We were about 250 miles from Portland, OR. It was gloomy day and it was raining. AJ and Krista were chatting sitting on the edge of Kris' bed. Howie, Kev and Brian were eating some lunch. I was in the den resting. Nick came in.
"Hey baby" he said enthusiaticly. He sat down next to me and leaned in for a kiss. I pulled away. "What's wrong?" he asked
My face was turned away so he couldn't see me crying. He turned my face towared his "baby?"
I was sobbing "Ummm.....today is the 1 year anniversry of....Jess's death"
He looked really concerned "Oh Tess....I'm so sorry"
"Nick" I said wipng my tears away "Can't you just hold me?" We stood up as I cried. I felt save in Nick's arms.
"SHHHH" He comforted me "It's ok Tess. I think you should call your mom" He wiped a tear from my cheek. He smiled
I pulled myself together "maybe your right" I told him. He held my hand as I got my cell. We sat on the couch. I dialed my number. "BBBRRRRRRING...BBBBBBBBRRRRRING"
"Hello?" a wealk voived said through the phone. It was my mother. I could tell she was crying too.
"Hi mom" I said trying to cover up my sadness "It's Tess"
"Hey Tessa" Mom said with a little more excitment in her voice "How's your trip?" She asked
"it's great" I told her "Ummm......." I looked at Nick "I'm going out with Nick Carter"
There was a long pause "That's great Honey" She said not too thrilled
"Umm.well I know you're.....ummm probably going to" I started to cry again "Ummmm..the cemetary so when you...ummm go please give my reguards to Jess and Pa-Pa"
She started to cry to "of course I will"
"Oh MAMA" I shreaked the tears started to flow like rivers "I miss them"
"So do I sweetie, so do I" she replied
"Well ummm.....I have to go now. I love you. Say hello to Matt and Dad for me:
"I will sweetheart" She replied "I love you too"
"Bye"
"Bye"
The line went dead. I stopped crying by then. Nick rubbed my shoulder "Feel better?' he asked
"Yea" I replied. I looked at him with a smile "Thanks" I gave him a sweet kiss
"No problem girl" He said. We got up
"I'm still upset but I feel better" I told him
"I know" he said "It will be hard" ~*SAME DAY 1 PM*~
"Got any 3's" Howie asked me
"Go fish" I told him.
"Kev got any Kings?"
"Go fish" he replied
We were all in the den. AJ and Kris were....ahhem...kissing. Brian and Nick were playing Nintendo. After a little bit, Brian and Nick joined the game.
"Nicky do ya have any queens?" Brian asked
"Yea but I can't give her to you" He replied with a sly smile
"Why not?" Brian asked pulling down a pillow from the couch
"Because she's right here and she's mine" Nick said as he took my hand
"Nick" I said blushing "that's sweet but you're embarassing me"
The boys were giggling. Howie came in with some popcorn as we decided to watch "The Faculty" Everyone had their soda's and popcorn. Kevin closed the blinds so it was just like a movie theater. Nick and I snuggled on the couch next to AJ and Krista were STILL kissing (enjoying this story Kris? hahaha) Kev sat in the chair. Howie and Brian sprawled on the floor. It just was a real bonding kind of day, ya know? We all got along and have a few laughs. Nick and I, I thought, were getting along great and we have great communication with each other.
~*SAME NITE 10:37*~
Kris and I were in the Den just chatting. We were changed in our PJ's. Flannels and a white tankie for me. Kris wore red boxers and a white T-Shirt. I hear my cell ring. I get up to get it.
"Hello?" I said
"Tessa?" Asked a familar voice
I sat next to Kris. "Regina?" I asked. It was my best friend Regina. I haven't talked to her since I've left college.
"Hey"
"Hey" I said happily
"SO I hear your on tour with the Backstreet Boys?" She asked
I got up to get a Coke. "You've talked to Mom haven't you?" I asked
"Well Yea" She replied
"What have you been up to?" I asked her sipping the coke
"Well, ya see I would of called you sooner, but I've been In Oklahoma the whole summer working with some meterologisrt on Tornadoes"
"Really?" I asked. I sat next to Kris on the couch "That's great! You've always wanted to do that ever since you were 10. I've been at FSU studying Child Psycology."
"Yea I know" Regina said "Good"
I was still chatting with Regina when the boys came in all tired and sweaty. Nick plopped next to me on the couch
"Oh yea. The BSB are having a party for their "Millenium" Album going 10X platuinum and I want you to come"
"Really?" Regina asked suprised "Do I get to meet the BSB?"
"Yea I'll send you an invitation ASAP" I told her giving Nick a peak on the cheek
"Great!" She shreiked "Can't wait"
"Ok" I said "Now I have to go, the boys are back and I have to get ready for bed"
"WAIT!" Regina yelled "Can I talk to Nick...PLEASE!!!" She begged
"Hold on" I said. I covered the speaking part. "Can you talk to my friend Regina?" I asked "She's a great admirer"
"Sure" Nick replied enthusiastically. He took the phone "Hello Regina" he said
Regina was tounge tied. She couldn't believe it. "Hi Nick" she stammered "How are you doing?"
"Good" Nick replied "How are you?"
"I'm great" She replied "Well, I got to go. Dad's yelling at me to get off. Nice talking to you Nick. I'll see ya at the party"
"Bye Regina. Nice chatting with you" He replied with a smile
"Tell Tessa I said I miss her and I'll call her next week"
"Will do" He replied "Bye now"
"Bye"
He hung up. "Thanks for chatting with her" I told her giving him a sweet kiss.
"Anytime sweetie" He replied with a smile. We cuddled to watch a bit of TV b4 bed.
Im still devastaded from Grandpa and Jess's deaths. It will take me a long time to get over it. I'm glad peope will listen and try to help me through this dificuilt time. I had a very relaxing and enjoyable time. I was so happy when Regina called. I missed her so much. I can't wait to see her. That's all for now. Toodles!!!