Title: The Simplest Words
Author/s : L
Fandom: Saving Private Ryan / Vin Diesel
Disclaimer: COPYRIGHT  2001: Adrian Caparzo is not my creation and I can not claim copyright on him or any characters from Saving Private Ryan. All other characters are my creation and I hold rights to them and on the plot of this story.
 
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"I'll be leaving in a couple of days, so maybe......"
 
Adrian Caparzo gazed down into the doe-brown eyes of the girl wrapped in his arms. He smiled down at her, his own eyes filled with hope.
 
"I...I..." The girl stuttered, torn at the thought of him leaving. The night that surround the couple lending shadows to cover the uncertain turn of her features. She knew what he wanted, his body was making his intentions more clear than his words. "I don't think I can, Adrian."
 
"Come on, no one but us has to know. When I come back I'm goin marry you anyway." He spit out so casually it was like his next breath.
 
"You're gonna what?" She tilted her head, clutching hard at his arms, fear snaking into her petite frame.
 
"Marry you. You know, till death do us part.." His hand lifted to the sable colored tresses that hung in ringlets around her heart shaped face.
 
"Adrian, I don't know about...." She began, tried to put some measure of space between them but came up short with his arm kept her in place.
 
"You don't wanna marry me, Sherry?" His eyes went wide, surprised that there was any question about it. Didn't she love him? Hadn't she said so? She had many many times, swearing her deep love and devotion to him. With a inwardly drawn breath over flowing with nervousness he released her, stepped away and went down on one knee.  "Sherry, would you do me the honor of being my wife? Will you marry me?"
 
"Yes."
 
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Dear Adrian,
 
I don't even know really where to begin, so much has changed since you've been away. I've changed really, grown up a lot, ya know? The time we spent together was fun, but I'm realizing that's all it was was. Fun. Its time to let me go, Adrian, because we can't base a life together on that. I won't be in your way and I can't let you be in mine, not when life is so short, not when I was your second choice. You left to fight a war a world away and left me here to think about what I really wanted. I don't want be just your friend but I know now that's all that I can be to you, a friend. I can't marry you, I won't marry you.
 
Adrian, pleased don't write me back saying you can't stay away from me. That you love me to much to let me go. It's killing me to write this letter, but this is something I can't control. I can't control the choices you've make or the way I feel. I want you to know, I harbor my own guilt for all of this. I feel I wasn't strong enough to keep our love from slipping through my hands. I'm sorry for that, and the truth is all I have to offer now. I trust you'll see there is no use in trying to change my mind, or trying to sway my feelings.
 
I will pray for you every night, Adrian, I will hold every bit of hope that is in me that you will come home safe and sound. Good bye, Adrian.
 
Your Friend,
 
Sherry
 
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Lifting his head Adrian folded the letter carefully and tucked it away, tucked it away with another letter that he carried. Turning his eyes to the overcast sky he pulled his runaway emotions in, stomping them down until they nothing but a dull gnawing in the pit of his stomach. He lifted his gun preparing to move with the small band of other man, the band that had been ordered to bring Ryan back to his mother.
 
She had asked him not to write back, and he wouldn't. There was nothing left to say. She had make it clear he wasn't a part of her life anymore and never would be again. He turned resolved eyes to the men around him, knowing most of them had gotten a similar letter in the months, the weeks that they had been away from loved ones, but it didn't make it any easier to understand.
 
"The big kiss off, huh?" Melish asked, falling in step beside him.
 
"Yeah, I guess it was." Carpazo kept his eyes narrowed strait ahead.
 
"It happens to the best of us." The other man reached over and clapped him on the shoulder. "They come and they go and there's no use crying over spilled milk, right?"
 
"Right." His hand clapped over the letters in his pocket, his only ties to home, one full of love to address to his father, the other nothing short of a shot through the heart. "You're right, Melish." Spilt milk, he repeated to himself as he thought about his first and only love.
 
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Fini
 
Lyrics : Can't Stay Away From You / Gloria Estefan
 
Time flies
When you're having fun
I heard somebody say
But if all I've been is fun
Then baby let me go
Don't wanna be in your way
And I don't wanna be your second choice
Don't wanna be just your friend
You keep telling me that you're not in love
You wanna throw it all away
But I can't stay away form you
I don't wanna let you go
And thoughit's killing me that's true
There's just some things I can't control
Your love is slipping through my hands
And though I've heard it all before
I know you're telling me the truth
I know it's just no use
But I can't stay away from you
Hold on to every bit of hope, that's all I ever do
Hoping you might change your mind
And call me up to say how much you need
me too
And though you're leaving me no other choice
That to utrn and walk away
Look over your shoulder, I'll be there
You can count on me to stay ...
'Cause I can't stay away from you
I don't wanna let you go
And though it's killing me that's true
There's just some things I can't control
Your love slipping through my hands
And though I've heard it all before
I know you're telling me the truth
I know it's just no use
But I can't stay away from you
 
 

 
 

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