"SOMEBODY GET ME OUT OF HERE, I'M TEARING OUT
MYSELF..."
In the words of my fave
rocker to describe these works...
"Infinate madness...I'm in love with my sadness"
if ya don't know who said that SHAME on ya...
anyway here are my terribly depressed words.
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THE END
the music has stoped
words have
ceased
feeling is dead
i am
empty.
elvis has left the
building
so long ago i can't
remember.
all the lights are off
this
silence is deadly.
having you, even at
that distance,
gave me hope...
gave me
breathe.
made this all
worthwhile.
you were my
thoughts.
all my dreams
my
love...
my entirety.
but the music has stopped.
love is
dead.
fate is creul.
and i'm so damn
tired.
© marjorie black
RAMBLING
so empty, i can't think
thinking and
everything...
everything and
anything...
HURTS
my heart is
bleeding...
bleeding is what i do
best...
best was suppose to be for
last...
last is what i always am...
WHO
CARES...
i needed you more...
more is
what i'll never have...
have these "fina"
thoughts...
thoughts are
gone...
GOOD-BYE
© marjorie
black
THE DEFINATION OF "YOU"
you were water, when i was in
thirst.
you, were food, when i hungered.
you were nectar, when i needed
sweetiness
you were my hopes, when i needed to
dream.
you were a savior, when i needed
salvation.
you were light, exsisting in my
darkiness.
you were air, that i needed to
breathe.
you were everything.
damn, i never
needed anyone like this before.
you were lullabies, when i needed
soothing.
you were embraces, when i
was lonely.
you were strength, when i was
weak.
you were safety, when i was
scared.
you were laughs, when i needed to
smile.
you were a fix, when i fevered in
need.
you were everything.
and exsistence is meaningless now...
©
marjorie black
UNTITLED
exsistence has lost it's luster for
me.
but i don't think it ever
shined.
perhaps i did once.
but it was
breif, so were you.
god, i miss
you.
my heart is finally empty.
no
more blood, no more heartbreaks.
when
there's nothing left...you can't feel.
but
i
don't want to feel when you're gone.
why
are you gone?
i'm letting my thoughts and self go.
i'm
too far gone to get all back anyhow.
i'm
not a shiny pretty girl.
what was i
anyway?
what was i??
slumber is this shit's cure.
shitty heart,
shitty life...
i need to close these weary
eyes.
my hands hold a month's worth of
sleep candy.
just as i dream forever, i
hope you're there.
© marjorie
black
WORDS, PHRASES
i no longier feel, i don't want to anyway.
empathy has just lost it's space here. i've
felt everything for far too long now. i'm
tired.
© marjorie black
UNFINSHED
Burning brings a moonlite night.
And
emptiness brings the sun.
But all I ever
wanted or needed,
Was for our souls to
merge as one.
Frosty echos can leave
a scar.
while empaled love leaves me
deaf.
But all I can do is think of
you,
And this feeling deep within my
breast.
The rain has kissed in
sweetiness.
while my lips have seemed to
cry.
The wind has seen more of me.
Than
the pools that are your eyes.
© marjorie
black
mumbles of sensless rage
acidrain of tears storm down... marking,
eating, burning my face.
I can't even
look in the mirror anymore, the reflection is
too cruel.
fuck that shrink that told
me to stnd here, and say "i'm beautiful, and
i love me..."
no fuck me for ever believing.
© marjorie black
d r i e d - u p
just alike, that withered rose and I.
That
one I keep in my drawer.
I too lay amongst
scatters.
unmoving...
scentless I
am no longier pretty.
dry, we are no
longier lively.
we are both but has
beens.
just ugly remains of beauty.
a
memory to remind you nothing is good
anymore.
why do I ever keep it
anyway?
because I can't throw away
myself...
but i wish i could.
©
marjorie black
mirage of
salvation
I screamed, and screamed.
Hoping someone
would hear.
Nobody ever did
though.
Least of all
you...God.
cursed your
name.
gave you blame.
than apologized
in last hopes you'd hear.
I cried,
even when I didn't want to.
Oh how I
wanted the pain to stop.
I begged you to
help me.
shed tears for you to see.
But
it all was just waste to add on age.
I
bowed down, surrendering.
told myself i
was nothing...
but you'd make it
better.
crawled on bloody
knees.
crawled on scared
knees.
why didn't you care?
WHY
don't you ever listen?
© marjorie
black
