All of a sudden...light. A brightness, more accurately. It was dark...now it's not. And in the middle of the light, directly in front of me, stands the source of all the light in my life...Jeff

My cock swells instantly at the sight of him...did I mention he was naked??

Anyway...he looks hungrily at my erection, and the glint of feral possession in his eyes sparks my arousal further...

He walks over to me and reaches around, tangling his fingers in my hair and pulling me down for a forceful kiss. He pushes his tongue against my lips. I part them, and he thrists his tongue inside, exploring the cavities of my mouth. He's being so aggressive...it's so unlike him...

He pulls away, leaving me brathless, though he's breathing perfectly normally...He looks me right in the eye.

"You're keeping something from me, Matthew" Matthew? He never calls me Matthew...and how the Hell does he know I'm keeping something from him? The only secret I have from him is my cancer, and the only person who knows about that is...

Shannon.

He smirks at me. "Shannon didn't tell me anything, Matthew" Stop calling me Matthew!! And how do you know what I'm thinking?? What the Hell is going on??

He slides down my body, getting on his knees, his mouth in front of my cock, his breath, hot and promising more, teasing the heated flesh.

He slides his mouth down my cock, taking it all at once. My knees buckle, and I tangle my fingers in his hair, trying to stay upright.

"Mmm...Jeffy" He slides away as soon as I moan, and stands up in front of me again...he seems less real now, his edges are...blurry. What the Hell is going on??

"Tell me, Matthew" There is a pleading in his eyes, and for a moment I almost give in...then I see a flash of something...else in his eyes, and it scares me. It's all I can do to shake my head. He seems to fade a little more.

"If you don't tell me, I won't come back, Matthew. I won't be able to" He's still fading, I can see through him now.

"I-I can't." I hang my head. I can't look into his eyes.

There is a swirling, flesh-colored mist under my chin...like his fingers, trying to bring my chin up. I look up. He's almost not there...I can see right through him, he's just an ethereal swirl of flesh-colored mist, topped off with a beautiful rainbow.

"Then goodbye, Matthew. Goodbye" He completely fades away, leaving me in the blackness.

"Wait! I'll tell you, Jeff, I'll tell you...please, come back, baby...wait...I need you...Jeffy...no, stop....come back..."

Violent shaking. All of a sudden, there are hazel eyes burning into my head. It's Jeff...but wait, Jeff's gone, he left because I wouldn't tell him...

A dream. Not a dream. A nightmare.