I heard from my friends that it would be a great chance to find a summer love or a great relationship.But I was nor interested neither believing that was possible.I had a duty in front of me, and that was the only thing in my mind. What was it? Something so noble, that it has a story of its own(story that I wont tell this time) .

Did I believed in love?Yes, I believed in God’s love.Had I been in love with a girl?Not me, I used to be the sort of guy that dated lots of girls(the kind that like to talk to you only when you look good) and never had a real or serious relationship.That nice guy that its just fine as a friend but its too shallow for something else.My friends said I was “lucky” with girls, but everything was so fake that I got tired of it, and stopped seeking for a sweetie.I was better alone. I knew that my task in a country somehow hostile , was no easy task, but it was really benevolent.So I signed up.And followed all the directions of the persons in charge the best way I could, to be assigned later to a certain group of youth people to work with. The first day passed with no real difficulties, and I saw a good future for this job.

The second day I arrived at the headquarters as early as possible and was assigned to a new group of people .How was I supposed to do friends or form bonds if I had to be with a different group every day?! Anyways, it didnt really mattered, I wasnt there to make friends. My new group was leaving and surprisingly, the only other helper was a young kid, leaving a great responsibility on my shoulders.We worked together and had a stressful but amazing morning. As it was time for lunch , we arrived to the house of one of our friends.In that moment I was swimming deep in my thoughts,until I started working on my social life and began chatting with some of the young guys and girls. Trying not to form bonds, I started thinking in the rest of the day, and how to work better.

Suddenly my thoughts were disturbed by the most amazing view. I know I had seen many pretty girls in my life, but this one had something different , something I try to explain , but there are things that cant just be explained.No!!! it couldnt be happening!, not to me!, not possible!I had to concentrate in my job and only my job... ... But I knew that probably I wouldnt see her the next day, so I had to know her name. I started staring at her face, trying to make eye contact, until it actually happened.Her eyes were a reflection of God’s perfect creation, so beautiful that I loss my breath for a second and started feeling something funny in my stomach. This couldnt be happening to me!Not to Mr insensibility! I asked her name, and she answered.A pretty name for sure, but not important for the effects of this story.When I asked where was her home and she told me, I realized that she lived thousands of miles away.That striked a low blow and sent me back to reality.

We arrived at the headquarters and I had dinner with my friends , talking about all the day’s experiences, and enjoying the good food. When I finished, I went straight home and wondered which was going to be my group the next day.

The next morning I was the first guy ready for duty. And I was assigned to my friends from the day before. The day was fine ,and when we were back at the base I realized that it was the group’s free afternoon and they were going to walk around the city. “What a great chance!” I thought for myself. And rushed to offer my help as a guide to the group of people where the girl was. We started walking through the city ,so I stood behind, trying to take care of my new friendsSurprisingly the girl started walking by my side, giving me the opportunity to know her. As the days continued, we had many chances to be together, and I started to feel something that I had never felt before, what was it?!, what was I feeling?!! I couldnt take her out of my mind!!! I know she was pretty: a little smaller than me, with beautiful short brown hair, and with a smile capable of conquering any man.But besides this, her way of speaking ; of looking me into my eyes, every single bit of her personality, she was driving me crazy! I was crazy for her! The time passed and the communication between us never ceased. The feeling in my chest grew bigger and bigger every day, and eventhough I had never felt that before, I started realizing what it was.I loved her. I loved her with my heart. In a way I never thought possible. Not for me. It was like a dream. Every moment I spent with her is stored in my heart like the most amazing treasure. Every single moment!I know that she probably though I was crazy every time she realized I was staring at her. Just staring. I couldnt really give her an explanation. “If somebody can be so beautiful and wonderful, I wonder how angels are” I thought many times for myself. She ment so much to me!

One night we were together . I was just holding her, close to my chest.I smelled her hair and sighed, as I always do when Im truly delighted. The only light around us was the tender light of beautifully colored candles. I had my angel close to me.It was one of those moments that everybody experience only a couple of times in life.One of those human moments that are made to last forever. Slowly, I placed my face close to hers, being careful not to destroy the magic of the instant. I felt her soft respiration, and her warm skin in contact to mine. Our faces moved in a delicately manner until our lips connected. We kissed in the most affectionated and gentle way. It wasnt my first kiss, or neither hers, but I will always remember it. It was better than any other in my past, by the fact that it was straight from heart, with the only girl that Ive ever loved. I felt happy inside because I had found an angel, but I was sad because I knew I had to say goodbye. The days and the hours flew away until that very moment. I was heart broken, and inside me there was a fire burning.Then I looked at her.And her tears started tearing my soul apart. Oh! If I only had the power to change the things in order to stop her suffering...

The fact is that she is not with me right now.But, no matter how far or near we are, my feelings for her will be the same. And Ill be waiting for the day when I can see her again and tell her: I love you.

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