We were in Edmonton, Canada. The boys were all relaxing doing their own little things. I was writing a song. I was having a great writing day. Brian came over and sat next to me at the table. He looked over my shoulder. "What are you writing?" He asked.
I turned my head over to him. "Just a song that I've been workin on" I told him.
He reached his hand out "Mind if I take a look?" he asked.
"No, go ahead" I said giving him my note pad. He put his feet on the table and started to read it out loud.
"When I heard the news
That you were slipping away
I sat in my room
Crying
Knowing what was wrong
Sad but true you're
Dying
I looked back on all the fun we used to have
When you kiss my tears away
And I remember..."He rubbed his chin. "This is a good song"
"Thanks" I said "I'm not done yet"
He handed it back to me "It's turning out pretty good" Brian walked over to Nick "Is she a singer?" Brian asked Nick inquizzativly
Nick sat down in the den "She sings at club and parties. Nothing big. She's trying out for a few labels in the spring"
"Do you think...." brian hesitated
"Well" Nick continued "If she sings as well as she writes, she could be great"
~*THAT NIGHT 9:26*~
I decided to stay with Krista during the boys performance. SHe's been down since she can't do much. We had a "Girls night in" kind of thing. We went into the den and watched "Peter Pan" (don't ask me why) and chatted. We had popcorn, soda the works.
"So" Krista said sipping some Coke "How ae you and Nick doing?"
I smiled "Good but I'm still wondering what will happen when I go back home" I told her eating some popcorn "Have you and AJ discuss that?"
"Well we really like eachother and we're gonna try and work that out" She told me.
"I see" I replied
Then she started to go into her rambling mode "He's so sweet. The other day when it was raining cats and dogs remeber?" I nooded "He told me he loved me"
I was suprised "He did? That's great Kris" I gave her a hug "I'm soo happy for you"
"I love him too" She continued "I'm really close to him. We talk about everything"
"Yea" I replied "AJ and I have a brother and sister relationship. We have alot of fun with each other"
She finished her soda "that's good" She replied. My face suddenly saddened. "Tess" Krista said "What's wrong"
"Umm...I just am gonna miss Nick when I go home. He's really helped me. Him and Howie too. I don't want to go"
"Me neither" Krista replied "But if you two love each other enough, you can make it work" SHe hugged me
"Yea" I agreed. We watched the rest of the movie in silence. The we headed for our beds. I put on the radio and started to doze off.
A few minetes later, the boys came in all tired and sweaty. Nick walked by my bed and peeked in
"Tess?" He asked "Are you asleep?"
I turned to him half awake. I rubbed my eyes "No Nick, c'mon in". He climbed in and sat next to me in bed. I rested my head on his shoulder. i took the headphones off my ears. "How was the concert?" I asked him
"Good" He replied "But AJ almost fell of the stage during "Don't Want You Back"
I giggled. We talked for a little while more. "Nick" I started. I held his hand "I'm gonna miss you when I go back. You and the rest of the boys."
"I'm gonna miss you too Tess" He told me "You're very special"
"Me?" I asked "I'm a nobody"
"Listen" He said tilting my head toward his "You're not a nobody. If your singing carrer goes pro, you'll be somebody. if it doesn't, you'll always be somebody to me and the rest of the boys."
"Thanks" I said giving him a peck on the cheek. We sat there for a few moments in silence.
"Tess?" He whispered into my ear
I turned to him "yea?" I replied
"I love you" he whispered. I was in shock that he said that. To me of all people. A NOBODY! (Well not to him). I was never noticed in school, except for maybe soccer. I had very good grades and graduated 23 out of 134.
I turned to him "I love you too" I told him. At that moment, the song "I Drive Myself Crazy" by NSYNC (who knew?? hahaha) was playing. From that moment on, it was out song. Then we kissed and he fell asleep. I was writting in my diary once again:
I'd glad Kris and I got to talk. We haven't talked in a while. It was fun. I can't believe Nick said he loved me? I mean I'm just an ordinary person. I love him too. He should be dating movie stars or singers but he's going out with a Sophmore at FSU. But that's sterotypical. he's just a normal guy. Even if he wasn't a BSB member, I'd still love him. Remember beauty is only skin deep. Till next time, stay safe and sober. Peace out!!!