CANCELLED. "AMERICALL HATES US ALL: Exhibit #2". PRICK, I was sleeping when she called and was a bit cranky so when she asked me to call Rik and tell him, I told her "You should call him and crush his dreams yourself!" Again, I think she turned on the water works. Good Lord! I was joking(halfway atleast). Things officially SUCKED. But low and behold that Friday we got a call from Ellie telling us we can start on MONDAY!!! SCORE! We go and we make it. Its all groovy! We fill out paper work and do all the same stuff we did the first time around. A weird and bizzare side note was that we had to make passwords for their computer systems, Rik's password was "KHAOS"....Later in that evening, Colleen, the trainer said "I HATE KHAOS!" "AMERICALL HATES US ALL: Exhibit #3". We train and read scripts and rebuttals and all that evil stuff. Fast Forward to FRIDAY, The day start off with Kurt not being able to punch in..."AMERICALL HATES US ALL: Exhibit #4" All of that gets taken care of and what not...so things are going good. We're calling people all across the country and I swear telemarketers get more heat than Bin Ladin at a 4th of July parade! And sadly enough, I LOVED IT. Screw getting sales, I wanted people to cuss me out! Thats where the fun is! Anyways, Colleen passes out the hour sheets so we know how many hours we worked that week. I don't get one...Little did I know, that MY ACCESS NUMBER isn't "Mike Goodpaster", but rather DONNA JONES! DO I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING DONNA JONES? (Don't answer that.) And now, THAT is being taken care of as well..."AMERICALL HATES US ALL: Exhibit #5" The night is over. We get to go home, but Rik and I were to get a PAY CHECK from that ONE DAY we worked 2 weeks before. NO GOOD! No check! Nothing! We have to fill out paper work about it. "AMERICALL HATES US ALL: Exhibit #6". Our trainer, Colleen, then gets really upset about us not getting paid and goes to her purse and attempts to give us money. We have only known this lady for 5 days and she's trusting us with money. CRAZY! I quickly turn it down as does Rik. I'm still mooching off my parents and being a preveribal loser, but he's on his own and has bills. She pushed it on him huge and he forced her to take it back. MY THEORY: Colleen, as nice as she is, was attempting to put a GUILT trip on us because of my half serious/half joking "AMERICALL HATES US ALL" rants. "AMERICALL HATES US ALL: Exhibit #7". Ellie, Colleen, Ben, and many of the people there LOVE us. But I'll stand by this....AMERICALL HATES US ALL. One thing I noticed about the place was that there's TONS of Bible Thumping Baptist there. I'm not against that at all. If they have faith in something, Rock the fuck on. I don't. I question faith too much and I want answers for everything. I can't accept something without proof and answers, but anways...JESUS CHRIST! People are walking around with bibles there like its their lunch box. Bizzare! I love wrestling! I love porn! I love nine inch nails! I love sacreligious jokes! I love money! I love love! I really don't fit in with these people. But lucky enough, For every "4 Religion freaks" there, theres "1 borderline psychotic, freak, and in my opinion COOL" people there. Rik leaves for college in late August so I'll be left without a ride there. I'm gonna work on getting a car or trans there. Its a job I'd like to keep. It pays well, its comfortable, and its not that hard. I think it might even make me a better person. OK. Stop laughing.

Another curve ball was thrown my way in the likes of my ex-girlfriend. In past commentaries, I've mentioned her. She and I were like best friends for all four years of highschool and went out for the better part of our Senior year. We used to spend hours(I mean like 12 a night!) talking on WebTV and what not. I can honestly say I love her and probably always will. There's only a few people in life that I can say that for and others that I think and hope I'll be able to say that for when our friendship and relationship goes on a bit longer. When I find someone I sorta like, I compare that girl to my ex. My ex girlfriend is EVERYTHING I've ever wanted in a person and she's the standard I put every other girl up against. Anyways, She emailed me last weekend with her number. I called her Sunday and things were rocktastic. I visited her at work and what not. She would call me at 2 AM when she got off work and we'd talk for hours and catch up. Nothing really had changed much. We still have "it" that made us so close before. Wednessday, she came over before I had to work and we hung out a little. Then Wendessday night she came over and we watched Southpark and did some drinking. She ended up sleeping over and we were fine. Nothing happened, if thats what you're thinking. We're just good friends. Best friends, I would say. We were gonna hang out Thursday, but she got called into work. And Friday morning we were to hang out and did for like a hour, but she was falling asleep so I made her take me home and then go home to bed. Thats that...so now what? I would LOVE to be with her again, but there are a few obsticles in our way. Her current exboyfriend and her live together and have a lease on their apartment. She doesn't want to screw him over and nor does she care if he gets upset if she hangs out with me. We talk and talk and I know she's not happy with her life. I'm doing anything and everything I can to make things better for her and for her to enjoy life. When we hang out, things just seem right. I just don't know how long I can hang out with her, before attempting to move the relationship up the next plateu. I know she's gotta have feeling for me still and I'm sure she can tell that I'm still in love with her. It sucks because theres not many other girls out there that will give me this sort of chance and one that I'll connect with. There's way too many empty talks with girls who show "interest" only to never follow it up. She's there for me. Sadly, the last time we spoke before just recently was September 11th. We were to go job hunting together and she called and I didn't go for the obvious reasons. That was the last day we spoke. Its sorta funny in a sick way how we say "September 11th was the last day we spoke...oh yea..and that other stuff happened too". I don't know what to do. I'm just going to take my time and see where things go. I'm sure I'll explode and let it all out soon. I don't want to scare her away, but I can't be around her without wanting to hold her. Time will tell. Anyone got any advice or ideas? Didn't think so.

Ever see Chasing Amy? I suggest everyone see it. And if you're anything like me, see it a good 100 or so times. For awhile there I was watching that movies once or twice a day. It was sickening. Its my favorite movie, but when I see it I get depressed. I'm a naturally depressed person. Eh, maybe thats not so true, how can I put it? I'm a "the glass is half empty" type of person...and then I wait for it to be completely empty. I relate to that glass so much. I'm so empty. Besides MEW and my quest for happiness, I'm Empty. That movie is one of those things that I find "Answers" in. I do what I always do. I don't sit back and enjoy the story. I sit back and compare the story to myself and my life. Someone told me that the ending was a happy ending? How so? He lost the love of his life, his best friend, and his dream. Sure, he was "happy" and had a new comic book, but I'm sure he missed his friend, the girl, and the dream. I watched this movie the other day as I was on the phone with my exgirlfriend. Yikes. More "answers"...

Then there's this song off the Queen of the Damned Soundtrack called "Slept So Long" sang by the lead singer of Orgy, Jay Gordon. I again find answers in this song because it basically describes life for me in general. Everything that I love to do makes me feel alive, but "touching" it makes me "die inside". Eh, I guess to should just download it and listen to it. I once sent the lyrics to some girl that destroyed me and now when I hear it I think about my ex and the meaning changed, not totally, but in a way where its not so angst filled, but has some sort of hope involved in it.

And finally on the whole "Answers" topic. I got a letter from "www.poetry.com" saying that I'm a finalist to their annual contest for a poem I did. I don't remember submitting one of my poems, but none-the-less, it IS my poem. The poem is ironically called "Answers". Not that I'll win, but if I do I could be $10,000 richer. Rock on.

Maniak Enterprise Wrestling is NOT dead. Its NEVER been dead. And it never WILL be dead. I've put it on the backburner as I get my own life in order. I am honestly annoyed by everyone who keeps emailing me, calling me, and asking me when the next show is. We(those who involve themselves and care) are working on it and it'll be back SOON. I'm also working on some other great plan that will result in things being A LOT more "MiGo-ese". I mainly got a job to get MEW some more funds, but with recent developments, I might not even need to keep the job(but I am of course!). People want to give up on me and MEW? Go ahead. We don't need you anyways. People want to harass me about the next show and the future? Where are you? Put some effort in as well and get things going quicker. People want to see MEW not comeback at all? I'm soooooo pissing in your lemonade. People have moved on from MEW? You may think you've moved on, but soon enough we'll pass you up...for good. I honestly love those who are sticking with me and MEW. Not because of the whole "doing stuff for MEW" thing because it means you have class and are sticking with MEW at is so called "lowest time". Which honestly, I think MEW's lowest time was probably earily 2002, but thats just me. What do *I* know about MEW? I know more about "the biz" than people will give me credit for. Just because I don't give the "worker hand shake", talk about "paydays", and "getting my name out there"...doesn't make me ignorant to "the biz". Just because I don't return CD's to certain "workers" doesn't mean I'm "ignorant". Fuck you! I don't even have your CD. Its not MY JOB to get your CD to you. Its yours. Its MY JOB to job you out to "two untrained green-no gear having-100 pound-kids"! You can talk all the shit you want about ME, but where were YOU when you were 18 years old? School? Working? What? Actually, I don't care. You guys devoted your match to ME in Indy. You didn't work the crowd or attempt to get over, you mocked me. I have THAT MUCH control over you. My presense completely changed YOUR game plan. You devote time in your interviews to TALK ABOUT ME. Thanks for the press. Not many people like you guys so if you shit talk it, its only putting me over. Tootles!

On a sad note, Carl Morris announced he's retiring. I remember watching him back in NWWA and laughing at the Trekkie gimmick. Carl always was a bit annoyed and embarassed by the gimmick. Carl never realized that people would pay to go see the NWWA shows just to see the Trekkies. They rocked and were something I'd love to see around again someday. Then, when MEW started, I had the pleasure of booking Carl Morris as apart of the roster. Carl is a great guy and seems to be misunderstood. I hate it when people personally attack him because he never hurts anyone and only wants to do what he loves. And I love the guy for that. Carl Morris is a class act and very undervalued. He's been taken as a joke by many and the joke is on them because Carl Morris rocks. Carl Morris is the only CM that I'll ever care about. We'll miss you Carl!

On August 1st, 2002...I turn 19 years old! Send Presents.

Lost and Found.

Michael MiGo