Chapter Two
Tears began to flow, I hated the new Joshua Chasez, for he had changed so much from the sweet 16 year old boy I had fell in love with, "I never told him either" I said outloud to myself. Just then a knock on the door "who is it" I yelled, hoping they'd catch on I wasnt in the mood for visitors. "Aimz, open I'm not leaving untill you open the door" it was J of course, Shorty prolly told him I was upset about him not seeing my scene. "The door is unlocked" I yelled out laughing at him, I was changing my eyes were a little red, but he probably wouldnt notice. I turned around cause I smelled food, "YUM Yum, Apple pie," I said and looked straight at the bag J was holding. "Yah my treat for missing the show" J said putting the bag down and laughing at me "J what are you laughing at Im supposed to be angry at you you know" I said getting angry again not noticing anything and then Shorty and JuJu walked in, "Uh Aimz put a shirt on" Shorty said while laughing I looked down to notice I was in a sports bra and shorts. "Oh oh well" I said laughing at myself. I put on a shirt and took the pie, "Ok bye J Im going out dancing since your probably too busy for me tonight AGAIN" I said, as I grabbed my purse. He stopped me, "Im sorry Aimz you know how busy my music thing keeps me." J said trying to hug me,( AS A FRIEND :( ) "Joshua Scott Chasez don't tell me its just that cause JuJu makes it to pretty much everything we ask him to and when he cant he calls unlike you." I yelled. "J you've disappointed me one too many times these pasty years, why I want to know why, what happened to my sweet 16year old best friend who did everything with me?." I asked this time not yelling at him. "I know I'm sorry" he said. "Yah your always sorry" I said walking off and leaving him there, JuJu followed as Shorty stayed behind to say somethig to J. "J she hasn't accpeted the fact that your not around much anymore and you've grown, she's still a child and she holds to her memories of when we were all younger, and J she loves you, she really does, think about when she turned 16 and then when you did, that year was her best, she shows up and does anything for you J relize that" She said and followed after me and JuJu. We went to a club that night, "Hey JuJu come dance with me" Shorty said, "But your short" I said laughing. "Hey that's a good thing" Shorty said grabbing JuJu's hand and pulling him out to the dance floor, I just sat there nobody special to dance with and thought about when I was 16 my sweet 16 party. FlashBack "Your 16" Shorty said, "Let's go driving" J said turning towards my mother. "I have to get my license first." I said Laughing at them. "MoM" I said sweetly, I had already taken Drivers Ed,and passed it so of course I was hoping she'd let me, "sure let's go" We all went to the DMV I got my license and I drove home. "Can we go to the movies," shorty asked, "Sure, Mom can we please" we all pleaded with her untill she agreed to let me drive JuJu Shorty & J to the movies. That was when I was seeing J for something other than a brother, and best friend. End Flashback "Aimz,hello earth to Aimz" J said. I finally snapped out of my thoughts and back to reality, "Yah J" I said with a smile. "Let's dance your sitting here in Lalaland and your making me feel bad" J said laughing at me in his own cutesy way. "It's a slow dance though" I stated, thinking about him, but then I shook the thought away. "So your not 15 anymore, besides its not like we both are married and then somethings gonna happen between us." he said as I paused knowing he was right and wishing he wasnt. "JuJu and Shorty look like their getting along like hubby and wife" J said as I shook the thought of me and J togther. "Yah I think something's blossming between them, and Shorty is such a sweet girl, so is JuJu I hope they dont let years of knowing each other stand in the way of love" I said looking over at JuJu and Shorty on the dance floor Shorty had her arms around his neck leaning against him, they looked so cute together. "Well Next week you'll be 23" J said, then he remembered, "Mom wants you to come home and visit, us back in Washington, she hasnt seen you since she moved back from here" J finished. The song stopped and I just imagined J kissing me like JuJu and Shorty kissed, that minute, I looked over at them and they were still kissing, "How did she do it" I thought to myself. She was not only getting closer to JuJu she was becomming something else to him,and him to her. It filled me with happiness, then saddness to think of J and I falling apart as friends let alone anything more. I walked back to my seat, as J found some other girl to dance with. I sat alone again, tears forming again, so i left, J could take shorty back home. I left a note on the table and left. I didn't think anyone noticed I had actually left. I drove home in silence, finally I got home and checked my messages, "Amie, you need to rehearse tonight, your scene theres some broadway show scouts comming out" a message said, it was my manager from the theater. I said out loud well if J and JuJu and the rest of their friends can make their dreams so can I. I went to my room to practice, I needed help but that didnt matter. I started to sing my part. "And Now Im all alone again, Nowhere to turn No one to go too Without a home without a face to say hello to and now the night is near now I can make believe he's here. Sometimes I walk alone at nigt when everyone else is sleeping I think of him and Im happy with the company Im keeping the city goes to bed and I can live inside my head On my own pretending he's beside me all alone I walk with him till morning without him I feel his arms around me and when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me. In the rain the pavement shines like sliver all the lights are misty in the rivers, In the darkness the trees are full of starlight and all I see is him and me foreva and forver And I know its only in my mind that Im talking to myself and not him, and although I know that he is blind. still I say theres a way for us.... I love him but when the night it over, he is gone the rivers just a river without him the world around me changes the trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers I love him but everyday Im learning all my life I've only been pretending his world will go on turning a world full of happiness that I have never known I love him I love him I love him but only on my own." I sang out as loud and to the best of my ability then I fell to the ground and cried.