A Loving Mistake
Written: July 10,1998
Lesley walked into the school halls. That morning she forced herself to get out of her bed. She was fearful to see the person who would always be embedded into her future ahead. The day before she had vomited. But that wasn't the only time. She threw up a lot the past few weeks. She would get sick. She knew what was happening. She knew that a child was growing inside of her. A doctor didn't have to announce it to her. It was three months from the day it happened. February 7, 1998 to be exact. Jordan had came over her house and picked her up that night. They were going to celebrate their second month anniversary. It was a romantic evening. An evening she thought she would never forget. But that was in a good sense. Now she could never forget it because now they had a leftover from it. They didn't plan to have sex, but it happened. They just went to a romantic dinner at her favorite Italian restaurant. Followed with a stroll in the park surrounded by other couples arm in arm. She remembered how Jordan said that he loved her. That he never felt this way for anyone. The mistake was that she believed him. Now she was paying. Jordan and her were still dating. A little over five months. Jordan was clueless. Anytime she would get sick she blamed it on food, car sickness, her period, and so many other lame excuses. She wished Jordan was a bit smarter. She didn't want him to learn the truth by her mouth. She was afraid of losing him. She loved him more then anything. He had always said the same, but lots of guys said that to their girlfriends. When Lesley saw Jordan walking down the hall towards her she nervously clutched on her bookbag. He looked so handsome and innocent to her. Not knowing that he was going to be a father, no matter if he left her or stayed.
"Hey Les, what's wrong?" he asked concerned.
Lesley got nervous. She ran out of excuses. She knew that it was time to let him know the truth. But how? She still didn't want to tell him. And in school, it just wasn't the place. It wouldn't be hard to get out of the school grounds with Jordan's red pickup truck.
"Nothing," she stammered.
Jordan just stared into her deep brown eyes that were filled with fear. He knew something was wrong. "I know you enough to know that you aren't all cheery. I mean you have been so distant this past week. I thought you were just having some more family troubles so I stayed clear. But Denise said that you and your family were getting along fine."
Denise was Lesley's best friend. She wasn't even aware of the formation of a new road ahead. She wished that something was going on with her family, because once more she could easily slip away from the truth burying in her body.
"Jordan, something is wrong. It isn't my family. There was no food making me sick. I don't get car sick. And it's not my period!"
Her boyfriend looked at her with the most confused expression on his face. "What? I'm not following you."
"Jordan. I-I'm, um, I am..."
"What is it," he aked not knowing what he was about to hear.
Lesley looked into his eyes before she continued, and then to the white cement below her. She whispered,"I'm pregnant." Not wanting to know his reaction she ran to the girls bathroom that was right around the corner. As she ran in she heard Jordan call her name. But she didn't turn around. She didn't want to lose the one person that constantly made her happy. Not even five minutes after she had been in the stall did someone knock on it.
"Les, I love you. I will be there for you and our child."
Lesley started to cry even more,"No you won't. You are only seventeen. We can't raise a child."
"But we can try."
She reluctantly opened the stall door. As she did she noticed something she never did before. Jordan had this caring look about him. A look that said he wasn't lying about how he felt or wanted. She walked up to him and hugged him with all of her emotion taking over.
"I'm so scared," she cried into his shoulder.
"So am I....so am I," he replied while running his hands through her hair as he hugged her in return.
They stood there for ten minutes just crying and whispering about how much they loved eachother, they wouldn't let go, they would care for their child no matter what happened to them. When a girl walked in and saw them she looked concerned. It wasn't everyday you saw a boy and a girl crying in a girls bathroom. But the couple ignored her and walked out of the restroom. They decided that they would go to Lesley's house and call her parent's to tell them the news. After they called their parents, who were worried since their children were at home and not at school. But no one could be as worried as the two teenagers, Lesley and Jordan, who now had the responsibility as parents. They knew that nothing would ever be the same. And they were right.