Starting Over

"so when I told my parents I wanted to be an actress they smiled, when I packed my bags they laughed, when I walked out the door they looked confused, when I got into the cab they disowned me, but when I won my first Oscar they cheered, they never thought I could make it and when I did they were the proudest people in that ceremony hall" alexia said as she walked down the darkened beach with her shoes in one hand. there was a full moon and that was the only light outside "you showed them" nick said smiling at her "the thing was they always believed in me but never thought I could make it, they didn't know how much I wanted it, I guess they wanted to spare me from the disappointment" she said as she sat on the damp cold sand "ale, can I ask you something personal, I mean really personal" he said as he took a seat next to her "sure" she said almost whispering afraid of what might happen "you said earlier in the club that you couldn't trust guys, why? what happened so that you lost the faith in man kind" he said looking at the side of her face she was going to say something but hesitated she took a deep breath and started "nick, all my life I have been looking for someone who will hold my hand, kiss my pains and fears away, to hold me, take care of me and love me, but overtime I find them something happens" she looked strait at the ocean and then back at nick "Jean Franco was my first boyfriend, I fell in love with him and thought that I would always be with him, but when I moved to new York we broke up, it killed him I had moved on but I still cared, then there was dean the man of my dreams he could make any wrong seem right and one day so psycho fan decided that the only place for me and him be together was in heaven so he tried to kill me and dean got in the way to protect me, he died for me, when he died I lost control of guilt" "guilt?" nick interrupted "I had doubted his love for me, and mine for him but then I turned out that he loved me so much he died for me, people called it the most romantic thing ever done, but what good did it make for him to die" a tear fell down her cheek "I figured out later on that I did love him, but not enough, then there where a series of jerks, some treated me right but I, just couldn't fall in love, then came matt" "Damon?" nick asked again "yeah, I was not interested at the beginning but little by little he won me over, about two months before we broke up I knew I had stopped loving him, I tried to love him but I couldn't, and little bye little another man won me over, so I took a deep breath and broke up with matt, I took no pity on him I belched it all out with out even thinking twice, I killed him, I didn't even try to sound nice, that night I went to his apartment to apologize to find 10 bottles on the floor and unlocked apartment both empty so I walked through the streets of new York alone and when I got to my apartment I found him sitting on the door step so I took him inside and......." "shhh, its all right ale " "he started swearing at me, how could of used him, cheated on him, and then he slapped me so hard throwing me to the floor then he jumped on me and tried to......... so I hit him with the first thing I found, a book on the coffee table and after that I left new York, left him, and decided I needed a doce of reality" she said as she looked in the opposite direction of nick "I am sorry, but I would never do that no matter what, I am falling in love with the most incredible person I have ever met and I would never hurt you, I promise" "how can you say your falling in love with me if you have only known me for three weeks, you don't know me" she said as she looked him strait in the eye "I cant explain love, but I know it is happening, why cause your the greatest person I have ever met, and I have more in common with you than with any of the guys, I love movies you love movies, I love sports you love sports, I love music you love music, I love pizza you love it, you like video games, you bite your nails I bite mine, we both have been burnt in love, we have friends that would do anything for us and vices versa we want people to like us for who we are not what we represent, the only difference is your much more mature than I am, and you can cook" he said taking her hands in his "how do you know all that " alexia asked looking into his deep blue eyes "Brian is my best friend remember" he smiled as he kissed her cheek lightly.

"so are you going to tell me what the consiagrege gave you or am I going to have to wrestle you for this one" alexia said trying to look behind nicks back "not yet you just have to wait a little more" he smirk "fine" alexia pouted as the elevator stopped and the door opened "so" "so aren't you getting out " alexia smiled at nick "ladies first" was all that came out of his mouth as he extended his left hand pointing at the door. alexia rolled her eyes and walked out of the elevator. she started walking to her room, noticing that nick was not behind her but the elevator door was still open "nick, you know you are making a camp in the wrong elevator" she yelled back laughing at her lame joke. as she got to the door she heard someone yell "wait " nick ran out of the elevator with his jacket off "oh, so now not only I cant see what you...."alexia paused looking at him strangely noticing his two hand were covered by his jacket "had behind your back, now I have to wait for your lazy ass" she smirked "I have to ask you something before you go in" he said getting very close to alexia, so close he could see every little face mark, and a small scar 'god, please help me not to kiss him' alexia thought as she looked for the strength to control herself "and that would be" she answered as she noticed her voice trembling. nick let his jacket fall to the floor revealing two roses one red and the other white. "red means you'll be my official girlfriend, even if we take things very slow. and white means you want nothing with me but a friendship, and I can understand that" he said looking at her dead in the eyes. alexia was going to say something but hesitated. she looked at both flowers then back at nick , her face expression didn't change making nick feel uneasy. alexia reached for the flowers and took the white one, making nick wipe the smile off his face "I took the white " she paused looked at him and then reached for the red "because every good relationship should always start with a friendship, and the red because even if I don't want to admit it I want something more than a friendship" alexia smiled and cradled his face with her hand making him look up at her he was blushing, and as he looked up, he cradled her face with both of his hands and kissed her lightly "I have been wanting to do that since the day I met you" nick said as they both pulled away from the kiss, alexia smiled but said nothing. she turned and opened the door "oh god" was all that came out of her mouth when she came into her room and found one side full of red roses and the other of white "thank god I said yes" alexia turned around and kissed him again.