When The Pawn...

Songs in this Album:

To Your Love
Limp
Love Ridden
Paper Bag
A Mistake
Fast as You Can
Get Gone
I Know



To Your Love

Here s another speech you wish I d swallow
Another cue for you to fold your ears
Another train of thought too hard to follow
Chugging along to the song that belongs to the
shifting of gears
Please forgive me for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
To your love, to your love, to your love
I would ve warned you, but really, what s the point?
Caution could but rarely ever helps
Don t be down when my demeanor tends to disappoint
It s hard enough even trying to be civil to myself
Please forgive me for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
To your love, to your love, to your love
My derring-do allows me to dance the rigadoon
Around you
But by the time I m close to you, I lose
My desideratum and now you, so
Now you have it, so baby tell me what s the word?
Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?
I just need to be reassured
Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with
What I lay down?
Please forgive me, for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive me for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
To your love, to your love, to your love

Limp

You wanna make me sick;
You wanna lick my wounds,
Don t you, baby?
You want the badge of honour when you save my hide
But you re the one in the way
Of the day of doom, baby
If you need my shame to reclaim your pride
And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You ll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry; get off now, baby-
It won t be long till you ll be
Lying limp in your own hand
You feed the beast I have within me
You wave the red flag, baby you make it run run run
Standing on the sidelines, waving and grinning
You fondle my trigger, then you blame my gun
And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You ll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry; get off now, baby-
It won t be long till you ll be
Lying limp in your own hand

Love Ridden

Love ridden, I ve looked at you
With the focus I gave to my birthday candles
I ve wished on the lidded blue flames
Under your brow
And baby, I wished for you
Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed
And I wanna crawl in with you
But I cry instead
I want your warm, but it will only make
Me colder when it's over
So I can t tonight, baby
No, not baby anymore - if I need you
I ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we ll only have to wave
My hand won t hold you down no more
The path is clear to follow through
I stood too long in the way of the door
And now I m giving up on you
No, not baby anymore - if I need you
I ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we ll only have to wave
No, not baby anymore - if I need you
I ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we ll only have to wave

Paper Bag

I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that
I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
-I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag
-Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I m a mess he don t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
-Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too
much to love
And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn t stay, wouldn t put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, Honey, I don t feel so good, don t feel
justified
Come on put a little love here in my void, - he said
It s all in your head, and I said, So s everything -
But he didn t get it - I thought he was a man
But he was just a little boy
-Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I m a mess he don t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
-Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too
much to love
-Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I m a mess he don t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
-Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too
much to love

A Mistake

I m gonna make a mistake-
I m gonna do it on purpose
I m gonna waste my time
Cuz I m full as a tick
And I m scratching at the surface
And what I find is mine
And when the day is done, and I look back
And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around
All the advice I shunned, and I ran
Where they told me not to run, but I sure
Had fun, so
I m gonna fuck it up again
I m gonna do another detour
Unpave my path
And if you wanna make sense
Whatcha looking at me for
I m no good at math
And when I find my way back,
The fact is I just may stay, or I may not
I ve acquired quite a taste
For a well-made mistake
I wanna mistake why can t I make a mistake?
I m always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why-
Do I wanna do right, of course but
Do I really wanna feel I m forced to
Answer you, hell no
I ve acquired quite a taste
For a well-made mistake, I wanna
Make a mistake, why can t I make a mistake
I m always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why-

Fast As You Can

I let the beast in too soon, I don t know how to live
Without my hand on his throat; I fight him always & still
O darling, it's so sweet, you think you know how crazy
-How crazy I am
You say you don t spook easy, you won t go, but I know
And I pray that you will
-Fast as you can, baby run-free yourself of me
Fast as you can
I may be soft in your palm but I ll soon grow
Hungry for a fight, and I will not let you win
My pretty mouth will frame the phrases that will
Disprove your faith in man
So if you catch me trying to find my way into your
Heart from under your skin
-Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself
Fast as you can
Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself
Fast as you can
Sometimes my mind don t shake and shift
But most of the time, it does
And I get to the place where I m begging for a lift
Or I ll drown in the wonders and the was
And I ll be your girl, if you say it s a gift
And you give me some more of your drugs
Yeah, I ll be your pet, if you just tell me it s a gift
Cuz I m tired of whys, choking on whys,
Just need a little because, because
I let the beast in and then;
I even tried forgiving him, but it s too soon
So I ll fight again, again, again, again, again.
And for a little while more, I'll soar the
Uneven wind, complain and blame
The sterile land
But if you re getting any bright ideas, quiet dear
I m blooming within
Fast as you can, baby wait watch me, I ll be out
Fast as I can, maybe late but at least about
Fast as you can leave me, let this thing
Run its route
Fast as you can (repeat 4 times)

Get Gone

How many times do I have to say
To get away-get gone
Flip your shit past another lasses
Humble dwelling
You got your game, made your shot, and you got away
With a lot, but I m not turned-on
So put away that meat you re selling
Cuz I do know what s good for me-
And I ve done what I could for you
But you re not benefiting, and yet I m sitting
Singing again, sing, sing again
How can I deal with this, if he won t get with this
M'I gonna heal from this; he won t admit to it
Nothing to figure out; I gotta get him out
It s time the truth was out that he don t give a
Shit about me
How many times can it escalate
Till it elevates to a place I can t breathe?
And I must decide, if you must deride
That I m much obliged to up and go
I ll idealize, then realize that it s no
Sacrifice, because the price is paid, and
There s nothing left to grieve
Fuckin go-
Cuz I've done what I could for you, and I do know what s
Good for me and I m not benefiting, instead
I m sitting singing again, singing again, singing
again,
Sing, sing, sing again
How can I deal with this, if he won t get with this
M'I gonna heal from this; he won t admit to it
Nothing to figure out; I gotta get him out
It s time the truth was out that he don t give a
Shit about me

I Know

So be it, I m your crowbar
If that s what I am so far
Until you get out of this mess
And I will pretend
That I don t know of your sins
Until you are ready to confess
But all the time, all the time
I ll know, I ll know
And you can use my skin
To bury secrets in
And I will settle you down
And at my own suggestion,
I will ask no questions
While I do my thing in the background
But all the time, all the time
I ll know, I ll know
Baby-I can t help you out, while she s still around
So for the time being, I m being patient
And amidst this bitterness
If you ll just consider this-even if it don t make
sense
All the time-give it time
And when the crowd becomes your burden
And you ve early closed your curtains,
I ll wait by the backstage door
While you try to find the lines to speak your mind
And pry it open, hoping for an encore
And if it gets too late, for me to wait
For you to find you love me, and tell me so
It s ok, don t need to say it.

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