Here
it is the update on me and my changes after walking through my fire. This update
has been a long time in the making. I have taken some serious time to consider
what I wanted to say this time out the gate. This one will be about where my
life is at this point.
I
seem to be at one of those cross roads and this update will reflect on some
of the things I have done and notice over time. Most of that is how people act
out. I have met some wonderful people that have changed my life and fleshed
it out. I have also become a student of human nature. Hence the theme "Shades
of Gray". I have noticed people from one end of the spectrum to
the other. I have watched from the stand points of their skin, culture, and
beliefs. So when I talk about seeing things from the blackest of blacks to the
whitest of whites, I am referring to the nature of people. And my friends seek
me out because of my observations. I’m usually watching when you think
I’m distracted.
I
found the world to be a beautiful place and I try to contribute as much as possible.
I love to laugh and enoy life. I love the company of good natured people. It
was the most incredible thing when I met some one that I considered evil and
purposely out to hurt others. I guess it was my naiveté that had carried
me so far.
Growing
up in a racially segregated town, I have managed to get pass color when dealing
with people. I always try to see the goodness in people and show it to others.
I am amazed that this is still an issue today.
And like any small town boy, I thought the big city (NYC) would be different.
Man, was I ever wrong.
What
I have noticed is that you have to even choose your shade when you go out. If
you have ever noticed; you can blend in, stand out, or become Mr. Cellophane.
As the song goes “walk right through me
.” That song had a profound affect on me growing up. I knew I could do
either, but it really changed when I had it done to me. My personality is one
of brightness, and energy, and I attract my share of good people and then there
are the energy vampires. They just want to live off of my light and energy.
I have my moments of pits and with the strength of my moods I can affect a lot
of people.
Then
there is what I have coined my “Soap Dish” moments, when we all
have to go to some place where everyone knows us and appreciate us. You walk
away feeling validated, and we all need that from time to time. So here are
some of thoes things, and people that have affectively shaded me.
