I’m as pregnant as you can be and I feel like it. I found out that I was going to have a baby boy. Just like I had always wanted to. I wanted my other children to have an older brother to look up to.
I’m sitting in the living room on a Saturday night. I was the only one in the room. Angel and Aaron were upstairs playing and Leslie was out back, in the pool. Brian, Kevin, AJ, Howie and BJ where out there with her.
Hope and Destiny never came back; I sent all their stuff to Destiny’s house. Hope went back to Kentucky.
Okay so I wasn’t the only person in the room, I was only non-sleeping person in the room. Nick was sprawled out on the floor. He looked funny because his hair was everywhere and his shirt was halfway up his stomach. He looked like a little boy.
I sat there and watched him. I had a feeling that I was looking at my little boy while he was asleep. I sat there and started humming something. I had never heard it before but I knew it by heart. Then words started coming outta my mouth.
"When I first laid eyes on you
I felt my heart melt
I don’t think there are words
To describe how I felt
This is how it’s suppose to be
You standing right here with me
Oh why I didn’t see it before
My heart it tore
In two
Was it just me?
Could it really be?
Or was I just imagining?"
I have no idea where it came from but as I looked at Nick, the words just flowed.
He stirred a little and I stopped singing. "Hey. Faith," He said.
"Hi," I said quietly.
"I thought I heard singing." He looked at me.
"You did?"
"I haven’t heard a voice that pure in... in... Well actually I’ve never heard a voice that pure before." He was in a world of his own.
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah. Why, was it you?" he smiled a little and then saw the look on my face. "It was you, wasn’t it? Oh my god!" He got up off of the floor and sat down next to me. "Why didn’t you tell me that you could sing?"
"That’s how I met Brian. He complimented me on my singing in the church."
"He must have been deaf that day. You have the most beautiful..." He was speech-less.
"Nick, I’ve never sang like that before. I was just sitting here watching you sleep, thinking and I started singing a song that I’ve never heard before. It just was in my head and then it come out of my mouth."
"You sang like that while watching me sleep?"
"Yeah I did."
"Why?" It was more to himself then me.
"I don’t know why but while I watched you sleep I could see my baby asleep like that. You looked like a little kid and... And... Oh I don’t know!" I was frustrated. I had no idea what had just happened and the fact that someone else had been there when it happened...It was just weird.
He just stared at me. "Faith, I… I don’t know what to say. You have been graced with a gift."
"But Nick. I’ve never sung like that before. It was like it wasn’t even me that was singing."
"But it was Faith. I heard you. It was you."
"Nick, I’m scared."
"Why, baby? It’s okay."
"Yeah I know, but still that was the weirdest thing I’ve ever experienced."
"Do you remember the words that you sang?"
I nodded. "Yeah I do."
"Can you do me a favor and write them down for me before you forget?"
"Yeah, sure." He walked into the kitchen and came back with a pen and a piece of paper. I took them from him and wrote:
When I first laid eyes on you
I felt my heart melt
I don’t think there are words
To describe how I felt
This is how it’s suppose to be
You standing right here with me
Oh why I didn’t see it before
Was it just me?
Could it really be?
Or was I just imagining?
"And that’s when you woke up. That’s all that I know."
He took the paper from me a read it over. He had watched me write it. He looked at me, he looked shocked.
"What?"
"Nothing. It’s just that...Well..." he looked at the paper.
When I realized what he was thinking. "Oh, Nick. I don’t think it was meant like that. Remember I was think about how much you looked like a little boy..." I trailed off as I saw his face fall. He had wanted it the other way. "Oh Nick..." I whispered. I grabbed the paper and wrote something else that I had forgotten.
I handed the paper to Nick and as soon as he saw what I had added, he turned white:
Oh why I didn’t see it before
My heart it tore
In two
All I could do was wrap my arms around him.
I got a sudden sick feeling in my stomach and bolted upright. "It’s one of the kids." I looked him directly in the eyes as I said it. He ran up stairs to get Aaron and Angel. I went out back. That’s when I saw it. Leslie was sitting on the bench next to the rail. I saw a shadow in the background.
"Leslie, come here for a second I want to show you something." She got up and started walking towards me. I felt a little better but the feeling still didn’t go away. "Hey, I think the rest of you should come and see this too." When everyone was inside, I felt much better. Not five minutes after everyone was inside and in the living room, trying to figure out what I was going to show the there was a loud banging sound. Gun shots! Out side, by the pool. Right where Leslie had been sitting.
"Oh my God. Faith, if you hadn’t told us to come inside, we would have been..." Brian was to shocked to finished his sentence.
"I would have been a goner." Leslie started crying and came over to me. She threw her arms around me and we sat down on the couch. She fell asleep. We all fell asleep in the living room.
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