Alone (Part Two)

I am bummed out, torn up, cast down and blue
Sad, spiritless, unhappy and I blame you
Dejected, despondent, disconsolate too
Crestfallen, hurting, in pain after all you put me through
Melancholy, miserable, bleak and morose
You make me feel this way and you’re not even close

I feel this way and I don’t know why
I’m so sad I can’t even cry
It’s true I know because I try
But I can’t get a single drop from either eye
I am alone and for the first time it’s not by choice
A candle in a hurricane, a solitary voice

I couldn’t believe what I was seeing after our fall
You lost me then you lost it all
But in your trap I have been caught
I’m glad you went on living though I know that I have not
I can’t wait until I find somebody new
So they can leave just like they always do
I tried to move on
But the feelings not gone
I’ve tried to replace you
And I’ve tried to erase you
Because you left a great big hole in me again
I can’t drink, smoke, or hurt enough to fill the fucking thing in
I wish someone would come along and fulfill this silent plea I implore
Somebody kill me, I can’t do it myself anymore
If you ever come home you’ll see
I’m exactly where you left me

You might read this and want to ask but please don’t say
And save these questions for another day
My eyes are open now I finally see
I think I know what you've been asking me
I say a blessing for you every time I pray
I think you know what I've been trying to say
I never thought I’d have to grieve you
I promised I would never leave you
I love you even though I don’t always show it
And you should always know it
I like your glow
Where ever you may go
No matter where you are today
I never will be far away
I go to sleep at night singing to my surprise
Goodnight, my angel, time to close your eyes...

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