I have
spent time with this lovely lady in the past.
It was more than a friendship and we both knew that
but we also knew so much about each others unfulfilled
expectations that... was always there between us. So many levels of hurt
and distrust and illusion. We enjoy each others company and we share
each others day to day trials. Then we were together again as I traveled,,,
purposely,,, through her hometown and managed another invitation
to spend time together. As we were going to get some equipment
for her computer I noticed a lighthouse and commented that
I wished I had brought along my camera.
When I finished
with the computer she suggested that we return to the
beach with the camera. When we got there I immediately started
to shoot. She is a beautiful woman and her discomfort in front
of the lens only adds to the joy of getting her to relax
and let things happen. After several shots I let her
take some pictures of me. As we headed back
to the boardwalk I saw an opportunity to set the camera where
we could get an auto shutter picture of us together.
I motioned for her to wait in position as I set
up the camera om the railing of the boardwalk.
All set. I turned and saw her standing there. Her sweet smile
warming me as she waited for me to come and stand
beside her. I set the shutter and headed to where she was standing.
When I got there my mind was no longer on taking the picture
as I simply cupped my hands to her face and kissed her.
Our lips automatically parted as I tasted her warmth and
she tasted my loneliness.
I could hear the shutter snap
bringing me back to reality. I had to go back to the
boardwalk and start again......which I did almost exactly the same
way......kiss included. I was so distracted by the thought
of what we were doing....on the beach.....with an audience
accumulating on the boardwalk that I forgot to load the shutter
switch and we kissed for a longer time. this time
I held her closer to me and hugged her as we let our breath
mingle in the moment we shared.
Oh
yeah!!! we wanted a picture together.......get
it right this time.
set timer......aim camera
..... depress shutter switch.......run to her......kiss
her again........oh oh. Again I forgot the original
plan
"OK ...once more but this
time I face the camera and we smile." I said
It worked and
we left the beach and took pictures
of the lighthouse and went on as if it was
just a dream. Back to the same friendly outpouring of
tales of past failed relationships and expectations for
our seperate futures. Only I know that I had felt things both emotional
and physical that I had not in quite a long time and I will
be able to ACT the same......but I will never feel the
same as I did before the KISS
> As I continue my journey to find my place in this world I will think often of this day and this beautiful lady. Maybe someday we will be together again and I will show her that this was not a frivolous moment.
