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I am at my house tonight, alone. Men suck.
On Wednesday I went sandal shopping. Instead I found cowboy boots on a 65% off closeout sale. They are red. They are beyond beautiful! I couldn’t pass them up.
Earlier this evening my bf and I stopped at Walgreen’s, the liquor store, and we caught dinner at Porter’s. I wore my new boots, a sundress, and my new leather jacket (the one he bought for me). It has turned cold again…in more ways than one.
At Porter’s a jazz band from the city was playing and I was crazy-happy with my mussels all sprung open sitting on a bed of linguini with clam sauce. After dinner was nice. We were dancing slowly when all of a sudden my bf let go of me and went back to the table.
What?
“You dress like that to attract men! You move like that to get men to stare at you! I saw you smile at that man in Walgreen’s. They stare at you. They stare at your ass. They stare… They stare… Fuck it. “ He just kept railing at me without taking a breath.
“Dress like what? I am all covered. I dressed like this for you. I have no control over people looking at me. You are irrational. And I smile at a lot of people and you know it. What is this really about?”
“Why did you really buy those boots? You are a handful, too much to manage.”
“Manage? I will not discuss this here, Let’s go.”
“No.”
I called a cab and now I am home. Fuck men. Guess what? I didn’t do anything wrong. And you can’t fight with me unless I do something wrong. Leave me alone. I am tired. I am going to bed. Why is there always all of this illogical crap? I am sick of it. Okay I am off. GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
